Story In July (End )
Prologues
..."For the month of July,...
...Short but effective"...
... _Zahwa nur febrianita...
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On a quiet night accompanied by a speck of tiny specks of rain falling from the sky, out of nowhere I suddenly opened my bedroom window.
Even the night breeze was wagging my hijab and hitting my face was the only thing I felt, cold!.
Then I raised my head to look at the dark sky and I saw no stars or moons there, only dark clouds and the cold of the night wind were left.
I pointed my face back to the front and immediately my eyes were blank but with my mind, my mind floated back to turn the events that happened in July. The month contained only 31 days but there was so much going on.
Although it has been missed for many years, but what I feel now if I remember the tragedy that happened that month, it feels like a nightmare.
Man ... If he does not want to believe the harsh reality he has just experienced, then he will only lie to himself that it did not happen and all that is just a nightmare.
And so it was with me that when I accepted the harsh reality it felt so hard for me to accept, that sometimes I always lied to myself that it didn't happen.
But...
To any extent I lie to myself it will not be able to eliminate all the evidence, even the more I do it the more I feel sorry for my own life.
I always wondered, why should I? Why not someone else? I'm cape! I need a break too. And how can I rest if the trials keep coming in a row.
I feel like a coral in the ocean that is constantly being hit by a wave with no stopping.
I have a little question for you whether you ever thought that all this time, you were living in a family charade?
Or have you ever thought that you were living just to be a tool?
It was only 1 month.
Pretty short time, right?! But it felt so long and I was like living in a dungeon that was filled only with darkness.
I almost gave up and for the second time I almost made a stupid thing again. But...
Someone came and gave me a life lesson, he taught me that life will never be separated from what is called a test, even in this life, we must always be grateful, so we will feel better.
My eyes went down to my arms and I saw a bracelet that haunted the stars there, every time I saw the bracelet my mind was always showing someone who meant a lot to me.
You have motivated me to keep going no matter how many obstacles stand in the way.
Her face that was affected by the reflection of twilight as well as her soft smiling lips as well as her slightly melancholic face were quite capable of making me forget about my world.
I remember when he said...
Life must continue to be lived no matter how many tests come, even though our loved ones even hurt us whether intentionally or not.
Life is sometimes bitter, sometimes poignant, sometimes unjust and sometimes full of struggles and even suffering.
Sometimes we are not able to live, sometimes we want to give up to live, sometimes we have to think about what we are living for if only to suffer and then we assume that we are living is meaningless.
However, even in this life we often do a lot of things with the people we care about, right?! and it's very valuable.
Sometimes it's...
We just need to accept what is in front of us, and we just need to keep fighting until the last blood-soaked point.
Well...
Those words were still ringing in my ears and I could still remember them very well!.
Not even just his words I remember, there are many things I can still remember.
Like his figure, his attitude, his treatment, his way of speaking even his jokes. I can still remember it very well even though it has been consumed by time.
You said that I should never forget you. And it's impossible, it's not going to happen. Because I won't forget you and how can I forget you?.
Your figure alone I can still feel even though I am in the middle of a crowd, even though I am in a quiet place.
Do you know..
I only know one thing, that it turns out.
Accepting that fact is not as easy as turning your hand.
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Seriate...
^^^01 january 2022^^^
^^^Wida pitriyani^^^
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