Re:START/If {Book 1.0}
Chapter 5: Inanis (Part 01)
Odo awoke, opened his eyes and found himself lying face down looking at the blue sky that stretched out as if limited up there. He could not remember why he was there, but clearly knew where he was.
“This place ....? Am I dead again ...?”
He began to sit, hold his forehead for a moment and think. The place was so white, so exactly to the intersection of life and death. Realizing this, Odo stood up and looked around again, looking for the Goddess that he might meet in nature. But the Goddess did not exist, in such a vast and white expanse there was no one but her.
He looked up and closed his eyes, hoping it was just a dream and woke up. In Odo's heart very well know, when thrown a stone, though closing his eyes it will not be able to change the fact that it will be hit by a throw. The truth is, it will not change just by turning away.
“Ah, I've guessed this is not a dream .. I hope this is a dream,” he said while opening his eyes.
“Until when will you fall asleep, O me who will change everything,” the voice sounded suddenly.
Odo looked around, but he saw no one. When he was still confused, once the voice was heard, “You don't need to look for me. I am always near you, beside you, and inside you. I am you, O you who claim to be Odo.”
“Who ..?” asked Odo as he continued to look around, looking for the source of the voice.
“So yes, you still do not remember it. Up to that limit you ...”
The words made Odo remember what the Goddess had said that reincarnated her. Boundaries, the word was very stuck in Odo's mind.
“What are you Goddess of it?!”
“Goddess? Ah, you mean Helena? No, I'm not him. I told you, I'm you. Yeah, now maybe I'm something you call Auto Senses.”
“Magic improvement of those senses and instincts ...? Damn it, don't brag! How could you possibly be the magic I created! Answer me, who are you! Out here!”
“Hem, strangely. Though already aware that it is only a magic of increasing the senses and instincts, but why still do not want to realize it? Don't you wonder why you can have such an instinct, reflex or fighting style, naive me? Don't tell me you feel endowed with talent or something, you idiot.”
“Eh ...?” Odo was really surprised to be called that way. The voice, the nature and tone of his speech were indeed very precise with him, or rather the same as his thoughts.
“It's really funny, I didn't think I was this naive. HOW RIDICULOUS!”
“Damn it, a-what do you mean!?”
“Tak, whatever the hell. I'm like that, so there's nothing wrong with that. But ..., as long as you know .... If you really want to keep what's over your palm right now, open your eyes quickly. Remember who you are, you're not just a person who gets carried away, ‘kan? Remember your true origins .. before you became Odo, and after you became your foolish self.”
“What do you mean ...? It knows a⸻”
“I know! Even understand! Take it easy, don't worry about it, my self. It's just a Re. Until you truly rise, I will continue to exist and become a magic that you call Auto Senses .... So, at least now ... fast .. wake up ... dreamer ....”
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Odo really does not remember why he could be in that place, but after his consciousness returned within a few seconds the information from the magic Auto Senses sent all the information when he was unconscious.
Quickly, the information in the form of data on the results of movements carried out in Auto Senses is digested by Odo. The information was only in the form of memory of body movements and no visual information, but he immediately knew everything that had been done in Auto Senses mode.
“Hem, so yes .... In order to maintain life in a critical condition, I absorbed the Magic Core of that Giant Snake after removing it again from the Dimensional Cloak huh .... But, because after absorbing the magic core, my instincts went crazy and Auto Senses by itself activated thrower magic. Then, the result is yes ...”
Odo dropped the body from a three-meter-tall tree, then spun in the air and landed smoothly. But after both of his legs landed, he collapsed backwards and leaned against the tree, his body still not fully recovered.
“Tch, as severe as this yes ...? I slept all day again,” said Odo when he saw the sky that really looks reddish and moving at night. The sound of insects was not heard at the turn of Autumn to Cold, but instead the sound of the howls of wild animals was clearly heard. He again stood up with a limp body, then made sure the Dimensional Cloak worn was safe and checked the condition of the existing runes.
As he knew, the blackened rune to store the pieces of the Giftmelata corpse had turned back transparent, a mark nothing was stored in the space that existed on the Runes.
“Huh, even though the carcass can still be used, but instead left behind. I have to go back and take it again .... My instinct is ti⸻”
Odo immediately remembered the conversation when he was unconscious. Auto Senses, in that white place the voice called himself that way and he also claimed to be another Odo self.
“That time ..., was she really the personality that emerged from that magic? Really, am I so desperate that some sort of Alter Ego pops up?Not funny ..., although he feels friendly but it feels ..”
Odo was really shaking, he was completely confused and scared of what he called Auto Senses. Indeed, the one who created the magic and used it was He himself as the support and the last form of defense, but it should only be an Enhancement Magic.
“Don't say ..., the limit he calls it ... personality awareness limit? No, from the beginning of Magic It was indeed strange. Often active on my own, able to move my body forcibly and without my will, and most severe .. is the information he got more than the information obtained by me as a user. After all, is that really the Auto Senses I created? Why did she call the Goddess Helena? Is that his name? If the voice was really Auto Senses, why did he know his name?”
Odo thought and kept thinking, figuring out the identity of the voice claiming to be Auto Senses. After squeezing his mind to the limit of being able to use all the information available, a conclusion flashed through Odo's mind.
“Memory loss ...?” he said with a pale face. While sitting and leaning against the tree trunk, Odo again thought and muttered, “Should Auto Senses only have what information I have, just, it was impossible for him to know anything else because magic was a form of instinct and reflex that was on me whose movements were based on information or experience of mine .... Hem, so yes, the Goddess ... did she erase my memories while in that white place? Obviously ..., it feels like I'm no stranger to that place ...”
Odo broke out in cold sweat. He was really trembling in fear and questioning himself who was sitting right now whether or not he was really his true self. Removing Memory, from it also comes out a possibility of Memory Manipulation. That kind of thing is really scary, especially for Odo right now.
“Y-Yang is right ..., if I am not myself ... then, what am I? If I wasn't who I was then, I wouldn't be Odo Luke now either .... What the fuck, ken⸻”
He stopped thinking about it, strangely the anxious and indecisive race he felt a few seconds ago disappeared as if it were just an illusory dilemma. His mind was calm, as calm as a puddle of water without ripples in a lake.
“Ah .., indeed I am this stable .... I don't know why, this .. is too crazy. No, maybe I'm going crazy .... Damn, what kind of change is this ...”
At the same time, he began to recall memories he should not have in that white place. A memory in which he stood and stared blankly ahead, looking down at the burned-out world and accompanied by someone nearby.
He did not know exactly who was standing nearby, but recalled the moment without knowing why Odo was shedding tears. The feeling that made his heart ache suddenly stabbed, blinding him as if asphyxiated and crying.