When Passion Is Greater Than Lust
What's wrong with me ?

One week after the injection of KB, my stomach condition got worse and did not improve. Even so I did not say this to my husband, hoping that the upcoming monthly guest would be the cause.

I continue to undergo activities as usual, and now more actively socialized, expanding consumers and also looking for trusted agents, to become a reseller, he said, Somehow it feels like the days feel more comfortable and peaceful now..

Maybe it's because I'm more enjoying responding to the economic problems that we're now experiencing.

Last night bang Dadang advised that today he would finish his wholesale with a Hajj pack he had been working on for two weeks.

I woke up early and cooked a few side dishes, because maybe they would go home late in the afternoon to catch up with the target.

Bang Dadang who usually wakes up at seven is now awake and waiting for me to cook, also offering help if I feel troubled.

" Dek, do not be too spicy, because bang Randi does not like spicy.. "

Bang Dadang reduced the chili I had prepared for the sambel. Randi is a friend of Bang Dadang.

I didn't respond, and continued my cooking which was almost done. Lately in addition to feeling more enjoy, somehow I was even lazy if talking too much to anyone.

" Why are you ? lately Brother saw you being so quiet on deck, there's a problem with the kids ?" Bang Dadang came a little closer towards me when he asked. He showed that he was worried.

" Not knowing bang. Mending Abang was silent because it made me more dizzy..." Suddenly I was upset, and slammed my cooking pot slowly.

" what's so angry about the deck ? You are okay !!"

I chose silence again not to respond, choosing to prepare a container for my husband's provisions.

***

As a woman who had been pregnant, and gave birth to three children, I of course knew what it was like to be pregnant, so when bang Dadang came home, I immediately told her to buy a testpack , This day I felt my stomach was uncomfortable, and also felt nauseous accompanied by dizziness.

" Why should buy such a deck tool, you are not KB. The intonation of the sound of bang Dadang has been rising to make me feel cornered. I just need support not self-misleading like this.

" I'm KB, two weeks ago. Who knows if I am pregnant ? that's why you need that tool..!!!"

Bang Dadang fell silent, and scrutinized my body from top to bottom, then he finally left as well after receiving money from me.

I waited anxiously for Dadang bang, I was really looking forward to using the pregnancy test kit, making sure that my suspicions were not correct.

I can't imagine if I'm really pregnant again. In economic conditions and also the attitude of bang Dadang which is still gray. Whether what will be said by the mother and the neighbors later, Bara was still a child to be given a sister again, especially in the conditions of our lives that stuk place, there was no increase, even classified as declining..

The money I still have bought clothes, which have not been sold, and the rest I pay to the bank for the next few months.

I immediately approached the Dadang bang that had just arrived at the terrace, immediately snatch the bag of crackle yes I believe contains a testpack.

" Loh deck. Want to get tested tonight, too ? Not recommended in the morning ?"

" in time, anyways Abang bought two right. I could die of curiosity if I put it off until tomorrow.."

I left the bang Dadang to our bathroom, collect urine and directly use the pregnancy test . After I finished I was still waiting for the results, but an hour passed the line on the tool there was only one and did not show a positive sign. I smiled with relief. But as soon as tomorrow I will keep retesting and hoping to get the same result, I thought I was trying to encourage myself.

" How did the deck go ?"

" Negative bang."

I showed off the device in front of the Dadang bang, a happy smile now filled my lips.

"Kok can you think that you're pregnant deck ? you yourself said that you were KB. ."

" I've been pregnant and the symptoms I'm experiencing now are very similar, just be careful if I'm really pregnant , I won't forgive you.." I even threatened to bang Dadang because I was annoyed with his words, which still seemed to blame me.

" Ehh deck, why are you even mad at me ? You should be an honest wife, you will not concede if you are KB routine.."

" It's wrong you bang, I don't want to know.." I was still insistent like a child in front of the man called my husband.

" Whatever, isn't the result also negative ?"

I did not care about the words bang Dadang, and chose to go into the room and pretend to sleep near the children. Because usually they will sleep at nine o'clock and up .

It turned out that bang Dadang also followed and stared at me wryly, I glanced in wonder and increasingly made in disbelief

" There's no ration for tonight bang, I'm tired and mumbling, I could actually get pregnant if I keep being approached like this every night. ."

Bang Dadang closed my mouth as Bara wriggled as if disturbed by my voice which I had left a little loud, deliberately. Let Bara get up and I don't have to be forced to bang Dadang to serve him.

" It's quiet, I'm not going to make sense, so don't act stupid that can make kids wake up again.."

He said he was afraid to disturb the children.

" anyways you're wrong, already know I'm upset again, instead ask so. I've never been bosen, who thought about the bottom of Mulu's stomach, should..."

" Already ..It's..!!! No need to provoke a debate. I'm just gonna go out, get some wind. Rather than here even get a nagging, "My speech is cut again, but the answer makes me even more upset

" yes find the wind, already dapet later, even I who became his master, ask kerokin because cheerful. Why is it always bad at home ? "

Bang Dadang even chuckled with my protest, He looked at me fixedly still accompanied by a smile.

" If it is near you, the innate passions deck, the direction of it is mulu, let alone the children are already in this sleep, the innate shahdu and air becomes increasingly cold.hehehe related to you males, especially the children are sleeping like this, which is a runaway to hang out while playing guitar with other fathers, but I'm not going home in the morning, so you just calm down.."

I wrapped my body in a blanket and let the Dadang bang pass without a word . free if it is forbidden, there will be many reasons that will be used as an alibi, to come out to join their age. I don't know what exactly they discussed, so there is no boredom of staying up every night.