Story In July (End )
Day one - 23

Mentari began to show the light everyone was busy with their own activities and so was I who was busy fighting arguments with Riza's sister, because I don't want to meet again with a man who came yesterday who was none other than that man was my own papah.

"Come on the deck, you can't like that" said sister Riza.

"I don't want to know the point that if that guy comes back, I'm gonna get out of here. At that time" I said by emphasizing the word at the end of the sentence.

"Is that as hateful as you are to yourself?" ask Reza.

As if deaf I turned my face and looked at the window, then not long after that suddenly the door of my room opened.

Look at the mang Ujang and mbok who carry a piece of paper, then they came to me in a hurry.

"Alhamdulillah non-tea is okay, mbok worry very much the same non" she said with tears coming out while hugging me very tightly.

"Non Zahwa tea mang looking everywhere but do not meet, know-how mang can news from the master he said non in the hospital." said mang Ujang.

I smiled looking at those who looked very worried about me, but a second later I realized about something else I subtly released a crack at me.

"Bok bring me something I asked for, right?"  my code.

At first, Mbok frowned but I did not care about his reaction instead I stretched out my hand while pointing at the paper held by the mbok with my eyes.

After understanding, he finally gave the paper held by him and gave it to me.

"Sir Riza's home certificate, this love to papah if papah comes here"

"What do you mean deck?" ask brother Riza.

"I mean give this to Papah. That was good" I said.

Then I got up from my seat and pulled out the infusion that stuck in my right arm yet I had time to step foot, suddenly Riza's sister held me by holding my arm.

"Dec is not what you ask"

"What else is it, brother?!" my growl.

"Sister, why did you give this house certificate to your papah. Meaning what?"

"Buddy brother I don't want to explain anything else, brother just need to give this paper to papah. That was a bad time"

I tried to let go of Riza's grasp but again Riza's sister held my wrist even now she was holding her tight, tightly, he did not care about my wrist which was now starting to drain blood because I pulled out the infusion earlier.

"Wait a minute" his Jeda a glance.

"Where are you going now?"

"I want to pack my clothes because I want to go back to Jakarta"

"Well?!"

Without further ado, I pulled my wrist and walked out of my room, ignoring Riza's sister who kept screaming my name in the back.

"Non mean non what?" ask mbok.

As if deaf I actually even more speed up my steps and also further tighten my hand grip with mbok.

..._o0o_...

"Non, non why pack non clothes?" tanya mbok who never stop asking that, when I see me who keeps pacing because of packing my clothes into the suitcase.

"Non" call mbok.

"Money!" call him again while holding my shoulder.

"What the hell is mbok?" tanyaku.

"Non airdrop"

"I want to go back to Jakarta I want to stay in the old house. Mbok want to come? If you want to come along, mbok quickly pack up and we immediately leave" 

"And oh yeah... Now" continued.

"But non"

"No but-but mbok, already if mbok want to come come come if not yaudah do not need. I'm busy now, too, so don't bother me!" 

After saying that I was again busy with my activities, while mbok actually chose to get out of my room and passed somewhere.

A few minutes later I finally packed up all my things and I took a childhood photo with my parents on the top of the drawer.

Do you guys know?

How does it feel to be me?

Believe me my chest is so claustrophobic as to see the reality so bitter that is happening now it feels like all this is a dream, if only this was all a dream then I want to wake up from this nightmare immediately.

Now there is no family in my life, my family that was lost at the same time as the incident that night.

Papah has proven that he is able to make his own decisions, he does not care about my opinion so for me it is more than enough as proof that I no longer mean anything in his life.

For a long time I thought I was walking down the stairs with a large suitcase that I pulled with great difficulty, and just as I was on the last step I saw black shoes.

Then I raised my head up, and it turned out to be...

"Where are you going?" ask her with an expressionless face.

"It's none of your business" I replied with an expressionless face as well.

After that I walked past him but suddenly my hand was grasped by him, my reflex was to glance towards his pair of eyes.

"Wawa dengerin papah" he pressed in a soft tone.

I violently brushed his hand against my hand, then looked at him with a cold face.

"What else is it?" jedaku.

"I don't think I need to listen to any more explanations from your mouth" I said and then I stepped back but again papah held my arm.

"What do you mean by giving this to papah hah?!" he snapped while showing the certificate of this house.

Hearing that then I smiled grimly towards him "I know how pah, if this house on my behalf. And I've changed the name of the ownership of this house to Papah's"

"But instead I will stay in my family's house, which used to be occupied" I said, stressing the word 'out of my family'.

The words may have succeeded in making papah an emotion but papah held his anger in him and made his jaw harden.

"Okeh then I go first. And like mbok don't want to come, its okay no matter what mending lives alone. Because it's more qualified" my fingers at a glance.

"Allowed reward?"

The interlocutor just fell silent and then I tilted my smile and then I moved my legs back past him.

"Ouh yeah.." I continued and then I turned towards him, a second later papah looked at me.

"May be happy with his new family" I said.

After saying that I turned my back and took my foot back but just took a few steps, suddenly I hit the chest of someone's field reflex I also raised my head up and how surprised it turns out that person is....

"K-sister Rido" murmured me.

Her melancholy face seemed capable enough to be the first spotlight I saw, while I was restless even my hands suddenly felt cold.

"Udah enough!!" yell brother Rido.

Making me a little jerked maybe not even me who felt jerked, papah and mbok who just arrived also felt jolted with the screams of Rido.

"When are you going to cover this up?!!"

"Gue's sick of this charade! I'm sick of it!" rido shouted and his voice echoed throughout the room.

"Dad! Now either. Rido asked me to explain everything!!" raung kak Rido's.

The situation immediately turned tense no one opened their voice even mbok did not twitch at all.

"The story is long Rido, mending we finish with a cold head"

I accidentally saw Rido's hands clenched and his jaw even hardened, for the first time I saw this scene.

"Okeh" his Jeda at a glance.

"We're going to finish this with a cool head, but I have to promise. If father will tell the story everything that happened without anyone being missed in the slightest" he said with a face filled with anger.

"Buyah ... I promise"

"Mother, your daughter can enter now" he called, not long after that mother and Princess entered it was quite able to make me and also papah was very surprised.

..._o0o_...

Among all the people no one spoke even just to thud, there was no only the sound of the clock ticking heard at this time.

"Dad" call Rido's brother.

"Start" code.

Papah immediately seemed to think very hard to be honest I felt a little strange with his attitude it felt as if he felt introgated, though what is difficult to say that I am his son and he remarried because his wife was gone and the problem was solved.

Long enough papah silent then papah took a breath from his nose and then exhaled from his mouth slowly.

"First dad ever married a woman and that was without the consent of both parents, when we were married we were very happy and did not feel the day changed to last week turned into a month. And in the end we were blessed with children" he said with eyes that glanced at the Princess's mother.

"A few months later the woman gave birth to two twins, of course we were very happy and we raised the twins with great affection"

"1 year later the woman was pregnant with another child, then the father was very happy but the happiness was only temporary because the father was called by the parents to come home soon"

"By being forced to leave the woman who was pregnant, but the father promised the woman that the father would return soon after telling all that had happened so far to both parents"

Hearing that it feels like I want to cut papah words to ask what the meaning of the story but I remember, that before papah finished his words then no one should interrupt.

"When fathers would say things that had happened all this time to their parents, suddenly they said that they had betrothed fathers to their business friends, and if the father is married to their son then the company of the father's parents will benefit"

"At first the father had wanted to refuse but considering that the desire was the last desire of the father's mother, then with a heavy heart the father accepted the decision of both parents"

Again I felt very confused by the story you said, but I still try to be patient and listen to all the stories very carefully.

"A few months later after the father married the woman of the choice of the father's parents without the knowledge of the father's wife, then all of a sudden my father-in-law wanted a child from both of us and if we fulfilled their request they would give us half the inheritance at that very moment"

"Huh?" shirihku.

"Lantas father and second wife father who was outside the country at that time began to feel very burdened with that desire"

"Because it was our position to get married because we had to and we didn't love each other, then when we returned to Indonesia, suddenly my father received the news that the first woman he had married was now giving birth"

"When the burden that piled on my boat felt like it was disappearing, too, the night the father told the truth to the father's second wife that the father had been married before marrying him and now the woman he had married had given birth"

"Then the father's second wife made a proposal that the father should take the child and raise him to be our son"

Hearing that I also stood up from my seat "Wait.." as I, enough! I can't take it anymore.

"Th-this means what?"

"Za we've agreed to hear all the father's explanations and all that time. No one can interrupt" said Rido.

Hearing that I sat back and heard all the stories to the end, holding all the questions in my brain.

"First woman father gave birth to a daughter who was very beautiful and sweet and it was a beautiful memory for father"

"But on the other hand, it felt like the father could not separate the baby from his birth mother but at that time, the father's greed was greater than pity"

"Without thinking of length, the father immediately replaces the baby girl father with another baby girl who is said to have died by the nurse"

"But when the father exchanged the baby, there was a woman who saw the incident, then the father gave the woman a large amount of money so that she would shut her mouth about the events that occurred at that time and if it was not enough then the father would give her work and by giving her salary which is not a little"

"After that, the woman finally agreed and she worked as a babysitter for the newborn" 

Hearing that immediately I stood up from my place and not long after that everyone also stood up.

"I-I still don't understand" I asked.

"The baby girl is you and the woman you call mamah is not your biological mother" Papah explained.

"Te-continue that nanny.." My hang and then I turned my body towards mbok and mbok who saw me immediately bowed his head from me.

"I don't believe it, I don't believe it! This must be a lie, this must be a lie!" my snapping.

"Non.." - Smirked and intended to hold my wrist, but I immediately brushed it aside and held both arms.

"This mbok is lying? All this isn't it?!" instead of answering, mbok was silent in place.

"Mmd! Answer mbok!!" my insistence while shaking his body.

"Non.." the net at a glance.

"What the master said was true, all this while helping the master and mistress to cover up the truth very closely"

At that time also for the first time I was very disappointed with mbok, a figure that I had considered a mother turned out to be her all along covering up that very big thing.

Slowly I lowered my hand from my arm, I didn't believe what I had been doing all this time.

"Laughter." Call Papah and then come up to me and hug me, but very strongly I push him back.

And it made him fall on the floor and with the back that hit the sofa even because I was so strong I pushed, the sofa was shifted from its place immediately, brother Rido, mother and Princess widened their eyes and looked at me with a look of disbelief.

"Zahwa!" princess Benthic.

I glanced at him and unexpectedly he even pushed me back very hard, even I sat on the floor very hard.

"Lo outrageous Zahwa!" snapped princess.

"Gue knows you're angry!! But you don't have to push me!" it was smashed with a very high tone.

Hearing that, I smiled in anger at him, "External? Necessity you say?" my hands glimmered with tears beginning to flow from my eyes.

"Lo thought to himself Put, who is outrageous and who is the victim!" I snapped for a moment he was silent not twitching at all.

With great difficulty I tried to stand up and now I was standing face to face with him "Lo know? For years I lived in hell. I'm treated like a doll that should always look perfect in front of people!" I said with my chest up and down and with thundering breath.

"And all this happened because of him!" press me while pointing towards Papah.

"Wawa" call mbok.

"Don't call me Wawa!" my yelling.

"Sorry mbok, non" said mbok by changing my nickname.

"Mbok" called me in a soft tone.

"Mbok know? In this house only mbok that I believe and only mbok that be my backrest" my fingers at a glance.

"But now my trust in mbok has collapsed and here I feel even more betrayed. By mbok, very!" I say with word emphasis at the end of the sentence.

"Sorry mbok non.." he explained again, then mbok intended to embrace me but I again brushed off all the embrace instead of me instead preferring to walk backwards to stay away from them.

"It's not fair" I said with a step that kept going backwards.

"It's not fair!" again, then a second later my legs and body began to feel very weak, and in the end I sat down on the cold floor.

"Why every situation begins to improve other problems always arise, but I also want to live more calmly like others" I said, with a raucous voice and with tears streaming out from my eyes.

My situation is very chaotic at the moment and they let me continue to be in that condition, none of them walked up to me until I suddenly felt a soft, warm embrace suddenly holding me from behind.

"Syutt's... You can't cry, baby, you know. If you are strong even stronger than mother" he said in a very soft voice.

My body immediately stretched my heart suddenly felt a little calm, was it like being smothered by a mother.

And is this the smell and warmth? So safe and comfortable that even his embrace was as gentle as silk, his warmth felt like the rays of the sun that rose after the rain had subsided.

I slowly turned my back to look at her more closely, after which all my eyes saw was a sincere smile and a gentle look.

"My son is alive. See brother?" he glanced at Papah.

"Our youngest son is still alive." she said, with a hint of laughter in each of her words, even with her hands gently rubbing my head covered by my hijab, not long after that her tears flowed by themselves from her two beautiful eyes.

My eyes glazed over at moments I had never experienced at all, to be honest I felt very strange about the figure before me at this moment. I was astonished that he had no resentment or resentment towards the man who had betrayed him.

"Why aren't you angry?" ask me with a hoarse tone.

Hearing that, my mother smiled at me "Because everything that happened has happened there is no point in being angry or sad. For the most important mother it is." her fingers glimpsed while stroking my hijab at a glance.

"The mother can still see the mother's child, and that's more than enough" she said, then kissed my forehead and hugged me in her arms.

I don't know what's on his mind and I don't know if I should be happy or sad.

It is true what you said earlier that happened then it has happened, we will not be able to turn the time to return to the past.

"I hate you all"

Seriate...

^^14 july 2022^^^

Wida pitriyani^^^^