Trapped by the Love of Leaning
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"You go home by.." tell Jason to Shirleen. He saw that his wife looked tired, what else tomorrow morning Shirleen had to attend a report card sharing event at Misca school.
"It's okay By, I'm here." replied Shirleen.
"Jason, when do you think you can go home?" mama Mila asked, the day had gone up late but her husband had not come to see her, what because there was Jason thought Mama Mila so her husband did not dare to come.
But according to Mama Mila, her husband is not a person who easily daunted by anything.
"Why? My mom has not fully recovered!" answer Jason.
"It's okay, Mama just asked."
"Ma, Mama why?" shirleen asked, she wanted to be honest about the father and son quarrel, but Shireen was also still confused about where to start.
"It's okay!" answer Mama Mila.
"Papa yaa?" goda Shirleen's. Jason was a little disturbed when the Papa was mentioned in the conversation Shirleen and Mama.
"Ahaha, isn't that right, but why hasn't Papa come here yet?" mama Mila asked softly, whispering a little near Shirleen, she was afraid to offend Jason if she spoke normally.
"Ma, Mama don't have to think about that either" Shirleen said.
"Mama didn't think about it, Mama just asked, not usually right, your father although busy but he never let Mama, he always worried that Mama was sick like this." mama Mila said in a whisper.
Jason actually heard, the senses of his listener were indeed very sharp, his heart was also slightly jolted, should he explain what had actually happened.
Then how did Mama react after knowing her Papa decided to leave, would she blame him? Or how?
Jason is at war with his inner self, he just keeps thinking about how the solution of it all.
"Ma.." cried Shirleen.
"Yes?"
"If my husband and I go out for a little while, Mama, we're okay to live alone?" ask Shirleen.
"Ooh, yes please, Mama thought what just now, if you want to go out yes papa, you guys do not think too much about Mama, Mama is fine just look." Mama Mila showed her body that looked fit, not weak like before, she was very excited at this time.
"For a moment, Mom, just a second!" shirleen again.
"Yes, I've never been this young Mama, been there!" said Mama Mila.
Then Shirleen invites Jason out, Shirleen will talk to Jason about something, for him this can not be allowed, Shirleen is not used to lying, from earlier Mama Mila just keep asking about Mr. Adrian, for example, then how will they answer it, not longer left later this problem will be more runyam thought Shirleen.
"How now?" shirleen asked, as they were already in the car, Shirleen brought Jason to their car, for him it was quite privacy.
Jason was silent, but the look on his face looked confused, Shirleen could read it because it was so obvious.
"By, come... Are you able, are you ready to explain, don't stay still, don't dodge, the longer will be more runnyam if we continue like this." said Shirleen.
"Until when we're gonna hide it, even from last night you don't know where Papa went, By, I don't actually want to say this, but please change the way you think, put your ego down a little bit, please, or you'll regret it!" shirleen.
"You're mad at me?"
"You still don't understand, it means your concern, what's said from your lips that you'll always be by my side it's just your babbling right, you just feel sorry for me!"
"By, keep going, keep going like that, until when are you going to assume that no one cares about you, I'm a normal human, who tries to mediate between the quarrel of the child and his parents."
"I could have supported you, but I'm a mother, just like your Mama, who wants everyone she loves to be happy, I'm sure Mama wants her family as whole as ever, not as separated as this."
"You sure you don't want to take a step on the matter? You're gonna let your mama live a lie, she wonders, until when? Until her instincts as a wife are pawned, listen By, I will indeed side with you, but as long as you are right, and for me you are wrong now, you are too ambitious about your grudges, your grudges have blinded you, can't see what's right and what's wrong."
"Have it, don't say it!" jason chuckled, Shirleen was silent, did she just make Jason angry?
"Not even twenty-four hours have you stood up for me, but now you've blamed me, very good By, very good." said Jason, his eyes hinting at disappointment.
"By, you don't understand, it's a different situation."
"Don't, don't say, I don't want to hear it."
Shirleen gasped, wondering what she had just done, just because she thought too much about Mama Mila's feelings and even had the heart to indirectly blame Jason, even though she knew that her husband was actually already in a stage of depression, Shirleen understood, seeing this reality in front of her, she said, Jason who closed both ears and could not accept the fact that he was blamed to make Shirleen really understand, her husband was suffering inwardly. Even Shirleen could not imagine already at that stage how her husband's inner self was tormented.
Shirleen was crying, wanting to pull her words back, but nothing could have happened.
"By, I'm sorry By, no we're going to find a solution." - Shirleen.
"No, don't do it, no." cried Jason.
Shirleen hugged Jason forcibly, and it really hurt to see this reality.
A Jason Ares Adrian, a young man who looks almost perfect, admired by many, everyone is proud of his achievements, even Shirleen admits that, Jason is a very good husband, loves his children, love his children, Jason never complained about life, her husband was always reliable, mature in thinking, Shirleen had even fallen in love somehow made Jason, many times he fell in the arms of her husband.
But who would have thought behind that perfection, there is a fragile Jason Ares Adrian, there is a Jason who lost his way, There is a very sad Jason, Shirleen could not imagine what kind of life had dragged her husband into this kind of ruin.
"He must suffer, he must suffer!"
Shirleen knew whose oath it was to whom, so mounting the grudge that her husband was blazing, so hurt her husband.
"He must suffer, he must pay, I will not let him live a quiet life, he must suffer, I will not let him know how to smile, he will pay for it."
"I'll see it destroyed, one day, I'll see it destroyed, he'll have to be crushed to the brink."
"By, it's By, already, stop By... Hiks, By, please stop, don't be like this."
Shirleen did not believe it, her way of trying to mediate everything even made her husband's wounds stained again.
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