I Am Home
Be selfish this time

"It's funny my life" Namira said as she stared at the grass beside her, Dimas sat down and looked down deeply.

"You have a brother, don't you, Dim?" Ask Namira.

Dimas nodded slowly.

"If you and your brother love the same woman, will you choose to give up or will you try to get her for your happiness?" Namira looked at Dimas's face "Follow your head and look me in the eye Dim!" Namira Assert.

Dimas lifted his head, although it felt heavy Dimas finally dared to look into Namira's eyes.

Huhhhhh.... Dimas let out a heavy sigh, gathering the best lines to answer Namira's question.

"Maybe I don't have to budge or get the woman" Namira knitted her brows waiting for Dimas to continue his words "Because my brother will definitely succumb to my happiness" he continued.

"You're right".

Deg .... Dimas' heart suddenly felt pain, the air around him felt exhausted to make his breath feel difficult, Dimas just realized if the answer earlier could make the relationship end.

"Mir I mean"Dimas stammered unable to continue his sentence, Namira's eyes looked as if he was beating his heart.

"If I did the same thing what would happen to you Dim?" Namira asked with a serious face.

"Ma...he means?" Dimas asked, Dimas already knew what Namira's question meant, only that he was not ready and not even ready to accept the next reality.

"You must already know what I mean" Namira gave a sweet smile from her lips, a smile that usually felt peaceful to Dimas when she saw it, but at this time Namira's smile really cuts his heart to cause a very deep wound.

"Mir" Dimas clasped Namira's hand tightly.

"Can a brother not be selfish for his own happiness?" lirih Dimas with a face that has begun to look sad.

"May" Namira nodded slowly, a glimmer of hope appeared for Dimas.

"But maybe it's for someone else not for me".

Deg.

"May I ask one thing Mir" Dimas pleaded through the look in his eyes.

Namira was still silent, not answering Dimas's question, slowly Namira let go of Dimas' hand.

"Before I answer may I ask one thing?"

Dimas stared at Namira's face for a moment then nodded weakly.

"Do you have any plans with me in the future?" Ask Namira.

Dimas nodded "Yes" he said briefly.

"Then do you already have a plan without me in the future?"

Dimas nodded again, Namira smiled faintly.

"Initially I had only one plan and purpose in life" Dimas stared fixedly into Namira's eyes "Lo Namira!, lo plan and purpose for my life in the future, but after I met Dinda last time, he said, at that time I had made plans for the future without lo".

Namira frowned at the last words of Dimas.

"You met Dinda?" Dimas nodded "When?" Namira.

Dimas then recounted his last meeting with Dinda, Dinda's response when Dimas apologized not to forget he conveyed, let alone Dinda's clear words will oppose the relationship between himself and Namira.

"So, what's your life plan without me Dim?"

"Gue will focus on learning and realizing my dream so docte" said Dimas confidently.

Namira chuckled softly "You want to keep your promise to Anna?" Namira asked, Dimas had previously told me if he ever promised to be a doctor and cure Anna when Anna was sick, but Dimas felt no need to keep his promise because Anna was also gone, but at that time Namira tried to convince Dimas to keep his promise to Anna, because the man he held was his word.

"It's not because of Anna's appointment, so the doctor is no longer an appointment but a dream for me" said Dimas.

"Then?"

"Gue doesn't want any other Dimas to be devastated by Anna's loss, as they're not necessarily going to meet another Namira to help her get up".

Namira smiled broadly at Dimas' reply, she could see the sincerity in Dimas's eyes.

"OK I understand" said Namira "Then what are you asking me for?" Ask Namira.

Dimas exhaled and breathed a few times, he was preparing himself to hear Namira replied.

"May I ask you to be selfish this time for our happiness or precisely for my happiness?" Clear crystals began to condense in Dimas' eyes, a demand that Dimas hoped to grant.

"Are you sure you want to hear that answer now?"

"Will the answer hurt?" Tanya Dimas started to doubt.

"Something will hurt from my answer"

Dimas was not ready, very unprepared to hear the answer from Namira.

"If I'm not ready to hear your answer right now, will you still answer my request next time?" Pinta Diasa expectantly

Namira shakes.

"There is no other time, but I might answer it in the second life or in the parallel world you wish it existed"

"Will you answer yes in that other time or dimension?"

"Why do you ask that?"

"If your answer is yes in other times and dimensions, I would rather you not answer my request now".

Namira smiled, she had tears that had just washed Dimas' cheeks, Namira then pulled Dimas to stand up and he gave a hug to Dimas, a hug that she would miss so much was a hug that was probably the last time due to her own stupidity that did not dare to make up her mind.

"If the day you can't live happily comes to me Dim, but if the moment you come and find me is already happy look from afar and look for new happiness".

"Someone once said love knows where to go". Dimas said, mimicking Namira's words the other day.

"Then go home from there where you should go to Dim".

"If the place I'm coming home is lo?"

"I'll open the door if it happens, so let time be answered".

Namira walks away from Dimas, Dimas flips his body to see Namira leave, no more tears, Dimas delivers Namira's departure with a smile.

"Gue will charge you an answer, I will charge all your promises, in the future, in the second life or in a parallel world though Mir, I will fight you in the future Mir" dimas said in his heart as his eyes never slipped away staring at Namira's back further away.