Because I Don't Want to Lose
27 - Alienated

When I first got to know Anaya, Izzar was not at all interested in the haughty Anaya. However, over time, Izzar apparently enjoyed his life with Anaya and Naira. He likes his relationship with Anaya who until yesterday was nice and fun. Despite being stubborn, independent, and strong, Anaya is weak and needs a male presence to guide her.

Izzar did not want to deny if he really started to like Anaya. However, if he confirms Mr. Arsyad's question, there is a fear that he will be accused of using his former son-in-law. His instincts are sending signals to be careful. He could not measure how strong and powerful Mr. Arsyad was, until the secret of Anaya and her who had been so closely kept could be known.

“You can't answer all my questions?” Mr. Arsyad stared intently at Izzar.

“I can not answer now, because it depends on Anaya's plan and decision,” replied Izzar.

Mr. Arsyad sighed.

“Then let me make the decision for Anaya. I know he's hanging out with me. But I love him so much. He's like the kid I want but I don't have. And, since she is also the mother of my granddaughter, I am responsible for protecting her.

“Honestly, I like you too. I'm grateful that Anaya chose you to go on a secret mission that I think…

ngaco it!” Mr. Arsyad laughed to himself.

Izzar hooked his fingers and pressed them, reinforcing his once-disarmed self-confidence.

“But, earlier, answer my question. You care about Anaya and Naira?” ask Mr. Arsyad.

“Iya. I care about both of them.”

“How about your family?”

“Mama I like Anaya and also Naira.” Izzar answered what it was.

Mr. Arsyad nodded, permeating Izzar's words.

“Good. I actually made a decision. First, I have changed my will to Naira. He'll receive my inheritance when he turns 21. As long as the time came, I had already appointed an independent attorney and investment services office to manage his property. So, Ridwan and Anaya won't be fighting each other for custody anymore.”

Izzar smiled with relief. I can't wait to tell Anaya this news. Anaya will definitely be happy to be able to be despite Ridwan's demands.

“But, on one condition, Anaya and Ridwan should not know this!... Let Ridwan think that he should keep trying to take over Naira's custody. Thus, he will continue to pay more attention to Naira. However, Naira must feel the presence of her biological father,” said Mr. Arsyad.

“The second, you must continue your marriage with Anaya!”

Izzar's smile disappeared. Mr. Arsyad's tone of voice effectively forced irrefutable.

“Why?... Why do I have to..” Izzar breathes her.

“Because I trust you,” replied Mr. Arsyad calmly.

“What if Anaya doesn't want to?” Izzar hesitated a little.

“I'm sure, in the end he will.  Anaya needs a man like you. The problem is, do you want it or not?... But, you must want, Izzar..” Mr. Arsyad smiled containing mystery.

Izzar was suspicious. “If I don't want to?”

Mr. Arsyad laughed. A stiff laugh.

“Don't test me, Izzar... You haven't realized how much my power and power is?... Do you think that ordinary people will be able to know and read the contents of the marriage contract that you are hiding?... With my influence, I could have gotten your company in trouble again with a case worse than

preceding. I guarantee you won't survive like yesterday.”

Izzar choked to hear Mr. Arsyad's cold words. There's a cruel tone there.

“I'm sure you can conquer Anaya. You don't have to worry. I haven't given you a wedding present, have I?... You already know my plan to build a superblock area?” Mr. Arsyad fishing Izzar.

“Iya.” Izzar had indeed heard of this in the association of property entrepreneurs. What a fantastic and tempting mega project. Many of his friends were trying to find a way to get involved in it.

“I will give you the project. As your real wedding gift later.”

The offer stunned Izzar. Getting the project will certainly increase its prestige. It will

he could again raise his face upright, especially to people who had ruined his business and underestimated him before.

However, if he continues his marriage to Anaya to obtain the project, he feels he is not sreg. What a difference he with Anaya later, if married with a certain purpose, not because it does love each other and want to live life together.

“Iya,” reply Izzar short.

“That woman, your former fiancee?”

The follow-up questions of Mr. Arsyad made Izzar not warty. He did not dare to argue, because maybe Mr. Arsyad already knows everything.

“Iya,” firmly Izzar.

“You still love him?”

Izzar. He began to get tired of being harassed about his heart by the old man who had a loud aura in front of him.

“Why did you guys split up?”

“More due to circumstances.” Izzar refused to explain the details of his past. He was careful not to let Mr. Arsyad trap him tell a bad thing about Sasika.

“Make sure you have no trouble dealing with it. If your ex tries to stare at you, or he bullies Anaya, I don't hesitate to help clean it up,” said Mr. Arsyad flat, and expressionless face.

Although I did not fully understand what Mr. Arsyad meant, Izzar shuddered to hear it. He has no doubt

the power of Mr. Arsyad, he just can't think will get to the extent of ‘help clear the’ he meant.

The meeting ended with a shock in Izzar's heart. Mr. Arsyad gave an ultimatum to keep their conversation secret to anyone, especially Anaya.

From Randi, Izzar get a picture of the lunge Mr. Arsyad if he does not get what he wants. What he heard was quite horrible. He was worried about Sasika. Although his relationship with the girl was long over, he still did not want anything bad to happen to him.

Until yesterday, Izzar believed Anaya had a similar interest in him.  So there is no need to force Anaya to continue his pretend marriage, just to get the prestigious project of Mr. Arsyad. Anaya's anger was thought to be a spark of jealousy that she would be able to easily overcome.

However, the recklessness of Sasika who did not want to find it even extended Anaya's annoyance. The debate in the car gave him some doubts. Anaya was right, he was indeed paid to be present in Anaya's life. The remark had emphatically implied Anaya's true feelings for him.

Despite not wanting to lose, Izzar momentarily felt like a weak and worthless man. He hates himself now, and so does Sasika.

His head and eyes are getting bigger. He was tired of thinking about everything. He no longer cares about the shrillness of Naira and the upset voice of his mother unpretentious outside his room. Anaya must not have managed to calm Naira down.

Some time passed, Izzar was half awake by the urging on his chest, and also a small cry was restrained. Before opening his eyes, he knew Nairalah was beside him.

“Why?” Izzar gently rubbed Naira's head.

“Mama nasty! I was upset that I wasn't invited to go. Uh, mama even grumpy me.” replied Naira.

“Yes, your mama is evil!” sahut Izzar's. He was happy to get the chance to express his regret

also being held back by Anaya's attitude all day.

“Daddy is also colonized by mama?”

“Iya.”

“In that case, we don't need to accompany mama anymore, yes!” take Naira.

“Oke.” Izzar was happy to get allies.

“I'd like to sleep here.”

“Ya. Go sleep! Don't forget to read the prayer!”

Naira said a prayer before going to bed. Then close his little body to Izzar's chest.

After Naira fell asleep, Izzar carried her and took her to Anaya's room. Sofabed his bed was too small and uncomfortable.

Anaya notices Izzar putting Naira on the bed and covers her. He wanted to say something, but his tongue was a bit out. He hoped Izzar would say good-bye as he used to say before closing the door. But Izzar was silent.

Both are equally isolated.

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