Re:START/If {Book 1.0}
Epilogue Arc 02 “Regalia of Felixia: Antequam Aurora” (Part 01)

[A story of the memories captured from him, pieces from the Previous World. Memories that have existed before the World in which Odo lived were created]

“Humanity is able to realize what they want!”

Like the most powerful and noble figure in the world, they arrogantly declare it. Able to ⸻ In other words, humans have a strong will to achieve something they yearn for in life.

Although throughout life can not fulfill what you want to achieve, humans can pass it down to the next generation.

Taking the example of history, Socrates lowered his thinking to Plato, and the Greek philosopher and mathematician became a role model for many researchers in the future. The thought of the ancestors was passed down to their grandchildren and great-grandchildren, underwent changes and continued to evolve in every age.

Like a fire of hope, science and understanding are entrusted to many to shine the light on the world. As long as humanity is still there, it will continue and lead them to the right path.

However, there are times when the cycle of the development of science is hampered and eventually stopped. A fear of knowledge, terror when they discover new things and cannot understand them brings humanity to a standstill.

In psychology, there are generally three normal things that make living things feel afraid. First is the fear of being hurt, this is natural because indeed every living thing that can feel pain to avoid it. The second is the fear of death, the end of every living being.

Whether it's a puritan who is willing to give up everything or someone who has given up on the world though, the fear of dying in plain sight is inevitable because it is one part of the human soul itself. The source of the fear of death is pain, the first fear of man.

Then, the last cause of fear is fear of the unknown. This is the most basic of all fears, ignorance.

When faced with death, people wonder what will happen after they die. They won't know it, which is why they're afraid. To overcome this fear, a belief arises and an understanding of the existence of the world after death or reincarnation arises.

Almost at the same time, the scientific approach to uncovering God began at that very moment. Not to quarrel, but to lead humanity to a better place.

There are times when human thoughts become arrogant, then there are times when they are more resigned to the creator. It just depends on how the conditions in their environment affect, that's how humans are.

In the early 17th century, belief in God was dominant in mainland Europe. More than a thousand years since the Son of Man descended, many people have forgotten his teachings. At that time, slowly and surely the puritans were dominating.

Then, in the end they began to influence the government and give Mankind another hope for their fear of the unknown. Art from the past is resurrected, then later in the future the era is called the Renaissance.

Miracles, Magic, and even Miracles ⸻ Those who are lazy and give up thinking classify the things that cannot be understood without trying to uncover the truth. For nearly three more centuries, when Belief ruled the order of government, Science and the Arts suffered a rapid decline. It took place between the 14th and 17th centuries.

Not much knowledge was lost at the time. But in science, no development has become a major setback for mankind.

“Man should have a free mindset! Science never contradicts Belief!” that is the message that the struggle of Galileo Galilei, a medical student in the 15th century who studied astronomy and mathematics.

Although since time immemorial many suggest that the Sun is the center of the solar system, but at that time even understand the earth is the center of the universe is more dominant. Because of the influence of the church that emphasizes it, the community considers it is true and understand the other is lost.

Galileo also fared similarly to other holders of understanding. Then, in the end, Galileo who supported the theory of Nicolaus Copernicus in understanding it ended up having to be limited in his research and ended up being resistant to the house.

In the early 16th century, Galileo perfected the telescope with two Lippershey lenses. A few hundred in the future, the discovery will be the forerunner of modern binoculars that can even see hundreds of light-years from Earth.

That is the true power of man, they can pass the effort on to the next generation. Although the child or brother does not want to do this, others who are not even familiar with him will continue the will of the originator.

Compete with each other, fight over patents, race in limited time and funds, even risking their self-esteem and lives in research. Those who want to fly like birds and be laughed at for their efforts, in the future will produce results more real and more useful than those who laugh at them.

Since long ago until now, people who can achieve something are parents with their wise thinking that does not throw away childish nature. They continue to dream, obsession continues to exist in themselves and not weathered in the word surrender.

Most young children when asked about ideals will surely answer with pride and choose the thing they think is the greatest. Pilots, doctors, presidents, rulers, artists, artists and many other things. But as they mature, the dream will slowly be forgotten and they will convince themselves with a sentence ….

“This is me. Look ahead and this is the world I live in. This is the reality that exists. What can I do now?”

Then, they will wake up from their dreams and become adults. Living in society, like a bird whose wings are broken they walk on the ground and peck at worms and insects.

The majority of humans will be like that, only a few will be able to maintain their childish nature and continue to dream until they are big, even to old and into a burrow.

Drunk about something and devoted his whole life to it. Depending on one rope, keep climbing until the rope breaks and he falls from a high place. Those are the people who are dedicated to their knowledge and dreams.

The 20th century, far from the stories of amazing people from the past. On the day that he decided to ignore the important things for the world and himself, the young man who did not understand anything slowly opened his eyes.

Even though he considered himself boring, unlucky and had no talent, he was unaware of the fact. That he belongs to those who are drunk with science and still have childish nature. Selfish, selfish and seeing only what you want.

The night of a hospital inpatient room, the window facing the moon was wide open. A cold wind came in, hitting his body lying on the floor. It was clear and very quickly that the young man immediately understood this, that this was one of the memories he had taken from him.

“I ... Odo Luke? No ….! I⸻ aeahfiu cei0j mpaej!”

His own name could not be spoken clearly, as if it were rejected by the world. Immediately wake up and look around, slowly the memory flows into the head and tells about the reality.

Time, place and condition, he was very familiar with all of that and slowly connected with the memories that had existed. Looking at the clothes worn full of blood spots and pits of sharp marks, the young man immediately understood.

“It seems true, the swing of the axe of that time was not to kill me. This ... the beginning of eternity given to me? The axe of takers and informers, since this time my soul is locked and becomes indestructible ⸻?”

Before he finished thinking, his body moved on its own as if it had followed the script. According to the plot that he has done in the past, the sensation is similar to watching a movie from a first-person perspective with visual reality. However, of course it is more real than just a visual image.

Standing up and sitting on the bed, he pensively did nothing for several hours. What the young man could see was only his own feet and the floor full of blood that was beginning to dry up, as well as a sense of confusion that was beginning to fill his mind over the thing that had happened.

As the sun began to rise and its rays began to enter the room, the young man stopped daydreaming. By the time he realized it, one of his senses had disappeared. The warmth of the sun could not be felt, just touching the skin without giving anything to him.

The door was knocked and a nurse came in. He immediately shouted and made the young man look at him. The nurse was completely wide-eyed, stared in disbelief and immediately ran to the doctor to report the unnatural.

The young man who was supposed to be dying and was declared paralyzed is now waking up in medically normal condition. Although there were some irregularities such as a room full of blood and his clothes there were marks of sharp weapons slashes, but no doubt he was back to health.

The incident that raised into the news, said in the media base that there is a young man miraculously able to return to health after a terrible accident. It also attracted the attention of many people, especially those from the medical experts who submitted a research request to the Youth.

Although several studies have been conducted on his body using cutting-edge technology, but still no oddity was found. In doctors and researchers can only call his recovery is a miracle that Youth can return to normal at that time. Even psychiatrists give up on finding out from their point of view.

About two years after the incident, the young man was finally able to return home from the research center and live with his family.

From the last time he remembered, things changed for his family.

His sister who he knew had stepped on the High School bench and looked mature, growing up to be a beautiful and cheerful girl.

His father had been successful in a career, achieving a core manager position within the large company he worked for and could even create his own company.

In fact, his mother who used to be busy working is now always at home because she chose to retire early after the family economy improved.

Although it should be a happy thing for the Youth, he could not smile or congratulate. All what his family got was completely inversely proportional to what happened to him.

“Look at it! Than to live in this house! I'll be more successful out there! I don't need you guys! Fucking shit! Just keep working until death! Just praise my sister if it makes you guys happy!!”

The heartfelt speech haunted his mind, making the young man lose his identity and feel ashamed of himself. Even while sitting at the dining table with his family members, he could not look them in the eye at all. Just ducked down, ate the rice and side dishes without saying anything.

His family also knew and understood that the biggest injury suffered by their son was not physically. Although in their minds really grateful he could survive and return, but still the guilt of not being able to do anything to make a black stain in the family.

For a year after he returned, the young man just stayed in his room and began to close himself up to be like an introvert. Sitting in front of the computer, moving his hands and fingers over the keyboard and mouse.

He continues to read articles through the internet, play games like an addicted person, and sometimes read the lessons he used to get while still in college. When he tries to do productive things like trying to make scientific papers or small articles on blogs, all of that in the end only lasts a moment and is abandoned when bored.

At some point in his miserable life, he felt tired of living and thought about ending it. Really feel meaningless, the time he had seemed to be drained out for useless things and without a clear purpose.

One day after he had resolved to end his life, the young man decided to get out of the room and wanted to see his family one last time. At a dinner he sat down with them, raised his face stiffly and uttered a sentence awkwardly.

“Te .. rima .. kasih ... a lot, Mom. The food ... delicious ..”

The words for a moment made the family's dining atmosphere become silent. A few moments later, his mother softly said, “If you want to add, please just take it. There are still many, no need to be shy ..”

His father, who usually looked strong and resolute, smiled at the time. Despite not saying anything, he clearly felt pleased that his son was slowly starting to rise again despite taking a long time.

The younger sister sitting next to him immediately patted his sister on the back. Then with a big smile, he joked, “I think Big Brother became mute because of the accident! Hehe, finally talk too …. Basic, this brother. Eat a lot fast, so not skinny like that!”

“Hmm ...”

The young man continued to eat his food, not knowing what to pay back to his family who were still hoping. In the depths of his heart, pain began to strike.

Really, how arrogant ….

How stupid ….

Very depressing.

Given all the actions as a child and teenager, he could not resist crying and began to sob. Tears flowed profusely, the regrets he endured completely melted into cries like a child.

At that moment, his decision to end his life was broken. The young man felt death would only bring sadness to his family, adding to the broken relationship that had existed.

The first to embrace her was the mother, followed by her sister and father. It was indeed a family that got along well and filled each other, completely different from the memories that Odo Luke knew about his past.

However, a memory that was retrieved definitely had a clear reason and intent. For sure, there is something to hide.

About half a year later, the Young Sister was almost finished high school and was about to go on to college. A very rare thing happened at the time. His sister went to his sister's room upstairs, then consulted about the college that he thought was in accordance with the major he wanted to take.

“You ... want ... to enter Geodesy? Not it first ... you said .. want to be a doctor?”

“Hmm, did I ever say that? Forgot, ehehe ..”

Wanting to do something for Sister like a Big Brother in general, after a long time the young man thought hard for others. He turned the chair he was sitting in toward the computer monitor, then began to do lightning research related to the direction his sister wanted.

Recommendations, discussions, the number of scientific papers each year made, the number of applicants, distance from home, facilities, and the cost of education, all of which he processed the data and made a short list for his sister. It did not take up to half an hour, the young man could get the best recommendation related to the university that is suitable for his sister.

“In my opinion, if you want the best in ITB. Accreditation there is already A, no doubt the maximum facilities are complete. But, well .. surely the rivals are many. At UGM it can also be, but he said getting there is also quite difficult. Which is quite easy access from our home only UNDIP that meets the standards well for you, there is also no less facilities. Because of the country, of course there are many rivals.”

The university suggestions sounded unconvincing, making the younger brother even more worried and said, “If you give a firm advice dong! Don't but-but keep going! If this is yes this, Big brother, ‘kan?”

“Then ..., I suggest a close ... only.”

The little sister was flinched, she understood that her brother looked anxious. Although their mother was always at home, she had started getting sick two years ago. If one member goes far away, most likely no one will take care of him when his illness recurs because the father is also preoccupied with his work. The younger brother also understood that he could not entrust this to his brother.

“Hmp! All righty! I won't go far! Uh, this big brother, is unreliable anyway! I can worry later!”

Despite having restrained his Little Brother, the young man was relieved. While putting on a thin smile, he said, “Sgratitude ...” He himself understood that it was a cruel and selfish thing. Although he used to go from home without thinking about anything else, but now he even holds his own sister to not go to study to a better place.

In fact, there are many university recommendations for her sister abroad. With more adequate facilities. However, he did not say that because he did not want to make his sister regret. Because, there are times when expectations do not match reality and a plan that has been neatly arranged.

This action may be the best option. There is no guarantee that higher education will bring happiness, no one ensures that knowledge can provide a promising future. Humans can try as much as they can, but the results from the beginning have been determined and only the way they choose.

Years changed, his sister also took an exam to enter the nearest university so that she could leave home and be accepted without significant obstacles. At those times, the young man ventured to look back to the future.

After a long time, he stepped out of the house and gradually mingled with the society. He tried to work at his father's company, learning about the business more deeply and gradually getting out of the shell. Although only sitting behind a desk to take care of documents and reports, he definitely returned to be part of the community.

But when he felt he could step back, the one waiting for him at the end of the road would be the abyss. The young man actually chose to forget about her and did not try to remember, the main reason why he was given a second chance and came back alive.

He completely removed the memory of the white-haired woman he had met at a stop, who swung an axe at him and made his life fall apart.

The awkwardness he felt a dozen years later, when times changed and the people around him getting older. A punishment for laziness slowly crawled from his feet.

As if it were alive, his fear slowly asked, “What have you achieved so far?”

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