Suddenly a Husband
Goodbye to Yohana!

The day Ami mentioned arrived as well. The day that Yohana and Alif will fly to Sumatra, then get married there. I was surprised to think he was getting married a second time. Are we really not going to fight?

"Ahhh, what do I care about all that!" I turned back, busying myself with comics that had long been purchased but had not been read. Unfortunately, instead of dissolving with reading, I thought of Johana.

At that time, we had just become High School students.the first time we felt that in fact we both liked each other but only revealed at that time. Although there was a pounding and had the opportunity to be together, but we always chose to keep our distance so as not to let go so as to make Abah suspicious. Even so we feel very happy.

We also want to keep ourselves together so that later after halal can celebrate the victory because it managed to keep itself when other friends can be free to date, he said, walk together or watch like other young people. It feels better to enjoy something halal.

Unfortunately, just as we masked each other's feelings, Abah was eventually caught out as well. Abah accidentally found a link book between us caused by my carelessness, and read it. Abah went up, almost stopped us from going to school but fortunately Abah still followed mother's input until we were allowed to take the graduation exam. Once officially graduated, Abah immediately ordered bang Sigit to marry Yohana. The reason Abah, bang Sigit already have a job, while I am only a high school graduate who does not know his future.

My wish to be with Johana was dashed after bang Sigit said the ijab and the judge represented the answer to Qabul. I have lost Yohana forever. Such great feelings of love for her had disappeared, changing with hatred and resentment. Even I really don't want to see it. When the departure of bang Sigit forever reunited us in the living room of the house. He was still sitting pensively in front of the corpse, I was sitting in front of him. We don't see each other, we don't talk to each other. We are both saddened to lose a family member.

Some time ago, after three months of the departure of bang Sigit, my mother offered that I be the husband of Yohana, replacing my brother, for Alif. I don't want to but I don't refuse because I honestly don't know how I feel about him right now. All I know is, I hate her because that's the only feeling I've nurtured for her.

Eight o'clock and fifteen, I immediately ran out, took the keys and pushed them as fast as I could. I don't want to know what's going on in my mind, nor do I want to know how I feel about Yohana right now, all I want to do is see her, whether this is our last meeting, which I obviously want to see, seeing the people I hate the most on this earth.

Damn, the streets of South Jakarta this morning are quite crowded, I did not stop klakson, hope they move aside but I can even make a mockery of other road residents.

"Prophe dong, I want to ma-ja Lo!" maki is one of the angkot drivers that I pepet. I don't care, keep driving between the jams. Where there's a chance to overtake, then I'll go in.

Because the road was still jammed, I decided to go through the rat road. Try as much as I can. Along with that, my HP kept ringing. Apparently Ami who called, told me that Yohana had left for the airport.

"Damn it, really shit!" I almost wanted to cry. Feeling like you have no chance to catch up to Yohana.

[Bang, try chasing Yohana to the airport, who knows. On departure yes. This was probably the last time I could meet him. Brother Yohana left not to take Alif, he went home with his uncle and aunt, less likely to be able to meet again.] Ami explains the departure terminal of Yohana.

Feeling the opportunity even though it was very small, I immediately turned the direction to the airport. Trying to break the traffic jam of Jakarta. This old bike I really rely on. At that time, I could only go to God. If indeed Yohana and I still have a mate, we will meet, whatever the way.

"Han, I don't know how I feel right now for you, but obviously, I can't lie to myself, even though I hate you so much, but right now I want to meet you. I need you, amidst the many troubles that have befallen me, I want to see your face once again for my heart to calm down. Please let go of our past." I slipped a prayer between remembrances on the way to the airport.

"Yohana, where are you?" I continued to sneak among the crowd of people who were passing by and were about to depart. I regret not asking for Yohana's number from Ami so now I have trouble finding her whereabouts. While completely desperate, suddenly someone called my name.

"Ben?" the voice of someone who for some reason was now someone I really missed.

"Han," as I turned around, Yohana was already standing a few meters away from me. "Dam ... Yohana!" I said, I walked closer.

"You're coming Ben?" He looked at me full of haru.

"Yes. I want to meet you ... was this the last time we met?"

"I'll marry Ben,"

"Yes, I already know. Ami told me."

"I'm sorry, Ben, I can't turn it down because I don't dare to hope for you anymore, I've let you down. I'm sorry Ben." said Yohana.

"Yohana!" one of the relatives who picked up Yohana called out to her. "Let's go."

"Yes uncle, just a minute." Yohana. "Ben, I'm sorry, if this is our last meeting, I ask for your sincerity for what has happened in the past. Believe me, I don't want to betray you Ben, but circumstances are not possible, making me unable to refuse Abah and Mommy's request. I'm sorry Ben, I hope you will understand and forgive me." Pinta Yohana's.

At that moment, the great hatred for Johana was gone. Replacing with fear. Fear of losing it a second time. But it's too late, I've already rejected Yohana and now have to feel the loss for a second time. That's why regrets always come later. Regretting has made a decision when in an emotional state, but it is most prohibited because usually the decision taken in a state of anger is an unwise decision because it puts forward the ego only.

"Han, I pray ... May you be happy. You can be with someone who loves you and you love him." I said.

Yohana nodded, she shed tears. We end this conversation because it is not good to continue. Yohana is currently already attracted by people, abstaining from saying love to women who have been proposed by people.