Trapped by the Love of Leaning
We are guilty.
"Ma.." cried Shirleen.
"Yes." said Mama Mila.
"I want to talk."
"Yes, talk, what's up, baby?" ask Mama Mila.
Jason did not come in, he could not see his mother's face, let Shirleen finish everything.
"Actually..." Shirleen hesitated, but she had to keep telling.
"Yes, what's wrong?" tanya wonder Mama Mila.
"Papa won't come here Ma..."
"Lho why?"
"Papa will not come here because actually Papa is gone" said Shirleen surely, with one breath she said that, although she knew it would hurt her in-laws, but want to how else, with one breath she said, there was no other choice than that they should continue to avoid.
"Go! Where's where?" mama Mila asked gently, believe me she tried to be ordinary, even though her heart was trembling. She recalled that her husband had discussed this with her before, that if Jason would not forgive them this time, she would leave.
"I don't know Ma, Papa ignored me when he asked me where." replied Shirleen.
"Then, where's Jason?" ask Mama Mila.
"Jason was outside Ma.." Shirleen's body trembled, her chest tight, I don't know what would happen next.
"Can you call your husband, baby?"
"Oh yes, Ma!"
Shirleen turned back, stepping out to call Jason.
"My dear.." call Mama Mila to her son who is already in the doorway.
Jason was silent, the shadow of Shirleen who seemed to blame him in the car was still ringing.
In front of him now, there was a Mother who might be disappointed in him.
"Sit here, son.." asked Mama Mila, telling Jason to sit on the porch bed nearby.
Jason said, even though his heart is difficult to condition, my God, I'm sorry today I hurt Mama again, Jason said.
"Mama will tell us how when we were so happy when you were born in the world, you were first, our first love" said Mama Mila, holding her son's hand gently.
Rainfall time
Gently glint
The stars also dance
Thickened clouds
Kutimang the buyung
Baby caresses
My son is
Go to sleep
"Mama still remembers once when Mama always sang that to your lullaby."
Jason nodded as if hypnotized, he also still remembered that, the song was one of his childhood memories.
Jason nodded again, a glimpse of the memory was imprinted in his memory.
The bottom of the heart that shakes the most, were they not once a happy family.
"You're always on vacation every weekend, Papa, Mama, you'll always take care of you."
"You remember when your Opamu died?" mama Mila asked suddenly about the others.
Jason again nodded regularly.
"That day, your father received a letter, from an unknown person, the address was not listed, the contents were in the form of a threat, our company, Adrian Group at that time was being targeted."
Jason nodded again, knowing this, because he had also investigated, but for the article his father received a threat, he did not know at all.
"Your father kept this a secret from you, so that our family would not have any grudges, because honestly your father knew who sent the letter." explained Mama Mila.
"But it turns out that our fear made us misstep, your father became a man of ambition, he wanted you to be his successor, not because of his selfishness, believe it all as if he was forced to do."
"Because of his fear he made you a robot who has to tread a path that is not at all for the path of your age."
"He didn't sleep a few days before he decided to."
"Even in the nights she wanted to stop, she honestly couldn't watch you suffer so, and Mama agreed, but sometimes she remembered the threat, and that brings him back to his plan for you."
"When he saw you studying hard, when he saw you enjoying the learning, his heart was a little relieved, Your father once told Mama that he was proud of you, he hoped his decision was right, he said, because it looks like you want it too."
"From that day Mama was also guilty, Mama began to support your Papa's intentions, even though Mama knew you were not yet time to bear the burden."
"You remember when Mama asked you to rest, don't be too forced, but you always said you'd be a great man, a rich man in power and you'd be in power someday."
"Mama and Papa thought, it's all true, baby, that's why Mama didn't prevent what you did."
"Ever once, your father came home covered in blood, he thought far, he only thought of you, do you remember when Papa was taken to the hospital?" ask Mama Mila.
Jason reminisced far back, ah yes he remembered, at that time his father said he was in the hospital and did not come home for almost a month.
"That's because your father was the victim of stabbing and persecution, it made him more determined to educate you to learn business faster, because he was almost at the end of his life, he hoped that when he left this world you were ready to replace him, he really hoped for it, son."
Jason did not believe what he had just heard, why, why he did not know this kind of thing, whether this was a mere story, not his mother must have just reasoned so that his hatred subsided.
"He didn't say that because the last message from your Opamu, whatever happens don't ever take revenge, your Papa know, your soul is like your Opamu's soul, lit up and blazing, blazing, never deal with him if you still want to live quietly." explained Mama Mila.
"No, don't tell me that, Mama what to say, I won't believe." Jason hesitated even more, his lips refusing to hear his mother's confession, but his heart was already so torn apart, should he believe it?
"Son, have you been lying to me all this time, you don't want to instill disgrace in your child, from the time you were a child until you were married, you never taught me to lie."
"By, try to open your eyes and your heart, I'm sure there is still a very big love here, especially after knowing the reality like that, please By, Mama can't lie, I told you, I told you, every parent must have a reason for every action on their child." Shirleen also tried to convince, she hugged Jason's slightly shaken body.
"I don't know who to trust?" well Jason did not know who to believe in, in the confession of his recently opened Mother, or in the eyes and heart that had sacrificed a lot and became a witness to his miserable life first.
"By, I beg By.." shirleen.
"I'm sorry, son, we're guilty, very guilty of you, we who can't understand, understand our son, we don't know what our son really wants, he said, we just caught a glimpse without even knowing how the details are, forgive us son..."
"We are guilty..."
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