Because I Don't Want to Lose
29 - Can't Know

The night steps were slow. The rain that cooled the air was unable to dampen the unrest in Anaya's heart. For him time is slow. Torturing him with waiting news of Izzar's whereabouts.

Three hours passed, Izzar's phone was still inactive. Anaya's message asking for her position was not also two-fold, let alone turned blue.

The cell phone battery? Stolen people? How lost? Is it greedy?... Dorce asked lightly in Anaya's mind. He managed to dismiss the possibility of bad events with his good prayer. However, he could not dismiss the assumption Izzar was with Sasika now. The more he shunned it, the more fertile the conjecture grew in his heart.

Anaya is helpless. Suspicious of making him agitated and upset himself. After putting Naira to sleep she waited for Izzar while watching TV.  He had just decided to go to sleep when the sound of Izzar's car was heard stopping in front of the house. Moments later, Izzar who was indeed carrying his own key appeared at the door.

"Hey!... Not sleeping?" Izzar was surprised to see Anaya sitting on the sofa with the TV on. Since they had fought, Anaya had avoided them. This woman is waiting for herself to come home. Izzar smiled to himself with his estimation.

Anaya answered with a head. His eyes looked at Izzar full of probing. The man looked worn and tired. His black shirt is crumpled and dusty.

"Hape why are you? Naira asked for a phone, but couldn't?" Anaya uses Naira as a pretext for her own curiosity.

Izzar sat across from Anaya, opened his backpack and took something from it. He then showed his broken phone screen almost destroyed.

"Why could that be?" Anaya is shocked to see the condition of Izzar's phone is sad.

"Fall down from the third floor" replied Izzar resigned.

"Can't you?" Anaya doesn't believe it.

"I was checking out the building project. Didn't miss the gap on purpose when taking photos." Izzar showed and told the details of the calamity that befell him.

Anaya smiled faintly watching him.

"Checking the project through the night?" Anaya could not bear to scrape too. Looking for answers to his suspicions that he harbored earlier.

"I also went to your house. There is nothing wrong with the electrical installation. Long time there. Want to find a new phone, the shops are closed," replied Izzar.

The certainty in Izzar's tone of voice made Anaya hesitant to disbelieve.

"Why haven't you slept? Wait for me?" Izzar looked at Anaya.

Anaya's eyes were glaring. He was upset because Izzar's estimate was correct. But he was ashamed to admit it.

"Nwfg!... I can't sleep anymore" elak Anaya.

"Because of thinking of me?" Izzar is mocked again.

"Ih! GR highly! Sook Sure!!" Anaya scowling.

"Confident! Surely you're worried thinking of me who hasn't come home until late at night. Can't be called again. Aye, right?" Izzar continued to tease Anaya.

The temptation of Izzar makes Anaya careless. He stood up with an angry face.

"Don't be so ignorant!... I'm going to sleep!" Anaya threw the sofa cushion at Izzar before turning around to leave him.

Izzar laughed and caught the pillow. "Can you sleep now, because I'm home?"

Anaya did not answer. He walked into his room without looking back. A smile spread on his lips.

Izzar laughed to himself. Although Anaya denied this, she knew she was worried about him. He was glad Anaya had paid attention to him after days of trying to ignore him. He was able to sleep peacefully that night, without thinking his phone was broken.

The next morning, Anaya and Izzar wake up late. Naira was taken by Mba Kemi in an online taxi. While having breakfast at the dinner table, Anaya tells Izzar about the details of Randi's wedding plans which will be held tomorrow, on Saturday.

"I'm leaving with Sandra and the office kids. They'll pick you up here. I'm staying over. Will you be able to follow after Naira gets home from school?"

"could. But, I have to go to the mobile store first... So, we're staying at the villa?" Izzar asked while checking the message on his laptop.

"Religious. Randi gives us one hotel room."

"We're one room?" Izzar raised his face looking at Anaya opposite him.

"Yes what! Don't make it up!" anaya replied rather fiercely.

"Well, where do I keep?"

Anaya quiet. He was confused to answer.

"Not to be confused. Please book me another hotel room." Izzar returned to the screen

his laptop. He is reluctant to make Anaya agitated at the thought of how to avoid things outside their agreement.

"They won't know if we're careful. Don't worry too much. Okay?"

Anaya nodded.

"Can I borrow your phone for a second? I have to call Maharani." Izzar.

"Surely who the Maharani called? Not someone else?" Anaya doubted.

"I just need Maharani's phone" replied Izzar. "Whose other people do you think I'm going to call?"

"Where do I know. I can't be different where friends are, where ex. If asked, the client will answer." Anaya's answer was full of insinuations. He put his phone on the table near Izzar's hand. Then I go to pack.

Izzar was stunned to hear Anaya's words. He wanted to reply to the insinuation, but he stopped it. He did not want the peace that had just re-established, messy again. Just let her Anaya vanish her heart. At least, he knew Anaya still harbored dislike with his meeting with Sasika first.

By midday, Anaya had already arrived at the villa. He was immediately preoccupied with overseeing the details of the preparation of the event, and also faced his relatives who had come first. Aunt Tania, Randi's mother who is the sister of her late mother, immediately took a stab at her and showered her with questions about her secret marriage.

"Where's your husband?"

"Later also comes" Anaya replied with her best smile. He tried to stay friendly even though his heart was uncomfortable.

"Aunty's eating? Just eat it, yeah!" Anaya tries to distract her aunt.

"Tante isn't hungry." Aunt Tania refused. His hand did not hold Anaya's arm. "How's your husband doing?"

"All right, Auntie." Anaya answered politely.

"You, make a family scene. A marriage not with a foreign man who is not at all introduced to the family." Aunt Tania complained.

"Ih, Aunt. Izzar is Randi's best friend, not a stranger."

"But you still startle us."

Anaya smiled.

"Tante, can I go there for a second?" Anaya pointed to Sandra who was standing at the edge of the courtyard, overseeing the photobooth completion process.

"okay! We'll talk again!"

Anaya nodded, then rushed over to Sandra. On the way, the phone in his trouser pocket rang. Randi called. Her ex-husband asked for permission to take Naira to stay at her mother's house.

"But Randi will get married tomorrow at the top. And Naira's getting ready to walk here with Izzar."

"My father, Naira's grandfather, is ill. She's dying to see her granddaughter, Nay!"

Anaya fell silent. He knew there was no way he would refuse Ridwan's request. If anything happens with Mr. Arsyad, he will definitely be blamed.

"okay! I called Izzar first. Hopefully they haven't left yet."

In one tap, Anaya disconnects Ridwan's phone and directly contacts Izzar. I really hope the guy gets a new phone. When a few seconds later Izzar's voice sounded across there, he was relieved that his hope was granted.

"Already road?"

"Not yet."

"Ridwan's going to get Naira. Her father is sick, ask to see Naira. Please tell Mba Kemi to prepare Naira's clothes, and she as usual also accompanied Naira," Anaya pinta.

"okay!" Izzar answered briefly.

"You're coming straight here?"

"Hmm... Because I didn't bring Naira, can I feel it later in the afternoon? It just so happens that there's an impromptu business." Izzar.

Anaya has no power to prevent. He agreed without asking again.

Across the street, Izzar breathed a sigh of relief, for Anaya believed in the reason. In fact, the work business

meant is to go to the lawyer Mr. Arsyad who suddenly asked him to meet in his office. But, like Mr. Arsyad's message, Anaya must not know.

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