Story In July (End )
Epilogues

"Ummah!!" shouted a little girl from behind me, instantly I was immediately jolted because of shock and my daydream became crumpled.

"Kirah.." Beoku, then I turned my body.

"Ummah! I couldn't sleep" he whined with the lips he pushed forward.

"There is baba, he said he would sleep with you" I said, crouching before him to be on par with him.

"I don't want to. It wants the same ummah!" whining again, I breathed a tired breath from my mouth well I must remain patient to face this very spoiled little boy.

"Grandfather!" shouted a little boy who was out of nowhere.

Then the little boy who was screaming just now went straight into my room because he saw the person he was looking for was with me.

"Zaki you can't yell like that!" my reproach.

"I'm sorry ummah" he said, looking down, hearing that I shook my head several times.

You know they are my children who are only 8 years old and they were born simultaneously, in other words they are twins.

My daughter was named Zakirah nur wijaya while the man was named Muhammad zakira as-siddiq wijaya.

Although they are twins but their attitude and nature is very much different, if first brother Rido and Putri have the same nature. That is chatty, jail, messeselin and a lot of behavior.

Precisely with my two children they are even very different even their differences in attitude and nature are very clearly visible.

Zaki has a cute nature, rarely speaks and is also indifferent but sometimes he can be a figure of concern, while Kirah he is actually very chatty, jail, and even, blunt and also plain but even so his presence can change the atmosphere.

"Oh yes, ummah!" call Kirah while shaking my right arm.

"Hum..?"

"Snack me!" whine, while pointing at Zaki with his index finger.

"Hush! when did I hit you?" zaki sarcasm.

"Yesterday.."

"No-no" elak Zaki.

"So I lied, ummah I lied!" shout Kirah.

"No! I-I'm not lying" elak Zaki clumsily.

"Zaki, you choose to be honest or lie" I press.

Instantly Zaki fell silent and lowered his head "I-iya ummah, Zaki ngaku. Zaki hit adek yesterday"

I taught my children to be honest from childhood, because otherwise they would get used to lying until they grow up.

And well Zaki used to lie, he lied that he only ate one ice cream in the refrigerator but strangely the ice cream I bought was only one left when I bought 5 ice cream.

As I recall I gave each of them one eskrim to Kirah and Zaki, but the ecrim left one.

And when I asked the two of them no one confessed, because I suspected I also saw CCTV cameras in the kitchen.

And the culprit was Zaki, I was angry because he had lied but I kept him and chose not to talk to him for two days.

Then on the third day Zaki cried bitterly at me and even hugged my feet very tightly, and what made me very stunned was when he admitted his mistake.

"Ummah I'm sorry. I admit I was wrong, I ate the two ice cream. Sorry I ummah. Ummah don't be angry anymore well don't be cuddled me continue"

From that moment Zaki was reluctant to lie again, even Kirah never lied since seeing the incident that befell his brother maybe he was afraid to do it.

"But that was yesterday, not now!" added Zaki.

"Yes, the point is, brother hit me. Yesterday I wanted to go to the ummah but I forgot"

"It's a liar" Zaki grumbled.

"I'm not complaining!"

"What did that matter?"

"I'm just saying to the ummah. No complaints"

"That's the same thing"

"No! that's different"

"What's different?" hearing that immediately Kirah immediately thought.

"I-iyaa the point is different, period!"

"The same thing" murmured Zaki

"Iiihh different! Is it ummah, differentiate?!" whine with a pretty shrill voice.

Again I try to be patient by breathing out of my mouth again, while gently massaging my forehead which begins to feel a little dizzy.

"It's different" I said.

"The word ummah is also different"

"Udah. Mending now we sleep look at 09:00 at night and you two are still not asleep" hearing my argument they both finally nodded.

Then when I stood up suddenly there was someone who was tall, also had a body that was quite full and with his hair that looked messy was standing on the doorstep.

That person who is none other than a person who now holds the status of my husband, he is a person who is always patient in facing me and also he is the person who has pulled me from the slump.

His love was so great for me that he waited for me for so many years just so I could accept it, he was Angga son of Wijaya the one I used to always hurt and the one I used to hate so much.

"Mas..?" beoku.

"I guess where they went. Uh it turns out to be here" he said in a hoarse voice while rubbing his eyes.

"Ummah" call Kirah, I also cleared my throat while looking at her.

"Strange papa" Sontak Angga immediately glanced at Kirah with a question mark gaze.

"Freak" beoku and Angga together.

"Weird why?" tanyaku and Angga together again.

"Freaky" his Jeda at a glance.

"He said he wanted to nina boboin Kirah, uh but even baba herself who sleeps" I immediately held back the laughter of hearing it, then my eyes glanced at Angga.

And Angga just cleared his throat and turned his face the other way, this is what I mean. Kirah is plain and sometimes the words can never be kept honest I do not know whose attitude is similar to who.

"Udah. Now ummah who will nina boboin you, okay?!" hearing that, Kirah smiled while nodding her head several times.

I was about to move my legs but again Kirah held my arm so that I looked towards him.

"Why again?" I started to get worried about his attitude.

"Well, said Baba, Kirah and Zaki's brother should wake up very early!"

"It is you who have to pray at dawn"

"That's not it!" whining again, honestly I want to scream because Kirah is a child who likes to talk while I.

I'm a typical person who doesn't like small talk, or small talk I prefer important conversations not like this.

But strangely Kirah is stickier with me than with Angga while Zaki he prefers to play games or play games with Kirah, I don't know who he is more attached to because he rarely expresses himself.

Sometimes I think if Zaki is like me because if you remember Zaki it seems to have a nature like me in the past.

"Do you know why?" I raised my eyebrows next to it.

"Because we're going to Grandma's! While ngerayain ul--" Kirah's words immediately stopped because of the actions of Zaki and Angga who closed his mouth.

Instantly I widened my eyes because of the attitude of the two of them who both closed Kirah's mouth.

"What are you guys doing? poor Kirah" sarcasmu.

Instead of letting go of Zaki and Angga instead showed off their white teeth, while I just shook my head a few times.

"Well, is there any event we're going to your mom's house?!" I asked while looking at Angga with a question mark.

"Eum... Not at mom's. But to the mother's house" he replied clumsy.

"Mother?" beoku.

"Dad" his Jeda at a glance.

"Yes we have not been there for a long time, besides I have no work tomorrow so we can go to the mother's house to make. Eums.. Play rowdy?!"

"Oouh yaudah, it's up to you" I said, then I walked ahead of them.

Morning began to say hello and now I am busy with taking care of the clothes that will be worn by Zaki and Kirah, since being a mother somehow my bipolar mental disorder rarely relapses.

Even if the relapse was not as severe as it used to be and even I have rarely taken drugs, just by looking at Zaki and Kirah was somehow immediately the turmoil disappeared by itself.

"Ummah! I've taken a shower, tried to smell the fragrance?" tanya Kirah, who just came out of the bathroom.

With resignation I also obey his wish "Hem perfumed. Here's her shirt" I said, giving her a dress.

"Where are my clothes?" asked Zaki, heard the question and then I gave him a shirt and jeans.

After that Zaki walked to the bathroom and wore his own clothes there, he was quite mature and independent even though he was the same age as Kirah.

"Help help! This zipper really hard" I diverted my energy towards Kirah then I helped her to zip the dress that was only up to the knee length.

"Udah!"

"Darling!" call Angga with a shouting tone from a distance.

"Dad..?" I asked and then got out of my place and took something in the drawer.

Not long after, Angga who looked so confused "You see the key mo-bil" immediately showed his white teeth.

When I showed her the car keys in front of her, "Search for this, right?" my many.

"Hehe iyah kok know" he asked as he scratched his nape.

"That's your custom" I replied, then I put the keys in his black shirt pocket.

Then I walked over to Kirah and combed her hair "That same, you know where ak-wallet is"

"From the bottom" I replied and Zaki who had just come out of the bathroom.

"Ouh okeh" Angga said, then he immediately looked for a wallet in the closet.

"Propa is very forgetful, ummah, already know the goods like to be stored there but still keep nanya" said Kirah.

"Baba is not forgetful Kirah just do not remember ajah" elak Angga, with conditions that are still busy looking for a wallet.

"Yes, it remains the same. Yes, ummah" I only reply with deheman only.

"Jaudah is leaving, it's almost noon!" angga said as he walked out of our room.

"Will it be the Ummah?" ask Kirah.

"Udah. It's neat" I replied while tidying up a little bit of Kirah's hair.

"Ouh iyah, ummah don't go first well I want to take the doll in my room" hearing that I only nodded my head once.

After that Kirah with his excitement straight out of the room and followed by Zaki who followed behind, then I accidentally saw Zaki who was wearing a slightly uncluttered shirt on the back.

"Zaki's here!" myrag.

"Why ummah?" ask her while walking towards me.

"Wear the right clothes" I said while fixing his slightly uncluttered clothes.

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The journey from my house to the mother's house is quite far we need 3 hours on the way, during the trip also Zaki and Kirah they continue to sleep.

As soon as I got to the yard I got out of the car, followed by Angga who got out of the car and woke the children.

"I'm hungry!" Kirah.

"Dad will eat yah" my hand held her little hand Kirah while Zaki she was in front of us.

Not long after that, weary breathing from Angga "Huh... Why is it so difficult to get close to Zaki, even though I said my mother when she was a child really, keep funny again. Not like Zaki"

Hearing that I turned my attention towards him "Zaki emang that, from small he was a lot of silence not like Kirah"

"Yes but I---- arrgh is over" he said frustratedly, then walked ahead of me and Kirah.

"Later will also change anyway, do not rush the name also a small child later if it is already big will also change itself"

As soon as we got to the door of the mother's house suddenly the atmosphere felt very different, but I ignored the feeling.

Slowly I opened the door and said my greetings but no one answered at all even the condition of the house was very dark and silent, carefully we set our feet together.

And suddenly there was the sound of something exploding even I jumped in shock, not long after the lights of the house lit up and showed people standing from their hiding places.

"Birthy birthday!!" cheers everyone.

Long enough I was stunned because I was still digesting with what they said. Did they say happy birthday? Not that it's January now.

"Zah! Surprised dong, your time is not surprised or surprised by the rowdy" circus Amel.

"Yah Wa, you are not happy" said the Princess.

Suddenly everyone dropped their jaws and not even with the children who gathered here.

"Auntie! It's now February 5th, your aunt doesn't know" Gibran said of Princess and Beni's first child.

Well before I and Angga married they were married first and they were blessed with 2 children, namely Gibran and Zidan their children are linked to the age difference of 2 years.

Gibran was 10 years old while Zidan was 8 years old, they were one school with Kirah and Zaki and even their home was not far from our complex is really unexpected it turns out they are now here.

"Hehe aunty forgot" I told the 10-year-old.

"Jaudah cut the cake. Intentionally not given a candle, you like not to be placed on a candle above it" chirped mother while walking towards me.

"Yes, what do you blow out your candles. Lagian kayak little boy ajah use ngerayain kayak gini" my nagging while cutting the sponge cake that is being held by the mother.

"This is the aunt I don't like the most!" sentak Amel's.

Suddenly everyone shifted their attention towards Amel while I seemed deaf even more busy cutting the cake.

"He never changed! Always a ket-mtus" before Amel continued, I had already silenced his mouth with sponge cake.

"Shut up! Very onion. I really want to have a baby, again cravings too" I said casually and then licked my fingers with chocolate spread.

"How come the first feed for cucurut is not for me" chirped Angga.

"Hey! The one you call my wife's grandson" said Erik's brother with an expressionless face.

Sometimes it feels funny to see those who are paired when viewed from their activities it seems to be impossible, because Erik's brother is busy with his job as a doctor and Amel is busy taking care of his father's company.

"Hem iyah's. And what you call your wife is my cousin, so yes it's up to me" said Angga with a strange smile at brother Erik.

"So much you have a tongue-lick"

"Oh yeah obviously, the person in front of you right now is a successful entrepreneur"

"That's noise!" say me and Amel at the same time. Their relationship is sometimes not good but I know it's just a joke.

"Ekhem... If we want to eat together! Papah is very lager" asked papah, then everyone shifted their attention towards papah after that they nodded their heads once.

"Hold a minute I have a gift for another birthday" said Angga.

Then everyone was staring confused towards Angga is no exception also with me who was also staring strangely at him.

"Udah will die, pity must have been on the laper" I said.

"That's one second!" angga Kekeh.

After that he took his phone in his pocket and pressed something there, it made everyone even more curious about what Angga would do.

"Now! Don't press the red button, okay" I lazily picked up the phone and saw Lili's doctor's name there.

I frowned what did Angga mean to call Doctor Lili? Does he want to invite her here? Wouldn't that interfere with his working time?

"meaning?" I'm going to Angga.

"Sheel! Shut up, if you're connected press the loudspeaker let it sound the same to everyone"

"What the hell!"

"Hush up!"

Not long after, the sound of greetings from doctor Lili and everyone returned greetings from doctor Lili.

"Doctor Lili! He said there's something the doctor wants to say, right?" angga.

"Well, I just want to say congratulations to Zahwa"

"Daddy doctor thank you" I said.

"Not only happy birthday but also safe you will be a mother again"

Instantly the situation turned into silence no one said anything even the initially noisy children immediately quieted down and watched us.

"Huh?" beoku.

"Safe again! And I'm so sorry that I had to turn off the phone because there are patients I'm going to be treating right now. Assalamualaikum"

And after that the call ended there was no longer the voice of Doctor Lili while the situation here still remains the same that is quiet.

"Wow! Means that Kirah will have a sister yes ummah" said Kirah.

Instantly everyone looked at Kirah simultaneously "Why see Kirah kayak kayak kiteuh? Kirah is wrong"

"Za-zahwa this is serious right?!" ask mother.

"En-don't know mother" I said.

"So far, Doctor Lili said you were ham-mile"

"Dad! Now her pregnancy has stepped on 2 weeks" chirped Angga and again they shifted their attention towards someone who was blabbering earlier.

"Do you know what you are?" my many.

"jay"

"Keep why don't you say daritadi!" all the adults shouted at the same time even the children were surprised by our screams.

"There is nothing" Angga said, scratching his neck.

"Well so now there are 2 dong baby candidates!" princess Cheers.

"But it's time we went to see Lili's doctor. Doctor Lili didn't say anything" I said full of question marks.

"Yes, I deliberately asked doctor Lili to let your pregnancy be kept secret first, make a rowdy gift" said Angga in a relaxed tone.

"Well, baby, you're a mother again" said Papah who was suddenly in front of me and then peeked at my forehead.

"Hem iyah pah"

At first glance I looked at Angga and clearly visible on his face there was a jealous look, then when papah turned his body papah looked flat at Angga.

"What's Angga?!" ask me meaningfully.

Instantly Angga smiled forcibly "Hehe has nothing to reward"

"Don't be jealous, Zahwa is papah's daughter so it's up to papah dong!"

"Heheh yes pah. But now the son of papah has become my wife" he said while emphasizing the word 'My wife' even by displaying his stupid smile.

"Dad-iyah papah know kok" papah finish, maybe papah know the fossif nature of his daughter-in-law.

"Congratulations Zahwa, you are so happy!" mother cheers while hugging me.

"Father bun"

"Judah let's all eat!" take the mother to the children and they also follow their grandmother behind.

"Mell! I already have three children, your time is still one dead even one has not come out. When is it!" goda Angga after the children are no longer here.

"Okay, one is not out yet!" sentak Amel's.

"Eat it must be spit out to have another dong!"

"Lo nyebelin really is a person! Ouch!!" ringis Amel while holding his stomach a little big because of his 6-month-old content

Immediately I approached them and looked at Amel with worry, not even just me Angga was directly crouching in front of Amel.

"Darling why are you?" ask brother Erik.

"Eh!! lo why?" shouted Angga.

"Mails..!" call me worried.

"No, it's okay the baby was kicked" replied Amel with a little ringing on the sidelines of his speech.

"Basar makes a shock lo, I think you want the birth" said Angga while standing from his place.

"Lo gara hah!" furious Amel.

"Kok because of me"

"Dear baby, let's just say the radio is broken. We first deck Zahwa" said brother Erik then passed leaving us with hands that still embrace Amel.

"Don't call my wife adek! He's not a loo!" furious Angga.

"Hem yes whatever!" yell at Erik's feet.

"Sih basic!" decih Angga's.

Seeing his reaction I could only shake my head "You're like a little kid" I said.

"No, really!"

"Hem, what was that?"

"Once or twice is okay" his fingers at a glance.

"Oh yeah happy?!" tanyakanya.

"Hem? Happy what?" my many.

"Have another grandpa" he said with a seductive look.

"Basic! A mother who is not happy if in her womb there is the presence of another baby" I said and looked at the bracelet in my left hand.

"Yes too" said Angga and lowered his head.

"Ummah!!" yelled Kirah who ran towards us.

Contact me and Angga also look at him simultaneously "Grandmother said here! We ate together" Angga and I nodded our heads together.

"Ouh yeah baba!" call Kirah feel called Angga also look towards him

"Loof!" whining.

Angga then smiled and held Kirah in front after that Kirah looked at me who was still looking at my bracelet with a blank look.

"Baba, why do the ummah like to see the bracelet if it's happy again?" ask Kirah.

As soon as I woke up from my daydream and glanced at him and Angga alternately, Angga looked with a gaze that I could not read.

"Because the bracelet is a gift from a special figure for the ummah"

Instantly my heart stopped beating from hearing Angga's reply. When I heard it I felt that he was now insinuating me.

It is natural, who is not jealous or angry if his wife still remembers the figure she once loved.

"Oouh gith"

"So Kirah also had to meet people like that"

"Like who?" ask Kirah.

"Like a figure who always misses the ummah" answered Angga while holding his nose towards Kirah.

"Didn't you ummah?" ask Angga.

"Ah i-iyah" I replied clumsily.

After that she smiled sweetly "Don't stay here for long, you'll be angry" she said as she stroked the tip of my head covered by my hijab after that she walked away from me.

I kept staring at his back, I realized that maybe he was a little angry and jealous of me. But he harbored it because he would probably feel the same way if he were me.

Slowly I took a breath out of my mouth and exhaled slowly as well, I felt like I could not afford to go back to this house.

Even though it is just to play, stay or stay because it feels very heavy. Slowly my eyes peeked through every room and imagined when the figure, me and the Princess were together.

It is also visible when he who ran from the pursuit of the Princess because his twin was holding a small animal that he hated so much, especially if not a cockroach.

Really my chest hurts again even my breathing again feels tight if you remember that time, this all feels very heavy for you.

"Sister. How's it going now?" I said in my own monologue, violently rubbing my eyes that began to shed tears.

I really don't want to remember it anymore, but the more I try to forget it the more it haunts my mind.

In this life there's so much going on, even I don't know how many things I've been through.

The feeling I loved, the figure I had always taken care of, everything I liked about her was instantly shattered. That day too.

I always busied myself so that I could forget it, but what power if the memories continued to hold me very tightly.

People say...

Dead elephants leave their tusks, dead tigers leave their daggers and dead humans leave their names.

I've already let it go. Really am!

But his presence and his habit towards me sometimes I can still feel. Even though it has gone even once.

Thank you good people! Even if you are only present for a moment. But for me, that was more than enough.

Goodbye...

Older brother.

...___ DONE ___...