Because I Don't Want to Lose
42 - Dreams

Initially, Anaya hesitated to tell Izzar his vision. However, his astonishment prompted him to tell him also why he moved to a restaurant.

"Seriously? Both of them?" Izzar can't believe it.

"Yes, really!" Anaya convinced.

"So that's why you asked to move?"

Anaya nodded.

"It's not because of this woku chicken?" Izzar pointed at the plate containing pieces of concentrated spiced chicken with green basil before him.

"Not." Anaya blushed.

"Why didn't you just say it first?"

"I was shocked to see it. So I want to get away quickly." Anaya.

Izzar sipped his drink.

"How do you think?" ask Anaya.

"What?"

"They're both?" Anaya was impatient.

"Leave it. We don't know they're doing it. There might be business. For example, not our business. They are adults, must have known every action there is a risk," replied Izzar casually.

Fortunately Anaya did not necessarily show the togetherness of Ridwan and Sasika earlier. Maybe Izzar did not want to move restaurants because they consider the togetherness of their ex is not strange and not his business.

Although Izzar then forbade him to interfere, Anaya was not curiously curious as well. If someone else had nothing to do, maybe he would have obeyed Izzar's ban. But, Ridwan's real father Naira who is currently still married. While Sasika is a former fiance Izzar who recently had problems with the company Anaya.

The connection, grows suspicion in Anaya's heart. However, he did not devote it to Izzar.

The next two days, Anaya spent by arranging her house. Izzar, who could not leave his job, just drove and picked him up, and sent two workers to help.

His activities shifted his prejudice against Ridwan and Sasika. He just remembered back, when he received a photo message from Sandra containing pictures of the former were sitting talking on the floor of a restaurant on the beach.

Anaya immediately stopped his activities to guide the installation of wall paintings. He asked the two workers to rest. He chose to focus his attention on something else. Sandra Menelephon.

"Hey! Where did you get that picture?" ask Anaya without further ado.

"I saw them firsthand. But they didn't see me" Sandra replied.

"Where and when do you see? What are they? Just two?" anaya Cecar. Forgot he was with Izzar's ban for not caring.

"On Ancol. I finished watching the rehearsal kids at the hotel. They asked for seafood. Yes, I brought it here. What we turned out to be, how could be one place with both of them," said Sandra.

"You guys still there?"

"still. I was covering the beach. I am so glad I met them. Very nice, Nay! I'm disgusted to see it!" Sandra was half-crueled.

"Two days ago, I saw them in a restaurant. I'm with Izzar. But, since I was also lazy, I asked Izzar to move out to eat somewhere else." Anaya told me about her experience.

"Oohhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!... I became suspicious and curious. Then..." Sandra decapitated his sentence.

"Then what?" Anaya curious.

"Kusamperin yes. Pretending to be surprised don't meet them on purpose!" Sandra sparked her idea.

"Emmm..." Anaya was confused as to what to comment.

"Okay, Nay! Kukerjain used to be them. Kukabarin!"

"San?!" Anaya. However, Sandra had already ended her phone conversation.

Anaya breathed her. There was a sense of worry in his chest, about Sandra who could have acted out of bounds against Ridwan and Sasika who had indeed been blacklisted.

While Anaya calms himself, Izzar comes with Naira. He quickly dispelled his thoughts about his unrest.

"Mama!" Naira approached Anaya, who immediately greeted her with a warm embrace.

"Wow! Our house is so good!" Naira looked around fascinated. "I want to see my room!"

"Kok, is it still empty?" ask Naira wonder. "Where will I sleep?"

"His bed was again ordered. Not here yet" Anaya replied while checking her phone.

"So, when do we move it?"

"Wait for our bed to come. My mom hasn't come yet."

"I can't wait to move into this house again, Ma. I'm bored in the house now." Naira expresses her feelings.

Anaya smiled. He feels the same.

"Later, which room is your father?"

"Take it with you" replied Anaya.

"Can't!" Naira forbids.

"Why can't you? We're husband and wife, parents." Anaya.

"Can't! Dad's my girlfriend!" Naira retorted even harder.

Anaya wants to argue with her son, but Naira has run towards Izzar, complaining Anaya using her sulking style. He was sure Izzar would defend him.

"Mama bummer!" Naira pointed at Anaya.

Izzar looked at Anaya for an explanation.

"Your little girlfriend is too possessive! If you move later, I can't room with you" explained Anaya.

"That can't be!" exciting Naira.

Izzar held back his smile. It turns out to have two women fighting over each other.

Anaya takes advantage of Izzar's chance to persuade Naira by leaving the two to the back porch. There's a chair there. He sat checking his phone, Sandra on the phone.

Then he would answer, Izzar called him. Anaya turned to press the push button rejecting the call and rushed closer to Izzar.

"What's wrong?" Anaya thought the matter with Naira was still going on.

"There are guests going to see you." Izzar invited a woman of Anaya's age who stood at the entrance.

"Eh! Hi!" Anaya welcomed the hooded woman warmly. He is Farah, a neighbor and schoolmate of Anaya from Kindergarten to Junior High.

"How are you? Long time no see?!" Anaya pulls Farah's hand and introduces her to Izzar.

"It's Farah. Neighbors at the end. But since college moved to Makassar."

Izzar smilingly nodded his head in Farah's greeting.

"Yes. I've been coming back here two weeks nengokin mami. I want to see you there are none. This way, I see a lot. Really you exist. I want to go back the day after tomorrow" said Farah.

Anaya took her to the back porch, the only space comfortably occupied at the moment.

Then, the two chatted at length. Ignoring everything. And Anaya herself forgot about Sandra.

After Farah said goodbye, Anaya no longer got a chance to be alone. Naira, who I worked on, kept demanding attention. No chance to call Sandra back. He could only send a short message that he would contact her later.

Moreover, after they returned to the small house of Izzar. The limited space made him not get a comfortable angle to talk freely on the phone without Izzar knowing. After Naira sleeps, instead replace Izzar who asks for his attention.

Anaya decides to find out what Sandra will deliver tomorrow. He then fell asleep, caught between two of his favorite people. Naira, who is asleep, does not realize that Izzar is sleeping, hugs Anaya. If he knew, he would have screamed.

At midnight, Anaya wakes up with a hunting breath. He just had a weird dream. Anaya tried to reassemble the recording in her brain. In his dream, he ran away from Izzar until he was panting. Even though the man called out to her, he continued to speed. Until he finally stopped, then turned back. Izzar was not seen. Disappeared somewhere.

Anaya. Izzar lay on his side. His breath is smooth in order.

What did the dream mean? Why did he run away from the good man he was holding now?

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