When Passion Is Greater Than Lust
Son-in-law different treatment

" What ?? It's pregnant again!!"

Mother's voice was heard screaming . But not out of anger, like when I heard about my third pregnancy yesterday. This sounds more towards happiness being overexpressed.

" Well congratulations, Indra. God willing many children have much sustenance.."

Nyessss. The age of the King of Indra's first child, still three months less. And now my sister-in-law's wife is pregnant again. And Mother instead welcomed the news with a very bright happy hue.

The wriggling coals were carried away, distracting me. It's sad to remember my mother's reaction when Bang Dadang and I said that I was positive to get pregnant again.

This little baby, as if it had become a disgrace.

" Your son is still a child, and he is even loved by his sister. The economy is not stable yet, how could even add children.."

That word, even I still remember it today. Do not ask how the pain and disappointment of my heart when the mother even offended our finances that did not progress even though from year to year, the harvest is always abundant..

And now the mother is even lightly and supports the pregnancy of Nesti, which is very close. Is it because Hesti is a Civil Servant. That's why I treated her special.

" Tuh horrified the deck, Bara. Many children have plenty of sustenance. So if you want to add adek again IS ALSO NOTHING..!!!"

salsa's voice rang out loud, almost screaming. I knew if my sister-in-law was going to be intentional, so that her voice could be heard by my mother, Salsa could always make me not think too much about everything she had done and said.

so deepened what I heard earlier. Salsa's figure seemed forgotten by me.

I stared at the direction where Salsa was. accidentally my eyes collided with Salsa's eyes, The girl pretended not to look at me, and returned to focus on the laptop screen in front of her..

I chose to go into the room and now cry without a sound. Apparently God increasingly convinced my heart to have a strong determination, to immediately have his own home. In order to no longer feel Pain when you hear more flattering Mother, women who have even been a year and a half daughter-in-law in this house..

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Bara whined, when I opened my eyes and saw the clock on the wall of the room, it was still three in the morning. Worth it, apparently I slept too deep . to forget to breastfeed my baby padlocks.

Sayup-sayup I heard the voice of people talking, along with the sound of Bara, the sound was increasingly clear.

" Do you realize that your mother is favoritism ? Turn mbak Siti pregnant again, Mother even angry and cranky not clear .. But mbak Hesti kok mak treat like this, belain cook a lot just to welcome his arrival...."

" Sa, you're getting older and you should be able to watch your words. Gini-this is my mother. Lagian Hesti was already PNS, they even had their own dwelling. While your brother and mother Si Siti still live here, his name is no brain, the children they were born did not need to eat, snacks and all the bustle of the boy. everything must be backed with money. Not from brojol and hands off.."

" Why mother even blame mbak Siti. is not clear if the attitude bang Dadang now even ignore his obligations as a husband..Mama should be able to be fair, Siti's mother needs support now not blasphemy and hatred... I'm wondering why my mom turned out like this now to Siti's mom.."

Silent.

I don't hear any more mother or Salsa.

Soon footsteps passed through our room. Because indeed since Indra and Hafiz married we moved to the back room close to the Salsa room and also the kitchen. The front room is now used as a guest room.

My eyes were no longer friendly when I tried to sleep again. I who usually ignore the words of Mother now even think about what Salsa said. How could it be, I wasn't even told if hesti would come here. Usually Mom would tell me this was it . So happy Mom to intervene alone to the kitchen.

I saw Rama writhing, the clear eyes of my first child were opened.

" why don't you sleep ?"

I smiled, "Deck Bara again****nih bang..! I want to cook so I haven't slept.. Mending my brother sleeps again."

Rama seems to sleep again, somehow Mother will treat her first grandchild. Rama was used to being pampered, as the first grandson. And also remember our struggle to wait for his presence first. No wonder he is often treated Salsa as the sweetest grandson.

" Bismillah son, I'll try . This year we'll be living in our own house.." These tears are shed again. Really now I need a bude and really miss that figure. But to complain all of her . I doubt. Because bude always warns, If the disgrace of the husband is the disgrace of the Wife. So, as much as possible I never said anything about the change bang Dadang and also the treatment of the mother-in-law who is no longer as good as the beginning.

It didn't feel like I was awake for two hours, I finally decided to get up. Helping Mom cook, I pretended I didn't know that Nesti and Indra would come here.

" Mom cook rendang ?"

A little surprised at my voice, Mom now turned her head..

" Yes, I forgot to say that Nesti and Indra will be here.."

" Oh my mother, I can forget . Siti can help from earlier if you know your mother even bothered herself like this.."

It seems that I have become a disobedient son-in-law, but is it wrong if there is a little envy, We are both daughters-in-law, but mother's treatment of me and of Hesti is like heaven and earth. Very much different.

In addition to rendang, there is also a pempek batter and vinegar that has been prepared in the pot.

" Mom is too excited Ti, because this is the first time will meet Indra's child, so the mother is even enthusiastic herself without involving you hheheh"

Mother's words were accompanied by a crisp laugh. This mother's treatment, it reminded me of the first time I was pregnant, so exactly that I felt d'javu..

But hearing that hesti was pregnant again when her son was a baby, the preferential treatment of Nesti was not at all like when I was pregnant with Bara.

"yes yes mak. hopefully the second child of Indra yah ma'am.."

" Women or men are the same, the important thing is to be healthy until later birth.

Take the tomato ti, mom want to make sambel chickpeas anchovy, same lalapan eggplant round. You clean the eggplant, help Mom.."

I immediately did my mother's orders, slicing tomatoes and also processing eggplants to boil.

Usually it's just me and Salsa in the kitchen at this hour. But apparently the arrival of Indra and his wife now even make a mother full of cooking this much, as much as,

" Mommy prayed dawn..? "

I remember if I have not fulfilled my obligation to the creator, intending to invite my in-laws to pray for congregation.But you are used to praying in the mosque, and have left since.. bang Dadang's ? do not ask, the husband who is usually always the priest of my prayer has now ignored the reason tired.

Actually I want to protest, but, Father and Mother were even resisted by bang Dadang, and now they even let the boy. What about me who is now not even appreciated and is not considered a wife.

" You're Ti, your mother's work isn't done yet.."

The sound of cooking utensils clashing filled the kitchen, I was disappointed. Mother even left her obligation just to welcome Indra and his wife.

" Yes already, Siti pray first mak.."

I passed by, heading to the bathroom for ablution.

For now I still believe, if the only place where I pour out my heart and all my disappointment is Allah SWT, the creator and master of destiny. ..