Suddenly a Husband
Rise up Johana

We have to go back today. Yohana looks the toughest, but I've assured that the parlour will be open and always tell us whatever the development. Also Mr. Rizal who has promised to help find Upik and Puti. He will put all his energy into finding the children.

But still, along the way, Yohana can only be pensive, sometimes her tears spill. We really didn't say a word. I just hugged, sometimes clasped her hand tightly as she came back fragile.

Arriving at Depok, Yohana went straight into the room. He lay down all day. Rise only for prayer. He even ate. Fortunately Ami was on standby to accompany me when I had to share my thoughts with work. We were both trying to strengthen the devastated Johana.

"Bang, we have to take Brother Yohana to the hospital. Body's hot. I checked the temperature was thirty-nine. I'm worried he's okay." Ami said as she exited the room of Yohana.

"Fever? It was still okay." I who was anxious immediately followed to the room and sure enough, there Yohana was closed, her body was hot, her breathing was heavy, she called Upik and Puti in a very weak voice, he called out to her, if the ear is not close to the mouth, it will not be heard.

"He really suffered the loss of those children" Ami said.

"Yes, know for yourself how Yohana is if it's dear. Moreover, the children's fate is not much different from him. Maybe Hana sees them like her. His mother and father did not care about them. Yohana has lost her parents since she was a baby.

Rushing, Ami and I took Yohana to the hospital. He is now unconscious. I am increasingly worried about his condition. My hand never took off holding her hand so hot. We had been in the hospital for two hours, he was still unconscious, so I decided to take care of him. I don't want him to be okay.

"Well, where did the kids go? Time cannot be traced? Unless they're kidnapped or ..." Ami hung up her words. "Last you guys talk, all right, right? If there is no problem with the home, do they deliberately go to look for Brother and sister Yohana?" Ami staring.

I recalled the conversation three months ago, the last time the kids talked to me was because Yohana was not well. He was exhausted after passing a medical examination. Yohana could not get out of bed for a week. Just lying. At that time, Upik and Puti expressed their desire to talk to Yohana. I purposely restricted Yohana to rest first. But there's nothing strange. The children did not sound angry either, they accepted just talking to me. It seems that there is no way they will come here. From Sumatra to the island of Java it is quite far away. Riding a plane will not be possible if there are no adults accompanying. While riding a land vehicle, they need money that is not small. During this time the children never hold money, all their needs we entrust to the mother of the head of the home.

"It seems unlikely they're here. They're still kids, Mi."

"It could be, bang. They don't want to live locked up in a home. As the saying goes, the fruit falls not far from the tree. Brother and sister Hana will know how their parents, they could have deliberately run away because of bored life arranged. They want to be free, or they want to live like before. There's no need for rules, no need for school, no one to monitor."

"Mi, you're too delusional. Those kids aren't who you think they are. They're good kids. No, don't talk like that anymore, if Hana hears she's going to be so sad that Yohana loves them so much." I said, closing the conversation with Ami because she did not want to one day return to discuss it in front of Yohana.

Yohana's week in the hospital. He finally came back today. His condition was really sad, in addition to his face getting sadder, he also looked thinner. I really can't stand to see it that way.

"Please baby, don't ruin your own life. They are our responsibility, but they are all in God's power. We have done various ways to find it, but the results are still nil. So please accept that fact, be heartened. You have done your best for them, if we lose it, it is beyond our control. Such is the proof of the weakness of humans, Han, even to take care of them they can't. Only God is the best keeper. Now leave everything to God, Han. Please rise. I still need you!" My beloved who could not bear to see the miserable Johana.

"I'm sorry my husband, but I'm so guilty of making those kids go missing. I feel very sinful. I can't take it all." said Yohana in tears.

"So you're going to negate God, Han? Do you want to deny that all is His decree? Han, don't waste your life like this. Trust in God. If we are still in a match, sooner or later we will meet them. You believe me, don't you, baby? Give up his oada too. He's the best keeper." My love.

I know, it's hard for Yohana to do everything. But that's all we can do now. The search in Sumatra is still carried out, but until now there have been no results.

"I wish they could be our children, and their laughter and babbling would be a bully in this house. Unfortunately, my hope seems unfulfilled. I lost them, before I could even say I wanted to be their mother." Joanna covered her face with both hands. Desire to have children, apparently also a reason why he wanted to meet Upik and Puti.

I immediately pulled Yohana in my arms, whispering to her that the child was God's absolute right. Whatever we make the best plan, if God is not pleased, we will not have it.

"I feel so sad, baby. Our homes should be warm with the laughter and tugs of our children. But God didn't give me any offspring. In fact, even when I wanted to raise Upik and Puti, God wouldn't allow it." Yohana. "So many of my shortcomings, are you going to leave me?"

"No dear, even if I die, you are the only woman I love and my companion." I told him.

"But I want to have children, baby." Yohana. He welcomes.

Children, it is sometimes the reason for the happiness of a household. I was actually expecting to have offspring, children who looked like Johana. But if God intended not to have children, I accept it with a spacious chest. There is no desire to be double let alone leave Johana. I have fought so far, happiness can be with Yohana will not be reduced even without a child.