Suddenly a Husband
First Day After Mother's Departure

After twenty-four hours of wakefulness, these eyes could finally be closed as well. But suddenly woke up to the sound of Abah screaming. The screams were quite deafening followed by the sound of Ami and the cry of Alif. Something bad must be happening, I immediately got up with eyes still five Watt, while walking, the whole body feels pain, like a crumpled bone. It is so that will also feel if abandoned by parents who love us very much.

Arriving in the living room, I saw Abah angry at Ami, he forced my sister to call Mother, prepare her breakfast and coffee. Indeed, every morning it is a routine that has never been abandoned by the mother, even when she was sick yesterday also the mother always did it. Serving Abah as much as possible messu Abah treatment is still often bad on mother

Ami had explained to Abah that the mother was gone. Yesterday we just buried him, but hearing that, Abah did not accept instead berating Ami until there were ripples that made Alif afraid.

"Mi, already, let Brother do the talking. You bring Alif inside." I said. Then invite Abah who is still enveloped in emotion to sit down. I have been taught, if you are angry and your position stands, then sit down, if you have not lost your emotions then ablaze or lie down. "Well, I'm sorry, you can't prepare Abah's breakfast yet, Abah had breakfast with Ben. Rice is the same coffee already there." I said, while presenting a tray of food and a glass of coffee made by Ami. The smoke billows, the distinctive aroma of Lampung coffee is smelled into the nose.

"Where's your mom? He had dared to crawl without my permission. This must be because he likes to participate in other ustadz studies besides me, finally he became wild and arranged. I really didn't think about him. I have taught well but still defiantly, so his children also become irregular. Sigit went wild too, Ami became a contender and you're Ben, when are you going to graduate? I'm really ashamed of you, Ben!" Now Abah is turning to me.

But I let Abah throw all her anger and frustration at me instead of Abah cursing my dead mother, I nodded, confirming Abah's accusation. Sometimes I even apologize for disappointing him. I do suck. It feels so sorry. Although Abah is not a perfect father and often even makes me hurt, but he is still my father who I must treat well. I don't feel tears coming. I looked down, sobbing with regret.

I always felt like I was wronged by my parents, but I unconsciously did the same to them. I was disobedient, often cursing, ignoring what they said and rarely did these two hands look up, asking God, prayers for Abah and Mother. God is the One who turns the hearts of men upside down. Can do without him.

"Eh uh, why are you crying?" suddenly Abah pulled my shoulder, my crying became more and more. "Ben, are you crying? Beni! Uh, you're a boy. Yes, you often upset Abah, but you are also the son of Abah who loves. You also made Abah happy. You are not wrong much. Just a little and now Abah has forgiven you. So don't cry!" abah said, he forced me to raise my head.

"Did Abah forgive me?" my question, with a hoarse voice.

"Yes, Abah has forgiven you. Even according to Abah you are much better than other children. You are Abah's favorite. But don't tell Sigit and Ami yes" Abah said in a whisper. "If they hear later they are jealous. Yesterday Abah lied to Sigit and Ami, Abah said that they are Abah's favorite, even though you are Abah's most dear."

"Yes bah. Ben won't tell anyone."

"Now let's wipe away your tears. Abah's boys cry. Later when you grow up, you will be the future to replace Abah, when the study later Abah will announce to the worshipers Abah, you will ride the pulpit equally abah ya."

"Yes, bah."

"That's so dong. Must be passionate and obedient equally. So you can be a big ustadz. Now let's eat, Abah is hungry. Later Abah invite you to study at the Great Mosque. There are many snakes there. The envelope will be for you too..But don't tell your brother. We leave in secret. Your brother Sigit, also likes to be given an envelope, he said for snacks at school, but you want him to buy a book to read. He is still a very shallow science. Abah was very upset with her "

Abah patted me gently on the shoulder while bribing food into his mouth. I feel my eyes warm again, but I can't help but let no tears fall. I don't want to ruin this happy moment.

After accompanying Abah to eat, I did not forget to give the medicine to Abah. At first Abah refused because he felt no pain, but I said it was a vitamin so that Abah was strong for Da'wah safari so he immediately drank it. Abah does still have to routinely take medication so that emotions are stable and no longer hallucinate. Although the current condition of Abah is quite alarming because it often forgets what happened before, Abah who still thinks the mother and bang Sigit still exist and still think it is ustad who still fill the study.

"Now Abah rest yes, later after waking up we go to the Great Mosque." I said, while guiding Abah to the room.

"Cie who was happy in the hug." suddenly Ami appeared from behind the kitchen door as I exited Abah's room.

"What the hell?" I pretended to be a bitch.

"Ciee Abang, now Abah's favorite child! Cie is crying in the puk puk Abah." Ami laughs loose. I shook his head slowly, he pretended to be in pain, but I ignored him. "Well, I'll throw it to Abah. His favorite son is naughty."

"Sana stir." I said.

We both threw ridicule at each other. He kept making fun of me, while I countered with another mockery. Laughter we let go until finally we realized that times like this had happened, but not long because Abah is very authoritarian.

"kangen mother, bang Sigit and sister Yohana" said Ami.

"Yes." I said.

"Are we going to see Brother Johana again?" ask Ami.

"Of course, it's up to God."

"Bang, look for Brother Yohana."

"Yes." I said. I'll definitely look for Yohana.