Story In July (End )
Day one - 24

Mentari began to be seen from the eastern horizon even its rays began to shine on the city of bandung and other regions, maybe for others today they are busy to go weekend because today is Sunday but I am still in the same position that is standing in the balcony of my room with a view that looks straight ahead.

You guys must be wondering why I'm still here..?

The answer is easy because I did not go to Jakarta and I also refused their invitation to stay at the Princess' house. Uh.. I mean to go to my new family home or I should call my family home.

I closed my eyes and inhaled greedily while squeezing my head with both hands, it felt like all these things were very frustrating plus whether I should go to their house.

And not only that which became his burden but what became my biggest burden was that I should be able to forget my feelings towards him, because anyway the person I like is my own brother, my brother, how do I remove it or forget it? I don't think it's gonna be possible.

Really this is very stressful for my brain and mental plus my relationship with the Princess also probably will not be good especially because of yesterday's incident, seriously my head is starting to dizzy now.

While I was busy wrestling with my mind all of a sudden someone was twitching my head, I was breathing with relief because the massage was so good.

"Dizziness...?" ask someone.

After a few seconds I realized I turned around and saw my mother with a gentle smile, I began to feel opium with her smile because her smile was very sincere and soothing.

"Eh... Mother" I said clumsily.

"Mother knows how, must be dizzy well..?"

"N-no bun, just.."

"ah! Just what?" sela.

"Cu-free." I fell silent because my mother held my mouth.

"Don't lie, lie it's soda..."

"Soda..? Sin may be mother" I said.

"Well... That's, it's the same 'soda' 'sin' "

"Whoa bun.."

"Name"

"Different!"

"Yes!" strengthen mother while wrinkling both eyebrows.

"That's the same" I said while sharing my smile a little, the second suddenly Mother giggled to herself I also frowned.

"You look like Princess Dad"

"Lik..?"

"It's similar, really. You see, the Princess did not want to lose but sometimes she was also groaning"

I smiled at her because it was such a fact, The Princess is indeed a person whose personality would not budge even on anyone.

"Eum... When did you get here?"

"New ajah" said the mother while I just said 'oouh' only.

The situation began to be quiet I was confused to say what else because I was a typical person who rarely spoke, not long after the mother walked one step ahead with eyes that looked in all directions.

"Waaah... The house here also makes adem well, especially the yard of the house is also very spacious!" he said because he saw the spacious yard of my house and also filled with flower plants, making the atmosphere cool.

For a moment I felt it was an insinuation or maybe it was just my feeling, I became worried whether my mother really did not have any resentment or anger..?.

Because not getting the advice from me, my mother turned her body towards me, looking at me who was uncomfortable by herself.

"Why you?" he asked, I was immediately imprisoned by myself for hearing the mother's question.

"Be careful not to get me wrong, the mother was muji loh not insinuating" as soon as I felt calm and smiled at her.

"Judek.. Yuk" he asked while holding my wrist and pulled it, but I pulled back my wrist to make the movement between us stopped.

"Where?"

"Our house is. Where else"

At that moment, I suddenly fell silent to digest what you said earlier, I was afraid and worried myself but. Not long after that, my mother held both of my shoulders.

"Mother knows what, you're worried about..?" I just fell silent without answering anything because the fact was like that.

"Listen, sometimes we have to be able to move forward even though in front of us there are only thorns" his nose at a glance.

"After this promise there will be no more lies. Yuk?!"

Now in front of me there is someone who extends his hand that if I accept his words then everything will change.

If I accept his words will I be happy with him?

Slowly but surely I began to raise my hand to hold the thread, and finally my hand with his hand is now interlocked.

After that my mother held my hand tightly as if I would leave if she let go of her grip on me.

"Let's make it... New memories" said the mother, with a gentle smile at the end of her sentence.

..._o0o_...

And finally I decided to go with the Princess, oh.. Not my name, either.

Now that I'm in the yard of the Princess' house this is the second time I've set foot here after the terrible events that happened that night, oh come on I don't want to remember.

For a long time I was pensive until the sound of the mother's call was clearly heard in my ear then I immediately woke up from my daydream and glanced at it.

"You're the mother call daritadi loh, why?" hearing that momentarily, I shook myself.

"E-nothing is bun"

"What's right..?" asked the mother with probing eyes saw that I turned my eyes away from the mother.

"Jude, yuk! " take her while holding my hand, but somehow suddenly my mother turned her body.

"Ouh iyah, mbok please bring Zahwa's stuff.."

"I-iya ma'am" sahut mbok.

Mom smiled and then turned her back while pulling my hand, when we arrived in front of the door of the house that was still tightly closed for some reason I even pulled my hand until finally holding my hand with my mother was cut off.

"Why?" ask mother.

My heart was beating so fast that even my hands were shaking so violently, I was so nervous and scared right now.

"No need to fear, there will be a mother" he said while embracing my shoulder to hear it I then smiled to hear it, but still deep in my heart I still feel afraid.

Not long after that suddenly the door opened and the one that opened the door was..

"Daughter..! Make the mother shocked dead" said the mother, while the called one was just petrified in place with eyes that kept glancing at me, while I actually avoided her gaze and glanced at another direction.

"Well in!" take my mother while holding and pulling my hand again.

"Alhamdulillah, we arrived too" said the mother while clucking her waist and also with eyes that look at each room.

"Oh yeah, auntie.." call mom.

"Yes, madam..?" someone who suddenly shows up.

"Please help me bring Zahwa's belongings to his room Princess well" 

"Well?!!" The princess suddenly shouted with a gaping mouth, making me and my mother caught hearing it.

"Why? How come you are shocked rowdy" asked the mother with her eyebrows that are interlocked.

"Yaudah, if that's why you want to go to the kitchen first want to make breakfast"

Me and the Princess only nodded her head once and then the mother sauntered away to the kitchen, as soon as the atmosphere turned into silence and awkward no one started the conversation between me and the Princess.

I don't know where the chatty and noisy Princess went, for me a Princess who is now very different because the Princess who is now more silent and not much acting.

"Relope.. Come with me" she asked, somehow I feel like she's acting cold right now.

Ouh come on I should have realized because here I am wrong, why should I follow the mother earlier? I should just go to Jakarta and support myself, all right.. I'll be out of here tonight. Thought.

After quite a long time we finally arrived in front of the door of the Princess's room which was still tightly closed, at that time I also began to be uncomfortable with the atmosphere around the Princess.

I boldly said what I should have said Daritadi.

"Mom! I know you're not comfortable if I stay here, so I'll go later tonight as long as you help me get out of here" I said to the point, I am indeed a typical person who can never be pleasant to hear that Princess also glanced at me with a look of wonder.

"You're going to leave tonight, as long as I help you get out of here?!"

"Dad"

"But why..?" asked the Princess directly, hearing that I fell silent and glanced in another direction.

"Wa! Do you hate me that much? Because of yesterday's problems" he said.

"I don't hate anybody I just.." My finger at a glance.

"No one wants to take care of anyone" my great-granddaughter.

"Wa! You are not nicotine, it's precisely now that you are the responsibility of the mother and father and also" the mesh at a glance.

"I'm sorry about yesterday's problem and I'm sorry about my attitude. Not that I meant to behave like you, but.."

"I still, still don't believe in all this Wa" he said.

Princess it's true that all this happened unexpectedly I never thought this would happen, even I still guess that all this was a dream.

"I'm sorry, Wa..!" the princess shouted hysterically, then suddenly she hugged me so tightly that even I staggered back, stumbling, I just fell silent because I didn't know what to say and what to do. 

What a heavy silence is this why the atmosphere here is so very quiet? This silence made my chest tight, saw the attitude and also heard the Princess who continued to say 'sorry' finally I joined in crying, for the first time I showed my sadness in front of others.

..._o0o_...

After the incident, me and the Princess again act as if nothing happened, now me and everyone who lives in this house are at the dinner table, except for the housekeeper's aunt she was now washing the cookware that you used earlier.

"Well.. Now breakfast is over!" said mother while saving vegetable soup.

Everyone started to take their own plates and also filled them with rice and side dishes, whereas I just looked at all the food.

"Lohs... Why don't you eat Zahwa?!" ask mother.

I just smiled clumsyly and my hands started to grab the plate but before that my mother had already taken one plate for me and filled it with rice after that mother gave it to me.

I also take fried tofu and fried tempeh, do not ask me why I do not take vegetables because I do not like.

"Wa! Why did you just take that?" ask Princess.

"Wawa is rowdy, does not like vegetables" papah chanted while eating his food.

Suddenly all those at the dining table also glanced at me, not least with the aunt of the housekeeper who was arranging the cooking utensils at his place.

"You don't like Zahwa vegetables..?" mother asked, again I can only smile clumsily.

"Why not say?" timpal.

"N-no papa bun, this is also enough" I said, after that I prayed carefully and then I started eating the food.

"No, no, no you just have to eat vegetables" said mother, suddenly I rounded my eyes because mother who suddenly added the vegetable soup into my plate.

With great difficulty I swallowed my saliva because I saw the vegetables on my side that have now been wallowing with rice there, I felt confused myself because here is the first time I was treated like this, he said,  usually if I refuse then mamah never force even papah also never!.

Slowly I glanced at my mother and mother just smiled sweetly with a sinless gaze, while papah just gawked at everything that happened then after that papah turned his face holding back laughter.

"Eat aja Za. Mother's cuisine is so good!" chirps brother Rido.

"Well, eat Wa! If you eat vegetables also you will not be poisoned" said Putri while occasionally eating his food.

Slowly I began to spoon the rice and devour it and immediately I narrowed my eyes while swallowing the food in my mouth, after which I immediately gulped the water in my glass until it ran out.

Uh my body felt goosebumps after eating it, somehow I had to spend all this.

"Of course, it's not good to waste food" chirped mother while eating her food and occasionally hold laughter.

"Look Wa! Habisin.." timpal Princess.

Huh... It's ruined my future because I have to eat vegetables, which is a food that I really don't like, why should I eat vegetables? I'm not a rabbit and I don't know how many millimeters of water I'll gulp in later.

A few minutes later everything was done with their meals while I was still wrestling with my own food, when all was gone I looked back to see if everything was gone and it was true that everyone was gone.

Without the ba-bi-bu I immediately walked towards the closet and prepared to throw away my food, but before that there was a hand that grasped my hand reflexes I immediately glanced towards the hand that held me.

And it turns out that guy is...

"You want to be a vegetable, to be thrown away..?" he asked, I felt a moment of my own excitement.

"Don't throw away the redundant to eat, will stay a little more" he said again.

I exhaled violently and then walked lazily towards the chair I was in, come on no one understood my suffering, I thought.

"Let's go." he said again, while I just fell silent and looked at my food.

Seeing me continue like that, he finally sat his butt in the empty seat next to me after that he took my plate and started scooping my food.

"Come on, say A!" he said with his mouth open wide enough, at that moment I immediately frowned while holding my lips to not laugh.

"Why? Come on, say A!" slowly I opened my mouth and he started to feed me.

Do you know who bribed me? He is the one I secretly like, he is the one who has been in my prayers lately, in my prayer I always asked that he could one day be someone who would accompany the rest of my life, but now I know that my prayer will never be fulfilled even at any time.

If we hadn't met maybe I wouldn't have pretended to look okay like this, if I hadn't felt for you in the past I wouldn't have felt this kind of pain.

"Z.Y..!" call him, as soon as I woke up from my daydream.

"You why? How daydreaming?!" tanya, hearing that I just shook my head a few times.

"This is the rest of one more mouthful." I was stunned because it felt like I had just eaten it why now there is only one more mouthful.

I opened my mouth and Rido began to bribe me again, after which he got up from his place and put my old plate in the closet after which he walked over to me and rubbed my head.

"Don't eat vegetables" the cheese at a glance.

"The base is spoiled" he said, after which he immediately held back a laugh and then passed away leaving me alone.

Really I started to wonder if I could erase that feeling? Am I able to assume that feeling is just the wind? If I could, then I want that feeling to die right now.

Although I always reassured myself that he was now my brother but still my feelings could never lie, never could.

Seriate...

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