When Passion Is Greater Than Lust
New Home, Good or Bad Start ?

Today, finally arrived too. because tonight we planned to occupy a new house, previously we have done alms salamatan for our new residence.

All the furniture has also been arranged in place, I bowed my gratitude when I set foot into our minimalist home.may seem better, but to get to this point I was willing to bleed and sweat tears.

Not a grudge, but the treatment of my mother and bang Dadang that makes me cruel, but still put this grudge in a positive direction...

" Thank God, even if the child is still a child, you already have your own home.." Bude expressed his gratitude in front of the family bang Dadang. I deliberately contacted Bude yesterday to feel the joy of the completion of our house.

" Yes bude. Siti believes this is also a reply from bude prayers for the Siti's small family. Thanks for the 50 million money "

Bude pinched my waist, reflexively I kept my position out of bude's reach.

I deliberately discussed this . Let the family bang Dadang know, especially the mother who likes to insinuate and demean others. My goal is good, so that later the presence of bude is not considered benalu, if bude often comes to this house.

my eyes glanced at the Mother who seemed to blink her eyes many times. I'm sure my in-laws are mentally affected, for giving only 30 million, he objected .

" Tonight. What if we all sleep here. . " Salsa made a sound, trying to divert the suddenly cold atmosphere.

" Itung-itung nemenin mbak Siti and bang Dadang. .It's their first night here .."

" Yes, you think so too,"

He took his eyes to every corner of our house.

" I am proud that you can finally prove that you are able to make your wife and children happy. "

Father finally voiced it, although my heart was a little unacceptable, but still my husband did contribute to this success.

Bude now hugged me tightly, I don't know what he was thinking until Bude cried and the tears were now wet clothes I was wearing.

" Your parents must be happy, son. Now your life is happy, have a good husband, understanding in-laws, handsome children and also now have their own home. Bude really feels relieved now..

At least if later bude short-lived you've been in the right hands and family.."

I cried to hear Bude's words on the sidelines of his cry. In my heart I accept all of those words . Bude doesn't need to know my pain and disappointment that was present when I was pregnant with Bara until four months ago.

" God willing, Dadang will not betray the trust of Bude. And thank you because all this time Bude always helped you financially, until we were finally at this point. "

Bang Dadang salivates the bude, peeping the hand for a long time. Just when I let go of bude's hug on me.

I could see that my husband was crying, Does he remember how he treated me a few months ago. Or this is just because you feel overwhelmed by bude's words and beliefs.

" you're like a boy to bude Dang. Keep in mind, if Siti wrongly reprimands him gently. Because Bude knows that if he's being corroded, this kid won't be even more challenged to fight.."

Bang Dadang nodded without answering. Bude's words were true, but I felt that all this time, I was still facing my husband in a silent mode.not against, as Bude said. But I don't know in the future it will be like my treatment if this heart is made sick again.

***

We haven't lived in this house in a week. It's true, a different sense of comfort now I feel. Although a little hassle because usually Bara there is a momong but now I have to babysit Bara alone..

My son is not fussy, but of course I bother if cooking while carrying him. Bang Dadang also likes to refuse when I tell him to take care of Bara for a while.

The money that is still left in the hand now I use to sell online.count-calculate income for children snacks.

" Dek, make me a coffee brother dong !!"

I'm waiting for Bara's clothes and Dio who just finished bathing is now looking towards bang Dadang. He has not traveled anywhere today. But why the matter of coffee alone should trouble me who is also in trouble.

" Make it yourself bang. I'll change the kids' clothes again.."

" What is the difficulty of the deck. make coffee doang . will finish changing clothes children can also..

Lately why have you become so lazy anyway ?"

I chose to ignore the father of my children. Maybe he even said that, even though since we moved house, bang Dadang never went to the garden and only foot barges at home. Not intending to help my hassles every day at all.

I gave Dio and Bara to bang Dadang. Go to the kitchen to make coffee.

" why since moving house you are not agile anymore about work and momong Kids deck. Wonder me. why here I am often bothered with children.Said people home alone makes comfortable. But if this is , what is comfortable.add complicated yes.."

I went back to silence, took a stand in my heart and took Bara and Dio to Salma's house next door neighbor.

Last night I was too tired, and overslept so did not have time to wash clothes that always looked mountainous even though they had been washed every day.

At home, my mom used a washing machine. So even though I have to wash all family clothes I do not feel bothered at all but we are here there is no funds to buy the clothes grinding machine.

" Where ? go to Salma's house again !!! Is he not bosen crammed children continue, do not fall asleep later become a neighbor's material ghibah here. Because of the troublesome dryness .."

I keep my feet up, towards my original goal.

Hearing the words bang Dadang even I think what kind of man my husband really is, if it can not help me with momong son. at least do not add to the burden of my mind because I have to think about the consequences of my actions that always leave Bara and Dio .

" You are the deck, from earlier why just shut up. Instead of thinking and repeating the words of the husband even driven and go that way.."

I just got to the porch. Already got the weightless scolding from bang Dadang again.

" Bangs. Can not if the problem that you think is trivial is not discussed in front of children. They'd get their asses if they'd always heard their parents arguing.."

" a child of that age knows what the hell . by the way can not be as well.lagian I was right right.embah deck if it has to trouble mbak Salma continues..

We are just here, why even give a bad impression by always leaving children. Even though we ourselves feel good at home.."

" You are so good bang. We're not. I nitip kid too because I want to wash a shirt that's as dirty as the bathroom. If you object and feel ashamed, you should take care. They're your kids too, right...."

" Loh really so I take care, you usually can wash while carrying children. Why even spoiled now.."

" P spoiled GUNDULMU..!! You forgot that we don't have a washing machine.. So how can I carry Bara while you're nyuci..."

" Why are you nyolot.I am your husband, emang actually said mother, if too pampered even make you as a wife so digelunjak. ."

The hot cup of coffee is now slammed by bang Dadang right near my feet. Lucky I was able to retreat and not exposed to hot water splashes or broken glass that is now scattered..

These tears burst out, representing a heart that had now also been shattered like a glass in front of me.

While bang Dadang breezed cuek out of nowhere.