Because I Don't Want to Lose
54 - News

Randi's words floated in the air. Anaya had to find a grip to support her trembling body. Heart's shaken. His mind was trying hard to digest Randi's speech.

Ridwan was arrested on charges of manipulating and embezzling his father's company finances. He's not alone. There are several employees including one who became a member of Pak Arsyad's lawyer team.

Anaya felt like she had heard the name of the lawyer Randi mentioned. A few seconds later, he remembered Sandra had mentioned it, having hung out with him several times.

"Do you know where this news comes from?" tanya Anaya after Randi finished with her info.

"From some of my friends who work at the company. You really just heard?" Randi was impressed.

"Yes." Yeah."

"Izzar didn't tell you a story?"

"Ngga," Anaya replied as she was.

"Isn't he the one holding the company now? He must know everything. I'd like to ask him the truth. But, my phone wasn't answered."

Anaya fell silent. He did not know what to comment, while his mind guessed Ridwan's relationship with the existence of Izzar in the company, and his secrets.

"Where's Izzar now, Nay?" ask Randi.

Of course Anaya could not answer. He could have lied, but he could no longer do so. From the beginning, he had tricked his cousin by covering up the basis of his relationship with Izzar. Anaya couldn't go on. His problem with Izzar, coupled with the events Ridwan experienced, made him tired. He's tired.

“I don't know.” Anaya's voice choked.

At the end of it, Randi fell silent. It's like being in a state of affairs. His instincts say something is wrong between Anaya and Izzar.

“Hei! We haven't seen each other in a long time. Can I go to your place? Bring some souvenirs for Naira. Who knew you needed a friend again? I'll have no activities later." Randi's offer accompanied by pleasantries was the willingness to give up his shoulders to be leaned on by Anaya.

“OK! I take care of Naira's school first!” Anaya is like finding an oasis in his wilderness.

“OK!”

The phone conversation is both over.

Anaya rushes off with Naira and Mba Kemi. He did not dare to drive his own car because his body was still a bit gamang due to dizziness and nausea. He asks Oji, one of the office drivers to deliver him.

Having just completed the administration of Naira's new school enrollment, Sandra called her asking to meet to deliver Izzar's tidbits.

“What deposit, anyway?” tanya Anaya gestured Mba Kemi to take Naira back to the car, while she stood under the shade of a parking lot tree to talk first with Sandra.

“Ngga knows, Nay. Mail like.”

“You only read!” Anaya really refused to accept it.

“Eh! Ngaco! I don't want to!” Sandra firmly refused.

“Ya already, save it then!” Anaya staunchly won't.

“Where are you?”

“Still at Naira school. You're in the office?” Anaya asked back.

“Iya. But, later in the afternoon I want to visit my friend who was affected by the case with Ridwan. You want to come along, all you meet Ridwan?”

“Ngapain?”

“I also don't know what to do. But, my friend was to send a message to his family so that I want to visit him. If you, yes do not know also yes, what is the need of Nengokin Ridwan. But, he's Naira's papa, right.” Sandra was confused by the reason.

“I'm afraid, San. I'm just trying to keep Ridwan away from Naira.”

“You don't want to know the real incident?”

Anaya suppressed her real curiosity. If he wanted to satisfy his curiosity, he knew who to go to. Izzars. But, he won't do it.

“Let me call Mr. Arsyad only.” Anaya replied casually feeling she had an alternative. Although Mr. Arsyad is not fully active in his company anymore, he certainly knows all what has happened.

After finishing her conversation with Sandra, Anaya returned to the car, sitting next to Naira. Ready to drive again.

“Where else are we going, Ma?”

“Ke hospital. But, you can't come. After going between mama, you and Mba Kemi go straight home with Om Oji, okay?”

“Ngapain to the hospital? Who is sick?”

“Mama. Kan, yesterday had a headache, so now want to see a doctor.”

“Mama don't want me to accompany?” Naira looked at Anaya with her big clear eyes.

“Ngga please, dear!... Mama can be alone.” Anaya hugged her little child's body.

Naira brought her lips closer to Anaya's ears. He whispered something. “Why didn't Mama ask for dad's company?”

Anaya jerks. This kid hasn't given up on questioning Izzar.

“He's busy again,” whispered Anaya dodged. He put on a face that did not want to be denied.

Anaya bit her lip. He knew he had hurt his son. He hopes that Naira will understand his decision later if he can understand his condition.

The gynecologist's queue that afternoon, it's pretty long. Anaya tried to sit quietly in the waiting chair. He looked around him. All that awaits the average is a big-bellied woman. No one's alone. All accompanied by a person, husband or relatives. Except Anaya.

For a moment he felt awkward. But let go of that feeling. His brain was destroyed by sending a message to Mr. Arsyad. But his phone is inactive.

Randi asked her position and reminded them of their appointment.

Anaya mentioned the name of the hospital she was in. And it's a coincidence that Randi was driving not far from his location. Without much questioning, he said he would soon catch up with her.

That made Anaya nervous. He hopes to get his turn right away so that when Randi comes, he's finished being examined and Randi doesn't know he's visiting the obstetrician. He can avoid having just been to a general practitioner or internal medicine.

However, when Randi arrived and approached him, his name was not yet called.

"What are you sick with?"

Randi asked as his eyes explored the nameplates on the door that lined around the row of chairs where Anaya and himself were sitting. Child Poly, Nerve Poly, and Obstetric Poly.

Anaya did not answer. He avoided his cousin's gaze. His eyes were suspicious.

"Mrs Anaya Paramitha!" The nurse called him.

Anaya stand. Randi is moving.

"Do you want company?"

Anaya did not refuse. He resigned. After all, he did need someone in there.

The specialist who examined him was not the doctor who handled it during the pregnancy and birth of Naira. He decided to choose another.

Luckily he got the female doctor to be so friendly that it made his patients comfortable. Anaya answered all her questions straightforwardly.

The doctor turned and looked at Randi. Maybe he was surprised to see Randi who was silent earlier.

"Sir Husband, would you like to see the prospective child? We're USG yeah!"

Randi stuttering. Anaya is feeling sorry.

"He's my brother!" Anaya.

"Oh! Sorry!" The doctor felt guilty.

"Yes. I'm brother. Her husband was busy going on errands, so couldn't drive." Randi glanced at Anaya. "The job is far abroad."

Anaya smiles to see Randi trying to hold his own laughter over the lies he created to convince the doctor.

The results of the examination showed that the pregnancy was good and healthy. Anaya ordered to take care of the food, should not be too tired and stressed.

After receiving the medicine and vitamins, Randi invited Anaya to lunch. Anaya according to where she was taken.

On the way, Randi postponed his desire to talk about the problems that seemed obvious Anaya and Izzar were facing. He chose to tell me about his holiday experience. At the restaurant he was referring to, he would just scrape it all up.

The exciting story of Randi was stopped by the ringing of his phone which placed a buffer on the dashboard connected to his car audio device.

Anaya can see Izzar's name flashing on his screen.

"Don't tell me I'm with you!" Anaya looked at Randi threateningly.

Randi answered the call. A second later, Izzar's voice rang out filling the air of the car.

"Sorry couldn't answer the phone!"

"So busy now!" ledek Randi's.

"If I can't do it again I won't answer. But if I had time, I would have turned back. Wh why? Want to ask a case?" Izzar laughs.

Anaya closed her eyes. There was a corner in his heart room that missed the man's voice and laughter.

"That's it! It's not funny that this lambe turah brother missed the news!" answer Randi. His eyes and hands were concentrated on driving.

"Hmmm.. I can't tell you yet. Wait for the progress."

"Well, you know the details?"

"Relga."

"You didn't tell Anaya? Ridwan is her ex-husband. Naira's Dad. They deserve to know." Randi fishing.

Izzar laughed short. But no other words were spoken. However, there was the sound of another conversation that seemed to be happening around him.

"Roman... Yes it was before! I have other business!.. Okay fine! Hye!"

Call disconnected. Randi looked at her side. Anaya turned her face to the window. Kelu found Izzar's closure.

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