Suddenly a Husband
First Year of Marriage

When our economy was still unstable, Genta offered me to work at his legal aid agency. Indeed, now his office is growing rapidly, his client is a lot of it. after successfully winning big cases then his name is getting up. at the same time, he said, om Bili also offered that I would become a legal consultant for a state company led directly by his sister om Bili. Apparently he wanted to prepare a replacement for his sister. The offers are like finding water in the desert. I need income but can't give up on this Sanjai effort.

To decide, I discussed with Yohana. We examine the positive and negative sides. Until finally the decision was made that I would take his father Reni's offer. Because to join Genta's office, I had to go to advocacy college first and that means I need funding out too. Sanjai will be taken care of by Ami and Yohana. I will help in my spare time.

"You don't worry baby, we'll also fight for this sanjai in order to get back to achieving high turnover as early as pioneered." promised Yohana. "You have to concentrate and work!" he peeped my cheek.

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For almost a year now; johana and I worked hard. Ami also helped on the sidelines of his busy work in college. As a result of my mother's hard work, I was eventually made head of the section. Trusted directly to take to the field to do coaching on the community. Even om Bili promising if my career continues to rise or at least stable then within five years later can be appointed as his head in place of the old leader. Of course this is an encouragement for me. I finally found a way also for my career, although initially helped by Bili.

Meanwhile, Yohana, he also managed to increase our sanjai efforts. He continues to innovate so that our products become recommended for souvenirs from West Sumatra. Yohana now does not work alone, he has been able to hire ten employees for the production, marketing and of course logistics. To support Yohana's efforts, I now buy our neighbor's house. My parents' house was renovated. We expand so that the production site is wider so that it can produce many works.

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This weekend I was deliberately not going anywhere, busy with my office business. There will be a promotion in a few months. Like the instructions from Bili, I have to improve my work performance. Meanwhile, today's sanjai production is also closed because Ami and Yohana are visiting Lila's house. They said they wanted to do it, and they wanted to talk about Fuji and Genta's wedding preparations.

Not an hour before they left, Joanna was home. He came back alone. Yohana's face looked grim. He said hello and then went to the room. I who felt that Yohana's strange attitude immediately followed her to the room.

"Why you, baby? Is there a problem? Why are you crying all of a sudden?" my question, while gently rubbing his head. Trying to calm her down so she doesn't cry anymore. "Where ami? Why did you go home alone? You guys aren't fighting, are you?" my many. He meant to open his mouth because I knew Yohana and Ami couldn't fight. They really love each other. A very close relationship between brothers-in-law.

"Ami's still at Lila's house, they're going to the fabric store to accompany Fuji to buy a wedding dress." Yohana.

"Lho, why don't you come? Are they not talking to you so you cry? Rightly so? If so, I will scold Ami and Fuji. How dare they leave my beautiful wife to tears."

"Why then, baby?"

For a moment Yohana was silent. He seemed to be breathing out, regulating his emotions. "Mr Lila's pregnant." He said, in a very slow voice, barely audible.

"Pregnant? Oh, thank God then. Means Alif will have a sister. Isn't that good news, then why cry baby? Yes natural tho mbak Lila want to have another baby, it is halal same mas Yanuar." I said, embracing Yohana.

"Yes ...." It was kind of screaming. "Not that problem. But are we the first to get married, then why is it that Lila is pregnant first? It should be .. me," he said in a very slow voice.

Now it's my turn to be quiet. Also true. We were the ones who got married first but why were they the ones who were given children first. But suddenly I remembered, whose name the child was the prerogative of God, so yes we can only try, pray and surrender. Because there is no rule who goes first then he will get first. I reminded Yohana of that. Also about wisdom has not had offspring even though I actually thought. One of our goals is to get married to get offspring and actually I really want to have children soon. Just imagine that it feels very nice, especially if God really believes we have children who look like me or Yohana.

Suddenly my lips reflexively smiled at the tiny baby present in our little family. The baby will be the source of your happiness, as well as the spirit to keep trying and change for the better. God ... wants to have children. I screamed in my heart.

"God may be planning something for us. For example, God knows we are busy with work. Maybe we'll be given time to finish this. Or God feels now is not the right time, so just wait. I don't know what the reason is, that's the best. So do not be discouraged, especially until sad because others get the favor of offspring. To me, we've become husband and wife already very grateful."

"Otherwise plus having kids, right?"

I'm back in silence. Trying to choose the right word. Problems like this are very sensitive. That's what I know from the experiences of the people I know. People who are newly married, before having offspring will be eager to wait for God to leave a child. Many were told to wait for years. "Honey, you know, right, God will definitely give us offspring at the right time. Just follow that. You have to enjoy doing this because if you are stressed it will be difficult to have offspring." I said

"But" he's still very upset. It seems right that it has not been sincere with this fact. He wanted to have it soon, but realized his weakness. As a creature can only wait for when God gives.

"Already, there's no but-but. Now just rest. Don't think of anything!" My love for him. Yohana, according to her, passed into the room. After that I thought. Son, yes, I want it too.