Suddenly a Husband
Fill the Heart of Mother

After Isya's prayer, my mother went into my room. Of course after Abah came out to fill out the study. Sometimes I wonder at Abah, what her heart is made of. He really is like a dictator. After being satisfied to physically and mentally hurt his son and wife, when outside, he will be mediocre. As if nothing happened. So sometimes the idea came to my mind to unmask Abah in front of his worshipers, as Abah had feared so far.

"You how? Must be sick, Ben?" mother who had brought a towel, warm water and medicine immediately compressed the bruises on my face. "I'm sorry mom, Ben." Mother said again, while rubbing the mark of Abah's fist that was quite painful. "When did you marry her?"

"Get up later, Bun." My answer.

"Well, Ben, even if your marriage is just a formality, still appreciate her being your wife. Mommy doesn't want what Abah did to your wife."

I laugh. "Do I have any resemblance to Abah, Bun?" my many.

"No. Don't get it either. Mother doesn't want you to follow your brother's character, Ben."

"InshaAllah is not, Bun. I'll be gentle with women."

"But still you have to promise, Ben. So you don't look like Sigit."

"Bang Sigit ... Yihana?"

Mother silence. I clenched my hands, it turns out that besides the mind, you are also physically tormented, Hana. I regret everything. Really sorry.

"Later, after the paperwork is done, Ben will look for Yohana" I said.

"Really, Ben?" mother became excited. He looked at me expectantly. "Alhamdulillah, mother support Ben. Mother will prepare everything, including the cost you look for it. Somehow Mother is so sure our family is still dating her."

"Yes Bun," I don't dare to expect much. Just wanted to meet and say sorry for letting her suffer. It means I'm the one who doesn't keep my word. I'm the one who didn't take care of him. He's not the one who's ignorant. I don't know what's really going on, he's just trying to help this family even though I'm pretty sure he did it because he had to.

"Ben, you want to separate from Abah. What do you think?" said mother again

"If it's your choice, I support it."

"Mother will leave this house. Ami said he would join the mother, as well as Alif, not possible to stay here because it is still in the care of the mother. You, how? Want to come with you too or here with Abah?"

"I'll probably be back, Bun. I want to start working again while I finish college. It's the last year, if you don't graduate, you can do it."

"Yes, seriously, Ben. If the cost problem, you still have a little savings. Later, after separating from Abah, the mother also wants to sell small cakes. Hopefully some extra money comes in. If you still need, just say the same mother. If part-time work interferes with your college, do not work first. Just focus on college, Ben. For the cost let me try."

"Alhamdulillah, mother pray that your lecture will be smooth, Ben."

"Aamiinu. Thanks Bun." The conversation between me and my mother may sound stiff, but it means a lot to me. A conversation I miss so much, for six years I never had.

"Oh, Ben, what will your wife do?"

"We split up the house, Bun. Reni will stay with her family because this marriage is only limited to legal ties to fulfill the requirements of her son Reni's documents later." I told briefly how the disaster that befell Reni. Everything happens there is also a fault of mine.

"When, meet Reni and Ben. Poor him. It must have suffered a lot, but she's a great woman. Your decision is right, Ben. Mother supports her."

"Yes Bun, Reni must also be happy to meet Mother. My mother will come to my wedding ceremony. Not for long because the show is just a deal."

"Surely Ben, you will come" said the mother.before leaving my room, Mother again expressed her apology for ever ignoring me. Mother regrets everything.. He actually did not want to do all that, but had no other choice because he was afraid to be humbled by Abah.

It is still not too late to repair this relationship even though it is actually quite heavy because the problem is quite complex. But I have chosen to recapitulate the past, forgive mother because understanding her position is not easy.

***

The next day, accompanied by Ami and Alif, the mother went to the religious court to make a lawsuit. Mother chose not to write down the problems of the KDRt experienced and other bad qualities of Abah because the mother still maintains the honor of Abah. According to the mother, if all is listed then the image of Abah as a preacher will be destroyed. The people will not be sympathetic anymore, maybe even the worshippers will leave Abah. Mother is worried that it will be a blow to Abah later. Leaving Abah has produced sadness, mother does not want to add the burden of Abah later.

Hearing that I can only hold haru, in such conditions mother still think about how Abah in the future. If Abah wants to change his character, then this does not need to happen..Abah and Mommy can spend their old age together.

But after listening to my mother's story last night about Abah's past and her inner wounds makes me a bit pessimistic because it's been decades and it seems like Abah doesn't have the awareness to fix it. Though the mother once invited Abah to the Consul to the psychologist, there Abah beat the mother all out. Even his character is getting worse. So the mother stopped inviting Abah and chose to accept everything until finally her patience was exhausted because unknowingly the bad attitude Abah began to spread to the mother. Yohana and I were the two victims. But thank goodness now you are aware.

Along with the departure of the mother, I also had to go out to take care of many things. Meet Reni to finish the preparation for marriage which although only a contract but quite long business, take care of the lecture that had been neglected, but, looking for new costs that are sloping in price and of course looking for a new job that within one week I have to get because my money is running low.

"Why are you, Ben?" Reni was so worried about seeing bruises on my face and arms.

"Obviously, Abah's been thumped." I answered lightly because this was not the first time so I was unwittingly used to it.

"Astagfirullah, until this? Once upon a time Abah you. Uh, sorry Ben, I mean .. yeah shouldn't his son be beaten like this. What's the matter, Ben?"

"I just asked for permission to marry, Abah thought I was doing nothing for you, when it was not "I chuckled, while Reni changed heartily.