Story In July (End )
01 August

A new day and a new month may be for some people today is the day for them to start something new, as well as with me but this new change for me is the worst.

The sound of sobbing was clearly heard from every mourner I had realized just silently pecking at the wheelchair I was sitting on, even a Princess whose figure was always jolly and joking suddenly turned into a figure I did not recognize.

And do not forget also with Amel he is a figure who is always outspoken, reckless and also angry, he said, but now for the first time I saw him sobbing at the sight of a figure who was now about to be hoarded by the ground.

Brother Erik was the one who drove his friend to his final resting place in other words he helped bury the body of brother Rido until the burrow, really for the first time I saw another figure from brother Erik. Her slightly red eyes and nose made me feel very stunned.

Mother was not ceaselessly crying even she was so tightly hugging the Princess, indeed the corpse was so very lucky because there were so many mourners present and praying for her.

Look at the smile that rose in his pale lips, and look at his slightly radiant face it feels as if it adds to the impression of peace in it.

"Don't, you can't land. Poor brother mother. Later he can not breathe" said the Princess.

"You can't do that, baby, you have to sincerely release your brother to go well" said the mother while hugging the Princess very tightly.

In the end, the burial of the deceased brother Rido went very smoothly, there were no obstacles at all.

Then Mr. Ustadz also prayed for the kindness of the deceased after that the mourners were happy to go home, now leaving only a few people nearby.

"I'm sorry, sir. I have failed to save my father" said Dr. Andri.

"Why are you apologizing doc? At least you tried. I am very grateful for all these years you have helped me" said Papah, then they embraced each other as if they were trying to strengthen each other.

Yesterday when we were buying ice cream somehow suddenly the heart rate of Rido became abnormal, before Rido was assisted with a pacemaker by Dr. Andri.

But no matter how hard Dr. Andri tried still he was just a doctor, he could not do anything when the fate of Mr. Rido had said otherwise.

"Then I have permission to leave, sorry because I can not linger here because there are still patients that I have to deal with" said Riza.

Behind all this I just found out that Riza's sister was also caught in connection with things I did not expect, I did not think, it turns out that Riza already knows that Putri and Rido's brother is my brother even Riza's brother already knows the congenital heart disease suffered by Rido.

But sister Riza kept her mouth shut because papah asked her to keep this a secret, well I don't want to comment anymore. I'mtired.

Doctor Andri and brother Riza also walked away from the cemetery, then not long after Amel crouched and stroked the tombstone that sticks the name of a friend and enemy figure to fight his mouth every day.

"Now I can't hear your voice anymore, and from now on we can't fight anymore." his finger glimpsed, then he wiped the tears that flowed on his cheek.

"Now you're grinning, right? You don't feel sick anymore and you don't have to play anymore. You can rest quietly now, but my message is only one you should be fine there" said Amel.

Then he stood up and looked at the figure who now only left a name, after which Amel turned around and immediately Amel and the Princess faced each other.

"Put Patience" said Amel, suddenly the Princess hugged Amel and because of that Amel was staggered backward.

"He's gone Mel, this isn't fair! Though we were born together but why did he go first" isak Putri.

With great difficulty I try not to cry anymore, I am sure that among all those who feel sad about his departure, Mr. Rido is precisely here the Princess who feels the most down.

I know that's what it's like to lose the person we care about, let alone the person who always accompanies us when happy or difficult.

..._o0o_...

Slender...

This house really feels lonely house that usually there is always a scream, joking and laughter now no longer felt.

My room which is usually used as a gathering place and a place to joke now will never again feel, well this is where I am now.

Again I made friends with loneliness and tightness that burst in the chest I could not stand it anymore then I was crying so much here, it was enough! I can't afford to pretend to be tough anymore.

I lost a precious figure again to me, now I wonder why the things I consider valuable always look striking but also look so weak.

If so, why should he attend? I'm not a robot or a doll that doesn't feel a feeling at all.

I looked at my left hand and I saw the star-haunted bracelet there, the more I saw it the more I felt claustrophobic.

I violently opened the bracelet and intend to keep it, it is possible that with me storing the bracelet then the tightness that this pain I feel will soon disappear by itself.

I moved my hand to open the drawer and keep it there but before I put it away, my eyes saw a photo album that was about the same size as a school book.

I frowned because as I remembered I didn't have a photo album book, so who did this have? That's what I was thinking.

"Who's this?" own monologue.

I took the photo album book and opened it and the first page that was visible was a letter that read the word "My family" in the middle, honestly I was stunned by that word.

Then I opened it again and saw the photo that had been taken when I, Princess and Brother Rido were cleaning my room.

And continue with a photo that I do not know when it was taken but as I remember it was the moment when I was here, then continue again with the photo taken when going to the beach.

Until arriving at the last and most striking part of the photo among all the photos, it is a family photo taken while on the beach at that time.

"This who made it?" again I monologue myself and keep wondering.

Several times I flipped through the book but the result was nothing to explain the owner of this book, then suddenly my eyes saw a piece of paper tucked in the back of the family photo.

So I took it and opened it "Let's guess what things can be folded but can be put in" that's what it says on the paper,

A few seconds later I frowned and then I read the other writing at the bottom.

"If you already know the answer then look in my room, marked. Your brother" again I was stunned.

"Sir Rido" beoku.

There are so many assumptions in my brain that it's really quite difficult, because on the other hand I can't think when I'm in this condition.

At first I wanted to ignore it but my curiosity was greater compared to my current condition.

I thought hard and I summarized the question on the paper so I could answer it, I had thought that maybe the purpose of the foldable was a computer and then maybe the computer was put in a closet or maybe a bag.

Immediately I left my place and walked limping to Rido's room and happened to be unlocked, so I began to search his room but carefully.

And the result is nothing even the computer I did not find, then I went back to thinking and the thing that crossed my mind that could be folded was paper.

While the intent of being inserted into it can be a bag, closet or drawer. But I checked the school bag and the closet and where else if not in...

My eyes slowly glanced at the drawer beside the bed immediately I limped towards the drawer and then I opened the drawer and saw a small square-shaped chest and a locked padlock.

I exhale tired, what does Rido mean to do this? And again my eyes saw a square piece of paper under the small crate.

"The key is in your room, under the bed" it says on the paper.

After reading the letter I went straight out of Rido's room and I carefully closed the door, then I went back to my room and locked the door.

I immediately looked for the key that he said was under my bed, and it turned out that there was a small key there.

After that I sat myself on the bed and opened the padlock open, then I opened the small square-shaped coffin.

Then I saw some of my favorite chocolate candy and another piece of paper there, my reflex was to breathe out tired from my mouth because honestly I was getting tired of the papers.

I took the paper and opened it the first word written on the paper was "cape huh? Patience is a trial not a test"

"Ngee!" my reflexes immediately said that and somehow I started to forget my sadness.

"Chocolate is your favorite, right? Iyah together" he wrote it as if he was chatting with me.

"Who says thank you" I murmured.

"Take it a habit to say thank you if someone gives you a gift. Ouh well do not forget to brush your teeth so that the teeth are not perforated, but if the teeth are perforated you olesin aja 'Nodrop' guaranteed no holes!"

Immediately I smiled reading the contents of the letter and then I opened another new sheet.

"Networked well? My sister knew it was crisp"

After reading that I shook my head, because it felt weird that he was joking around with him too who said that it was not funny.

"Zp... I miss you"

For a moment it seemed to stop my breath for a moment it felt stifled due to the effect of my shock, my eyes did not blink at all seeing those 4 words.

Slowly my tears came down on their own, and the tightness felt really uncomfortable.

"Don't cry! Who told you to make a cry, is wrong if you say you miss you,"

I violently wiped my tears and went back to reading the letter.

Brother knows you're crying again, but please don't cry anymore. Okeh..

Honestly, just this time I wrote a letter to someone. Congratulations you're the first person that brother gave you a letter, seriously!

Brother is not good at words but in this letter brother will say everything, brother repeat brother will say everything.

There will be no more lies that you hide, really you will tell everything. This time I will speak honestly.

Brother knows, you must be angry with brother because brother has lied to you but trust me Za, brother did this because brother does not want to make you worry.

Anyways...

Everything that will happen will happen, sister's disease has been there since a long time ago so for what brother spread to everyone.

Do you know...

Since the first time we met brother amazed you because you did not receive a helping hand, you are the first one to refuse the helping hand of brother.

Usually it is the brother who refuses the hand of the opposite sex brother, but somehow suddenly the brother even reached out the hand of the same brother to you. Weird yeah!

Zaa...

You know that? Brother actually already knows that you are brother, brother knows that when brother saves you from the coercion of Angga.

You remind me that when you passed out and then the one who brought you to your house was brother, Amel and Princess.

And..

When my sister took you to your room accidentally saw your family photo, I could not believe what you saw but my brother decided to explain it himself.

Fortunately, Princess and Amel are still outside because they are still chatting with each other, continue without thinking long brother immediately hide the photo was reviled so they do not know. About that thing.

Funny yeah...

It turns out we're brothers. Life is full of surprises

I was a little stunned by the confession of Rido who said that he already knew from the beginning, it means that all this time Rido already knew everything but he acted as if he did not know anything. I slowly turned the paper over to a new sheet that I still hadn't read.

Za don't do anything weird anymore, like when you try to kill yourself by jumping out of your room like that.

You don't know Za that time was the toughest thing you've never experienced, that time what you had in mind was...

If you fail to catch you then you will see you die in front of you and you do not know what will happen to you if you see you like that, so with all my might, brother tried to catch you.

Za to be honest...

Actually, big brother, has liked you for a long time.

Instantly I peeked at the place and stared at the words with a look of disbelief "Ha-hah?!" beoku.

But brother harbored that feeling because somehow the feeling was not worth to exist.

Since long ago brother always complained why you should have a disease like this? My sister still wants to spend more time playing.

Though brother still wants to know more people, even though he wants to achieve the ideals of brother as a soldier and brother still wants to go through many things with people who are dear to him.

But now that you are grateful for being given this disease, you know why?

Because then big brother will easily erase the feelings of big brother, no one will feel hurt and big brother will not suffer from harboring this huge feeling.

You remember when you said "i love you." Trust me, that expression suddenly came out of your mouth.

Brother is aware of what you do when your eyes twitch finally he knows that you are pretending to sleep, brother then said that brother loves you only because it is limited to sister, no more.

But actually it's wrong, brother has again lied to you. Forgive me brother for lying to you so often.

But this time....

Brother won't lie anymore, brother will tell you the truth Zahwa nur febrianita.

My heart was beating violently when I had not read the continuation of the letter, I slowly opened a new sheet again from the letter and saw the word that was plastered very clearly there.

I love you Za...

Very!

Immediately my breath was restrained, after reading the letter, then I went back to reading the contents of the letter at the bottom.

Don't hate me and don't forget me, keep wearing that bracelet. You do not take it off let alone throw it away.

See you soon!

Zaa.

^^^Tranda your sister ^^^

Again my tears broke again with a rush, it really turned out he was a cruel and selfish man.

Didn't she say that feeling was inappropriate to exist, so why would she express her feelings to me isn't that ridiculous?!

Did he not realize that I had also secretly liked him all this time, slowly my eyes descended towards the chocolate.

And remember the moment he accidentally saw me eating that chocolate while we were being bagged, at that time my feelings suddenly felt uncomfortable and just by eating chocolate it my feelings changed to be a little better and even now it has become a habit for me.

"Do you like that chocolate?!" hearing the question, I nodded my head.

"What chocolate?" ask brother Rido.

Without thinking for a long time I immediately gave one of my chocolates to him "Ouh this chocolate after all, once the Princess liked to eat this chocolate but now she is rare"

"Why?" my many.

"He said the chocolate was too sweet so he now rarely eats this chocolate" he replied as he opened the chocolate and then ate it.

"What do we eat?!" ask Amel.

"Brown, will you?" ask Rido while showing the brown wrapper.

"I didn't want to, I ate plastic!" tukas Amel's.

"Jude, don't want to"

All that was a few weeks ago but he still remembered it, I moved my hand to take the chocolate that was in the pot and then I ate the chocolate.

Apparently he deliberately prepared the chocolate so that I would eat it immediately when I had read the letter, he was clever!

"Human life is not eternal, but its memories will always be eternal"

On the sidelines of eating chocolate suddenly the words just crossed my mind, I know that. But why do I have to be this sick? Why it has to be so crowded like this.

I slowly re-attached the bracelet to my left hand and then afterwards I held it in my arms quite tightly.

I used to hate this feeling, a feeling that made me comfortable with someone but then when I started to get comfortable with their presence they just so easily left.

"I hate you brother, I hate you!" my sobs, every time I say it then every that I clench my left hand that wraps the bracelet.

"You want to go, you go. Why make so many memories in such a short time. Egoist, cruel man, no heart!" my sift.

Deep down in my heart I didn't take it that way at all, it's just that I was very upset by his attitude towards me.

This is really making me tired mentally and physically, congratulations! You win and I lose.

Once again I congratulate you...

You are great, in an instant you can make me feel comfortable with you but in an instant you can make me hurt.

I hope I don't find a human like you again, hopefully.

Seriate...

^^^02 september 2022^^^

^^^Wida pitriyani^^^