Because I Don't Want to Lose
22 - Finally Know Also

The harder Sasika tries to convince Izzar of his regrets, longings, and hopes, the stronger

Izzar. In his heart he was annoyed too, because Sasika seemed to think it was not wrong and not about he used to hurt Izzar.

Once, there was a time in the past, Izzar did crave Sasika back to him. That was. Now, he no longer wants the presence of Sasika.

“All is over, the day you decided on me. So, no more need you to regret and hope we can

back to how it used to be. It's not time anymore.” Izzar said calm dampened Sasika's desire.

“Why can't you?”

Izzar shook his head. He was amazed by Sasika's mind.

“I'm married, Sas!”

“You really love your wife? She's a widow, right? Have children anyway,” said Sasika ninyir.

“If not, why would I marry him?... And, what's your business with the status?” Izzar held back his emotions.

Sasha looked at Izzar. Something strange was emanating from his eyes.

“Said your wife's ex-boyfriend, you've agreed to divorce. Just waiting time.”

Izzar. “Who is the ex-boyfriend you mean?”

“Tristan,” replied Sasika. “It's no wonder I know him. I'm friends with a lot of people.”

Of course the guy. As it turns out, Tristan and Sasika are both reckless humans who try to take advantage of every opportunity to get his wish.

“Listen, yes!  The name is household, there must be dynamics and problems. So, as long as my wife and I are still together, you don't expect us to be apart!” firmly Izzar.

Although, Sasika still wanted to linger with him, Izzar ended the meeting with great unrest

struck heart. He inwardly blames Anaya for giving hope to Tristan when he has yet to realize her toxic nature.

Izzar wanted to reprimand Anaya that night. But seeing Anaya acting like a faithful wife awaits her husband to return home, fading his fret. Izzar did not want to make Anaya upset by telling about his meeting with Sasika. He feels guilty for secretly meeting the woman of his past.

Anaya herself strives to be understood and believes that the woman she saw with Izzar was her client. If not, Anaya also tried not to care. He confirmed his heart, that he and Izzar were just friends. They live in a house because they are under contract, and they have to be close

her second theatrical marriage was considered real by Ridwan and his family.

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Randi suddenly came to Anaya's office in the company of a tall, slim, beautiful, and hijab-wearing girl, who was introduced as his future wife. Anaya was flabbergasted looking at Randi and the girl named Sarah. His astonishment is not only because he has never heard of Randi dating seriously. But, also because of the change in Randi's appetite for the appearance of the woman he likes.

“Serious, Ran?” ask Anaya.

“Yes seriously!”

Anaya looked at Sarah who was sitting blushing on her study couch. This girl looks so young.

“When do you want to get married?”

“Less two months, Brother,” replied Sarah.

Anaya's lips and eyes were rounded staring at Sarah and Randi alternately. His mind was immediately filled with wild questions regarding how fast his cousin's sister's wedding plans were.

“Why?” randi asked as soon as she saw Anaya's expression. “You want to comment too soon? Da? … Before you sign off, you better count...., sooner which, our plan or your marriage to Izzar?” Randi is picking up Anaya.

“I haven't said anything! How do you assume that?” Anaya tried to argue.

“Ngga need to spend!” Randi won't lose. “I already know what you're going to say!... Sorry yes, until anytime you will remain in the number one position as the Most Rush Marriage in our big family!”

Anaya is not struggling.

“OK! You're winning. I've always been the biggest champion in the family!” Anaya raised both her hands. Requesting peace.

Randi smiled, then the two laughed at each other. Sarah looks confused to see Anaya and Randi who were originally thought to be fighting for real, but then even scattered together.

“Sorry, Darling! Anaya and I are used to being so bad for each other. So you should not be surprised if you see us like we were kayaking barantem,”, Randi told her lovera.

“So, what can I help you with?” Anaya started to take things seriously and professionally.

“Hmm... Okay, I can help. But, before, can you stop discussing and comparing my marriage?” Anaya is getting uncomfortable.

Randi. Then Anaya took Sarah and Randi to the meeting room to meet with Dian, the project manager, who was very experienced in handling wedding events.

On the grounds of having to finish another job, Anaya left the meeting room. Not long, Randi

even to his room.

“Lah! Why are you here? Isn't nemanin Sarah?”

“She already has a wedding concept that she wants as to what. I just follow.” Randi sat across from Anaya's desk.

Anaya smiled watching her cousin who now looked more present than usual. Hair

the hull is cut short. His clothes and pants are no longer haphazard either. And the Carrying is a bit more

quieter. True love can always change people for the better.

“Where did you meet Sarah?”

“Di Musholla.”

“Hah?” Anaya surprised. Because, as he knows, Randi most orderly worship prayer.”

“Two months ago, don't know why, I suddenly wanted to be a real person. Again in the Mall parking lot, looking at Musholla, I was like an insyaf who immediately remembered praying. When it was about to start, suddenly there was a woman who asked to congregate. Be her priest. At that time, my heart was very peaceful to realize that there was a woman who became my aunt. When he finished, he said thank you. I see, pretty too. Yes already, I'll take acquaintances.” Randi laughing.

“Terus?” Anaya curious.

“Then, we go together. I feel comfortable and comfortable around him. A week ago, I got married. Uh, he wants to. His family also agreed. So did my parents. Yeah, already. Like you and Izzar, what's the long time, right?” randi.

Anaya smiled. There is a sense that he also listened to the story of Randi, who sure decided to get married because it was his impulse. Unlike her, who was just based on reason for not wanting to lose Naira.

“You yourself, how about Izzar? All right?”

Anaya nodded.

“I heard, on Izzar's birthday, his ex sent him a cake?”

“Iya.” Anaya answered short.

“You're not angry?”

“Hmm... Make what angry?” Anaya asked back.

Randi laughing. “You're a strange wife. If other women could be already raging.”

Anaya fell silent. He remembered the spark of jealousy in his heart when he saw Izzar with another woman in a coffee shop the other day. Curious that he had been in his way, reappeared.

“Ran, do you know her ex-fiance Izzar?” ask Anaya. He was excited to find a chance to know the figure of Sasika.

“Know.”

“What's he like?” ask Anaya.

“Do what you want to know?” Sandy looked at Anaya.

“Pengen knows aja.”

“Ngga. You're prettier, kok!”

Anaya is not satisfied with Randi's answer. He was upset because Randi even became like covering something.

“Please, Ran! Let me know what he looks like. You said, I should have been angry that there were other women watching

my husband's. But, how would I be angry if I didn't know what my enemy was like?.”

Randi relented. Through his mobile phone, Sasika photos are displayed on his Instagram account. Soon, his heart heats up realizing the woman he saw with Izzar in the coffee shop was Sasika. He was upset that Izzar had lied to him.

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