I Am Home
The one I was looking for

"Ann lo used to be my mind?" dimas asked in the middle of the night, Anna could not sleep because all day Anna had closed her eyes.

Anna nodded.

"So my husband" he said enthusiastically.

Dimas.

"That was then, now my mind is to be a doctor".

"So you don't want to be my husband" Anna said.

"So your husband is a must, while so the doctor is a goal, I want to be a doctor so I can do it lo pas lo sick Ann" Dimas replied as he stared in Anna's shade.

"Lo want to promise Ann?"

"What?"

"Lo's gonna hold on until I'm a doctor".

Anna nodded quickly while commenting on her usual sweet smile.

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Tittt......

A loud voice rang out from a monitor that signaled there was no more life in one's body, no more heartbeats that made the woman smile sweetly, no more blood flow made the woman stare in the shade.

Tears spilled from the people who were there, Anna's parents even just silently pecked after the doctor declared Anna had left, the three members of the bad boys immediately sat weakly stunned in their respective cries.

Ardi and Amar continue to shed tears, pain is filling their hearts, Noval just cries in silence, no tears come out, but her heart is very broken, especially when the look in his eyes clearly captured Dimas' face that seemed to lose his soul, Dimas' eyes were blank as if there was no longer any hope of life for him.

Dimas, he was still standing staring at the beautiful face of Anna, in his face attached to the face of Anna there was a peaceful smile there.

His heart could not accept what had happened even though his logic said that if Anna had left, no tears had come out of his eyes, Dimas still hoped that this was all a dream, he desperately hoped that the cry of his mother while banging on the door of the room woke him up from this nightmare.

In his grasp of the cloth, Dimas slightly squeezed it, his eyes still staring at every inch of Anna's face, Dimas was recording as well as Anna's face for him to store in his brain memory.

Dimas' head lowered, he brought his head close to Anna's face, then Dimas put his lips right on Anna's forehead, that coldness that Dimas felt when his lips stuck perfectly on Anna's forehead, no longer heard the laughter of Anna, no longer seen the sweet smile of Anna when Dimas peed his forehead, no longer look red hue on his cheeks.

Dimas slowly pulled the cloth to cover Anna's face perfectly, there were no tears there, tears seemed reluctant to come out of Dimas' eyes even just to relieve the burden on his shoulders, just to close a little gaping hole in her heart, there were no tears to let Anna go, Dimas only smiled wryly when he last looked at Anna's face.

Her heart was completely broken at this moment, Anna left by leaving behind a million wounds in her heart, Dimas couldn't even imagine what would happen tomorrow when he had to spend the rest of the day without Anna.

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Dimas was still silent pecking beside Anna's navel, 3 hours passed since Anna was buried but not a step Dimas moved, there left Dimas and his three friends only, just, anna's family had left with Dimas' mother an hour ago, they were tired of persuading Dimas to come home.

"Ann lo is the most reliable liar I've ever known" he said as he stood next to a tombstone bearing the name Nirvanya Attalia.

"Lo promised to stay until I became a doctor, but you could easily deny it to Ann"

Tests.....

Finally tears came out of Dimas's eye patch, tears that he had been crying since, tears that he hoped could slightly reduce his pain.

The three friends of Dimas just keep quiet while staring at Dimas with indescribable gaze, they want to give as much time as possible for Dimas to spill all his wedge, all his pain, all his pain, they could only hope that Dimas would be able to slightly organize his heart to continue his life.

"Ann Lo is a fairy tale to me, a story I can only remember without being able to make it happen"

"Nirvanya Attalia, I hope you're happy there even though I'm very devastated here, I hope this isn't all your choice Ann"

"Ann if there's a second life, and I hope there's a second life, you're the one I'm looking for"

"Wait for me in my second life" Dimas kissed Anna's tombstone while closing his eyes.

Dimas then woke up, he immediately left the navel of Anna without talking anything to his three friends who had been loyal to stand behind him.