Wife of Ceo Substitute
Farewell

"Kanaya didn't happen anything in my 4-year marriage to Elvano. He considers Keira as his son because he has promised me, to keep my good name, and Keira" Adella said.

"But my relationship with Elvano is pure as a friend, there is no romance between me and him" he added, looking at me, and I knew he wasn't lying.

"Why?" many wonder. They look compact together, and there is no love between them.

Although Elvano marries Adella in order to help her, they are two opposite-sex adults. How can we live together for 4 years without feeling? Friends can fall in love with each other, right. Like me and Devan.

"Because he can't love me, Kanaya. He just loves you. He always loved you, even to this very second!" Adella told me.

Adella's statement surprised me. I never thought that Brother Elvano would hold feelings for me for so long. Did he have this feeling after our divorce? How could he have covered it so tightly all this time? Even when I was with Devan, and he was around us?

I turned towards Brother Elvano who was still with Alvaro and Clara, I could hardly believe what I was hearing, I saw Alvaro and Clara laughing as Brother Elvano said something to them. The three of them looked very familiar.

"He didn't tell me to say this. This is my own wish Kanaya. Because I love Elvano as a best friend, and I want the best for him,"

"For Elvano there is no other woman in her life. You're just Kanaya, the only woman he's had in his heart for a long time. I think you should know about this," Adella told me why she told me this.

He patted me on the shoulder, like giving me the strength to accept what he was saying. Then Adella moved on and allowed me to think for myself in that garden chair.

It didn't feel like 2 hours had passed and the party was over. As promised, Elvano came home with us. He played with Alvaro and Clara for 2 hours. I could hear the laughter of Alvaro and Clara joking with him in the living room. I let them play and let go of some long miss, because tomorrow they don't go to school, until it's time for Alvaro and Clara to sleep because it's late at night.

"I came home Ay, thanks for letting me play with the kids," Elvano said while wearing his shoes on the front porch of the house.

"Yes, be careful on the road, Brother El," I replied as I drove him outside the house and walked to his car.

"Yes Ay, thank you. If there is anything - do not hesitate to contact me yes," said Elvano while looking at me and clasping my hands tightly.

Elvano, sister, came back to kiss my cheek before she got into her car, and drove out of my house, leaving me with a sense of uncertainty.

After Elvano's departure, I went into my room and decided to take a bath and clear my mind. After I finished the shower I went inside my clothes closet weighing what you were going to wear that night. My choice fell on Devan's white shirt hanging neatly among some of his clothes I still kept. I tried to inhale the clothes, and I faintly felt the scent of Devan's body.

"Devan.." I called her name because I miss her so much, I wanted to tell her how I felt.

I put the shirt on immediately after putting on my underwear and I, too, lay on the bed alone. I curled up and grabbed the bolster to accompany my solitude that night. Thinking back to what I felt for Brother Elvano and my fear.

Devan what should I do? I don't want you to disappear from my mind as well as my heart, but this feeling...

I took a deep breath.

Forgive me for feeling what I felt for Brother Elvano. I don't even know why or how this happened.

I took a deep breath once more and closed my eyes hoping to find out from my anxiety.

******

I woke up that morning, astonished by the room I saw in front of me, after a while I realized that I was in the room in my family home. The house from my childhood that I lived with my Mom, Papa, Devita.

That room, it's still the same as it used to be, when I lived, before I married Brother Elvano. Nothing has changed everything is the same, my wardrobe, my study desk and even my single-size bed.

I stood up when I suddenly remembered something very important that I had to meet there.

"Devan!" pekikku, remembering he lived right next to my house.

I quickly walked up to the window and saw Devan's brightly lit room window.

He's in his room! Pekikku is merry.

I immediately ran out of the room and went straight down the stairs and ran out of the house to his house.

"Devan!!" I screamed as I entered the house and went straight up to the top floor where Devan's room was.

"Devan!" Call me once more when I open the door to her room.

"Why Ay? how to run - run?" he asked while laughing at me, his typical laugh if he was teasing me when we were teenagers.

"Devan!" Call me while hugging him tightly. When will I be able to hug her like this?

There were no tears on my cheeks, as I let go of my longing for her.

"Why crying?" grabbing my chin and looking me in the eye.

"I'm scared" I replied.

"What are you afraid of?" ask me while wiping my tears with her thumb.

"I don't want you to disappear from my life Devan" I said.

"And why should I disappear? Didn't I tell you I'd always be in your heart, Alvaro and Clara?" tanyakanya.

"You don't understand." I said back down and buried my face in the chest of his field.

"Open your heart to others does not mean you will forget me Kanaya" Devan said as he walked to take me out of his room.

I looked up at his face. He seemed to seriously say it. It was as if he knew what made me uneasy even though I didn't say it.

"And you should know that Elvano is no one else to you" Devan said, looking at me for a moment, then looking back at the steps we came down to the bottom of his house.

I know, Brother Elvano is not the new person I know in my life, but still....

"Elvano was once in your heart, but he was still there and never left you. And you're Kanaya, you're the one who opened your heart to me," said Devan again, I don't know what he meant, that it was me who opened my heart to him? Hasn't my heart been for her all this time, Devan Permana?

"And during that time, you gave the best of you to me. I'm really lucky to have you and be a part of your life" he said

He opened the door and we walked out into the yard of our home.

I try to digest what he says

"But Devan, I really - really love you?" my word doesn't understand.

"I know baby, and I love you really, really, too" Devan said with a warm smile.

"My life with you means a lot to me, but my time with you is over Kanaya, it's time for you to give her a chance" Devan said.

I looked at Devan and looked for earnestness from the words. And he really meant it - really said it.

"I want you to be happy.You deserve to be happy, and I'm sure he can make you and the kids happy" Devan said.

He smiled and kissed my forehead so deeply that I could feel the farewell that was not said with words.

"I have to leave Kanaya immediately, take care of yourself well" he said as he looked at me.

This time I did not cry I nodded and smiled at him, saw him turn around and enter his old house - long gone invisible, leaving a puff of smoke around me then a beep...the longer the beep grew louder and louder.

When I opened my eyes, I was back in my room, still wearing Devan's shirt I wore last night. And it was the sound of my cell phone alarm that sounded so loud that it woke me up.

Seriate....

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