The Passion of the Segara
Eps. #33 Is Considered Dead

Arkha POV

Tonight, Pearl and I are lying on the bed. The pearl was already asleep in my arms, but I myself could not close my eyes.

It has been a day since my memory returned, until now I still keep everything secret from Pearl and Mr. Imran.

After my memory came back, I felt like I had just woken up from a very long dream, a dream that was very difficult for me to understand and when I realized the reality was very much different. Right now, I feel like I'm in a dilemma, whether I should stay here to be a Segara or go back to the city and become an Arkha.

Although I already remembered that I was actually Arkha, yet somehow at this moment I felt that I did not want to go back to my past.

My love for Pearl made me want to stay in this village, and as long as I'm here, I feel very happy even though my life is very simple.

It was very different from my previous life living in a big city and boasting treasures, but there I never felt the happiness I felt when I was here. This village is very peaceful. I have lived here for a year, and during that time there have also been so many beautiful memories that I went through with Pearl.

It was also that made me so afraid to tell Pearl everything, I was afraid that once she found out who I really was, Pearl would change her mind towards me.

I was also very confused as to how I should tell Pearl everything if I was actually married. Livina is my legal wife while Mutiara, she only knows me as a Segara, a person who was born with a new identity in this village because of her previous memory loss.

I rubbed my face violently, as if I could not believe what had happened in my life.

My mind kept glaring, could this be the destiny that God was observing for me? Who would have thought I'd be stranded on this island and meet Pearl here.

I kept trying to close my eyes, but for some reason now the shadow of Livina was present in my memory.

"Livina, how are you there?" I murmured in my heart.

Suddenly I miss Livina very much.

Do I still love Livina? I don't understand my own feelings

Back I remembered that Livina never loved me. After she thought I was dead, she must have forgotten me, and she might as well have married someone else by now.

I slowly leaned over my body, then I looked at the face of Pearl who was sleeping next to me while I gently rubbed her hair.

"I love you so much, Ra. I also know that you love me very much" I whispered in the ear of Pearl who was fast asleep and of course Pearl did not hear my voice.

"but, Livina is still my wife, how am I supposed to explain all this to you, baby?" I said again, but only in my heart.

I kissed Pearl's forehead and I realized more and more how much I loved her, it was only after my memory returned that I became so afraid of losing Pearl.

The innocence and simplicity of Pearl has also made me realize that money and possessions are not a measure of happiness for someone.

Pearls have taught me a lot about the true meaning of love, love cannot be bought with money. The care and affection that Pearl gave me was so sincere that it made me feel like I found my true love in Pearl.

Time goes on, the night is getting late.

Here I have a Pearl that loves me a lot and also Mr. Imran that I have considered like my own real father, I like to find my family here.

While there, I also have Mama Yuna, a mother who loves me very much and maybe at this time my mother is still very sad because of my loss.

Then Livina, is she thinking about me too? Before that incident, I was very suspicious that Livina had a relationship with Alfin, is it possible that Livina is currently married to Alfin?

Alfin, he's my best friend does he have the heart to do that? if he marries Livina, it means he stabbed me in the back!

I also remembered about my trusted assistant Genta, some time ago he had to lean his ship here because the ship engine was damaged.

At that time the crew also said that Alfin was their superior, it means that Alfin had been running my company. Though in my will, I wrote that the only one who had the right to run the company when I was gone was Livina.

What is it with them, is it true that they have another relationship behind my back?

Genta also seems to be very suspicious that I am Arkha. But why did he also look so sure when he said that Arkha was dead?

When I disappeared shouldn't they be looking for me, where did they find out that I was dead?

Surely they didn't find my body because I was alive and stranded on this island. Did they think my body had sunk to the bottom of the sea?

All sorts of questions popped into my mind, but surely they all thought Arkha was dead!

My mind kept spinning around trying to remember everything that happened and trying to deduce something, but the results were still nil, I still could not find the answer to all my questions myself.

"Why haven't you slept, Bang?"

The body of the Pearl wriggled, she woke up and it seemed like she realized that I had not been able to sleep at that time.

"No idea, honey. Suddenly my sleep is gone," I said.

"Are you thinking something, Bang?" ask again.

"Nothing, darling. I just can't sleep!" my answer gave a reason.

"It's late, Bang! you have to sleep, you can't stay up!" he said again while rubbing my cheek.

I looked at Pearl's face again, her eyes opened and she smiled sweetly at me.

Seeing that smile, I could not stand it, I immediately kissed her lips and the kiss grew deeper and deeper.

I'm so happy to have Pearl, I really don't want to lose this happiness with her.

I don't want to go back to town, just let me stay here as long as I can live happily ever after with Pearl.