When Passion Is Greater Than Lust
Foolish ?

The morning now began to say hello again, the cluster of mango tree leaves next to the house filled the yard. It was the only tree that my mother planted. But the leaves are able to fill a spacious home page, Now I know, if the function of the mother's yard is left no plants is so that they can easily dry the coffee beans harvested.

Salsa said if the harvest season arrives it will be difficult to find a large, airy land to dry it. Hence the mother forbid if Salsa wants to plant fruit, or just flowers to beautify the front area of a large house.

" Eh Mak Salsa, have started the harvest yes .if we have not yet said bang Ujang. You see, I haven't been to the garden for a long time so I don't know heheh.."

" Oh this is just the interlude kok Mak beautiful.not too good quality also, But not enough . not to buy coffee powder again.."

Mother is seen answering the words of Ms. Uci, who is a neighbor next door to the house.

Mother -emak is indeed used to call by name according to their children.

Ms. Uci seemed to judge my appearance, indeed from earlier I was standing near my mother holding a broom, after finishing sweeping the side yard where the mango tree was located.

" Not filled yet Ti.."

The woman who looked like her age touched my flat stomach, although a bit uncomfortable but I let her "Have you been married for five months ? how is it still flat ?"

I lowered my head, then turned my gaze to the figure of the mother.

" Siti you should make coffee back, usually you go home at this time "

I'm grateful that my mother seemed to understand my uncomfortable situation because of Ms. Uci's question.

I said goodbye by throwing a smile at Ms. Uci.

Just as I entered, the woman's voice sounded again.

" I think your guess is correct deh mak Salsa. Your daughter-in-law is barren, derivative of budenya . Five months later, there was no sign of him bunting... Hhh"

" I don't know Mak Beautiful. I am also lazy to discuss the issue of grandchildren again with Dadang and my daughter-in-law. Free. Described solution even I was to blame, Yes already anyway.at most if really the barren Siti. I told Dadang to marry again with another girl. Beress..!!!"

" Yes yes, you are indeed descendants of superior seeds hihihi, surely the problem is in Siti.. "

Ms. Uci giggled with Mom to make me feel tight, how could they say that and even laugh at her.

I cried, spilling all the sadness because of Mother's words. I didn't expect that my mother would talk like this behind my back. I thought he understood me well, and didn't really care about our delay in having a baby, but I was wrong.

I was even made into materials by my mother-in-law in front of the neighbors.

I paused my intention to make Mr. coffee, and preferred to go into the room and lock the door tightly.

on my pillow I spilled everything, disappointed, upset, angry and guilty into one.

Am I really barren, like what Mom said. ?

if he could I part with bang Dadang, or I would have to give my husband a second wife,,

Now I understand bude's feelings. Just five months ago I heard the question when to get pregnant ? I've had this mess, whereas bude, during his marriage he didn't even have a chance to have a uterus.

Bude was not barren, but due to a serious illness, he was forced to undergo surgical removal of the uterus, before marriage.

Lucky bude met with the figure of the pakde who received all his shortcomings. Including will not be able to get pregnant at any time.

I doubt if this is what I said to Bang Dadang or not.

to be honest to hold it myself I feel unable..! But if this is what I'm stirring, it's the same as me pitting the mother and the child, just because my heart aches about what my mother said could be wrong.

The knock on the door woke me up, apparently I fell asleep after tired of crying, before opening the door I looked at myself in the mirror.See if my eyes were swollen and swollen, my face also looked pale, pale, with dry lips . Although I doubt I finally opened the door, I know if bang Dadang is the one who came, because, bang Dadang is always home at this hour.

The door opened, but I purposely kept it from opening completely.

" Why deck ?"

Bang Dadang was astonished, and stared at me. After seeing my face he finally entered and closed the door and quickly locked it.

" Why are you ? Sick !! Mother said that you from this afternoon entered the room and did not go out, why did you deck.

your eyes are also swollen, you cry ?"

bang Dadang touched my forehead, and cupped my face in both hands

" Why is the story to your brother ?"

" I want us to go to the gynecologist bang. I want mastiin whether I am barren or not ? "

" why the deck suddenly, something's bothering your mind. Or her mother to you again, pregnant or not. So ?

I lowered my head, I bit my lips firmly so as not to let out a sob. "I just want a mastiin bang. . Well, let's go see a doctor . Both !!"

it took me a while to wait for Bang Dadang to agree to my proposal, but the pleading gaze that I had been looking at earlier seemed to make it melt as well.

" Okay . may !!But the weekend is...."

" When the weekend is not open !" My protest at the request bang Dadang ,

" Tomorrow yes. Promise..!!"

I put my little finger in front of him.

"what the heck deck kayak little boy use ginian all "

Although the protest bang Dadang finally linked also his little finger to my pinky.

I was too happy to give him a hug and a kiss on his face.

" It's still afternoon, don't go fishing. Not good with mom and the others..." His voice was hoarse, usually he would not joke if the situation was like this.

Aishhh ., my husband is always on, when touched even if only limited to hugs. I pushed him out of the room because I wanted to take a shower and didn't want him to see me undressing in front of him.

Although mother's and bude's house, the same size. But the room still has no bathroom. So we will take a bath alternately in the bathroom in the kitchen.

Fortunately, every time I shampoo, my mother doesn't tease me. Although sometimes I give reasons if I shampoo every morning because of the habits of a small, although it may sound silly and unreasonable, but it's okay, it's okay, I'm just trying to defend myself so as not to be too embarrassed because every night bang Dadang.