When Passion Is Greater Than Lust
Bude's Arrival

The situation of Siti is getting better. He can do normal activities as usual. But Siti still seems reluctant if she has to stay with Dadang without her Father and Mother-in-law, so Siti is still at home and survives in her in-laws' house.

Being Dadang now even looks resigned . He apparently tried to obey the advice of the Father so as not to force the will, giving time to Siti. Although not until when.

" Mommy. Bude will be here today ! now on the road. " Siti opened her voice as they were folding clothes in the family room.

Lastri turned her head "Loh kok yang yahanya impromptu anyway Ti, it is not delicious if your bude come but there is no special banquet,.." There was a disappointed tone in Lastri's voice. However, Dewi, Bude Siti was his besi and they rarely met.

" It's okay, Mak. Bude is not picky when it comes to eating. Lagian bude also likes parchment and kale rica-rica . hence Tadi Siti cook it the same Salsa."

Siti seems to explain, So that Mother does not misunderstand his attitude.

" Oh pantes, you were busy in the kitchen for hours . " Lastri seemed to comment on the behavior of Siti and Salsa who did a little long cooking for their dinner.

" Your bud seems to miss you Ti. You usually go there to meet him. "

Bude Dewi is a childless widow, her husband died fifteen years ago and until now Bude decided not to marry again. She was like a mother to Siti. So Lastri is not good if there is no special banquet at his arrival this time.

" I told Bude that I was having a miscarriage and was going to get a divorce from Bang Dadang. That's why he's here.." Siti's face is normal when saying all that, She also still seems to focus on arranging clothes that have been finished in tidying.

" Thus . Your bude knows?"

Siti nodded "I'm sorry Siti ya Mak. Siti can not keep Bang Dadang marwah again in front of Bude Dewi. This is the biggest decision for Siti. After the big decision that Siti took over ten years ago. That is receiving the proposal Bang Dadang"

Lastri was silent. He can't speak anymore. She thought Siti would give a second chance to their household, but the reality she heard now made her unable to hold back the tears.

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Siti waited for her bud on the porch of her in-laws house. His longing sense of course had greatly made him impatient to meet the middle-aged woman. Having Dewi makes Siti not too sad if alluded to about the figure of the Mother.

An Avanza car seems to stop right in front of Siti. It made her unable to hide her smile. Mother and Salsa and her three children also seemed to accompany her waiting for the arrival of this Travel since earlier.budenya did say if she chose to ride a trip because it saves travel time. Something he avoided during this time when several times visited his beloved ponakan. Siti is aware that the news she delivered yesterday was the reason Budenya came without thinking about her condition which is often drunk vehicles .

Bude Goddess down . Siti greeted him with tears. The woman now looks thinner in her eyes. The moist eyes that are now staring back at her make Siti also dissolve in sadness.

Siti took her Budenya towards the room. Although budenya said if he did not feel drunk vehicles on his way this time. But still the budenya have to shower first and then just join for dinner.

The clock has changed, the atmosphere of this dinner looks warm.although the goddess bude continues to stare at Dadang, looking at the man with a strange look. Between resentment and disbelief, that is what Siti saw in her budenya view. Actually, anyone is aware of the behavior of Siti's biological mother. But everyone chooses not to respond too much, rather do not know what to give a response like.

" Siti. Bude wants to talk to you about this ." Bude's voice rang out between the clanking of the spoon clashing with the plate. " ....After your kids are asleep!"

" Yes bude."

After making sure her three children had fallen asleep, Siti headed to the front room.the room is usually reserved for distant families who stay overnight but is more often used if Indra and Nesti are coming.

When she saw Bude crying, the middle-aged woman held a photo, while lying on the bed.The old face was wet with tears.

" Bude why ? " Siti is in the glass . Actually he knows exactly if his words and decisions have hurt Budenya.

" What can't be said anymore. Don't you think about the kids ?"

I get the same questions and get bored of answering them. But Siti felt a distinct tightness when the question came from her bud lips.

"Have I ever said anything bad about my husband Bude ? Did I ever say a little how hurt I was about all that man's treatment. This is my tired point Bude. I'm tired and I'm totally giving up.." Siti almost squealed loudly, if she did not close her mouth immediately, until her voice now seemed restrained. His shoulders shook violently, his cries breaking again in front of his bud.

" think Siti's kids. Aunty doesn't have to teach you how to hurt when we don't have parents.You've been in that position, right?"

Siti turned her face the other way. Bude's sad face can't be ignored. " Even prostitutes would be treated better. I'm determined, and I won't change my decision again.."

The Goddess's cry broke. Is that Siti ?

" Children's little Ti. How can you not think about their mental and disposition that will be formed if you decide to separate them from their Father.."

"They will stay here with Mom and Bude. Siti had already discussed this directly to Mother. Understand bude . That man has made me lose a child and has even made me lose Rahim. I just want to keep my pride and my sanity Bude. I'm tired, I'm really tired. Everything has been so painful. How can I survive again if the man has planted a thousand knives without feeling guilty.."

Dewi looked at Siti who looked different in her eyes.

" Don't you say that Dadang was a good husband. Even every month your husband always sends bude some money. A man like that how can you call a Siti. It's too sudden.. Bude don't know what's going on with you right now?"

Siti clasped her two bud hands tightly.

" Don't Bude ever tell me that my husband's disgrace is also my disgrace. Given all the bude messages, how could I possibly tell the ugliness of the man who was my own choice? "

" You still have to think again. If all this time you can survive, why don't you try again ! Demi bude Siti's.

Prove if bude still you consider as your mother's replacement. Prove if you still remain a obedient Siti. That can even do anything to Bude !!"

Siti let go of her grasp. His eyes looked at the Goddess in disbelief

" Bude I...."