Suddenly a Husband
Angrier

I ran the old bike at high speed. There's a lot of anger in this chest and I can't take it anymore. I had to take it out because I thought only in this way could the torment in this chest stop. At the funeral, I jumped off the bike. No matter the motor until it falls because the standard does not really stand perfectly. Half-run I headed to eat mother, Abah and bang Sigit.

"You guys really are. I don't care about sins. I'm even very angry at the moment. Yohana ... what's wrong with our family? There's none. He was just unlucky to be raised as an adopted child, oh no, he meant to be a free maid. After all the good he did but here's the reward you gave. You guys will ruin his life to the end. He really suffered it!" I shouted in front of the graves of my parents and brother. I don't care if it's so disrespectful because my mind is really messed up. All I have in mind is to vent everything by cursing directly in front of the perpetrators, which is in front of their graves.

"You know how much she hopes to have children. It's huge, but here's the payoff. You guys!" My cry is now added to the cry.

"Mother, Abah, bang .. forget about my happiness, it's about Johana only. Why, why should he? You guys are really evil. Even the devil is not. But why do you guys have heart? Why?"

"Now what should I do? I'm really ashamed of him. Even to see it, I couldn't. I can't bear to see him suffer. Why are you so hearty? If you want to destroy the lives of others, just destroy the lives of your children. There's still me and Ami, why don't we just so you guys can easily get sorry. But why must an orphan who for his entire life can not feel happiness. Why?"

Now, I squeak, I really tremble at the thought of mother's evil. The woman who was raised with affection turned out to be cold-hearted. Tega ruined Yohana's life!

"Mother is even more evil than Abah. Mother is more cruel, mother is more unjust! You also bang. Your sins, why should Johana bear them. Why, bang? You are a man, the problems you create yourself should be your responsibility. Not hands like this. Your coward, bang! Die in hell!"

"Yyyyyyyyyyy ... Why?" I roared, crying so much. No matter what around me. One side is so angry, wants to curse even harder, but one side can't because they are my beloved family. They are gone anyway, I cannot sue them here, but I cannot sue them in the hereafter.

"I will bear all this pain myself. Hopefully that way, Yohana can forgive me." I said. While wiping away the remaining tears.

"Mother, Abah, bang .... Ii'm sorry. Excuse me. I really love you so much, so I'm very disappointed with the reality you've done. I really can't think straight. I'm very disappointed. I was afraid to imagine all this. I'm ...." There are no more words I can say. Only disappointment is felt. "I'm sorry I've been cursing. May you calm down there. I can't bear when you have to go to hell." I said.

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"Tell me what I must do to atone for all these sins. Should I release you? Whatever you want, I'll give it to you, Han. This house, all the treasures of Abah and Mommy, even my income, I will deposit them all for you. Please ask for anything, Han. I'll give you to make amends for all your mistakes, mother, bang Sigit, my family. Say Han." I asked Yohana, kneeling before her. "Han, speak. Even if you ask to separate, I'll give you the freedom you want." Instead of answering, Yohana cried. "Han, I'm sorry, but please don't cry like that." My love, while slowly pulling Yohana's hand that covers her face. "I realize, our mistakes have been too much, even I'm ashamed Han has to deal with you like this. I no longer have pride. I'm devastated Han knows everything."

"Then you want to divorce me? After knowing how I am? That I won't be able to give you offspring? Right Ben? You think I'm happy then? Even if you give me everything in this world, it won't affect Ben. I don't need any of that, I just need you, Ben. Don't divorce me. I beg. Stay alive with me. Forgive me for my shortcomings, Ben. Please accept me, have mercy on me "

"Han," seeing Yohana preparing to kneel before me, I immediately got up, lifted her up again. We both cried in arms. "I don't mean to throw you away, it's me who is this despicable to feel unworthy of you, Han. Your heart is so good, you don't even hate me and my family. You forgive us. That attitude of yours really made me feel even more despicable. I'm so low, Han. We're sinners, what's worth living with a good-hearted woman like you "

"If you avoid me, throw me away, my life will be ruined, Ben. I can take any kind of test as long as it's on your side." Yohana. "Darling, whatever past mistakes, I've made them. I have forgiven Mother, Abah and bang Sigit. To me, they are not only my parents-in-law but also my parents. They made me meet you. Those who gave birth to and raised my husband, then how could I possibly hate them for giving half my soul to me."

"Han, O Allah .. how can I get a soul mate as good as you. I'm really lucky Han." I said, grabbing it in my arms. "God is really nice to me, Han. I feel like I am the most blessed human being in his life. I'm not good at getting a girl like you. Such a great fortune. Thank God, thank you Han!"

"I'm so dear. I'm happy because you want to support me even if I have a lot of flaws." Connect Yohana.

Rabb, I promise to take care of this woman, to love her, to accompany her until the end of my life. I'm not gonna make him seidh, disappointed even died himself. I really promise I won't waste it. This is all I can do to make amends for her family.

Today, we both agreed to end this matter. We'll never mention a child's problem again. We will accept with grace the decree of God that Joanna will never be able to have children.