I'LL ALWAYS LOVE YOU
83. Will Ken change?

###The next day....

Joel arrives at the hospital and enters his room. Just as he finished wearing his white coat, Seth walked in without knocking on the door.

"Hoo, I thought you didn't come today" Seth said.

"My day off is the weekend, of course I don't want to ignore today" Joel replied.

"Hey, Joel, what happened to your face?" seth was shocked when he saw Joel's face bruised.

"Don't now, I'll tell you later" Joel replied.

"Your camera?" seth asked again, dissatisfied with Joel's answer.

"Destroyed, I've ordered a new one, and it's coming tomorrow" Joel replied. "And please, stop asking about this shitty wound, okay?" press Joel.

"Well, well, I'll ask you something else," Seth chuckled softly, not a bit worried.

"Are you planning on taking a vacation somewhere?" continued.

"It's still unthinkable, but wherever it is I just want to make sure he enjoys it too" Joel replied.

"Hemm, I can't comment anything on that" Seth laughed.

"By the way, are you sure you left him alone? Isn't he still sick?" ask Seth.

"I originally wanted to delay my departure time, but she insisted that she was fine, had only a slight flu, and forced me to leave" Joel said.

"Truly, really," decak Seth shook his head.

'Who would have thought, she found an amazing woman that she loved and also loved him. I was wrong when the woman who claimed to be her lover came, and I made the mistake of giving Joel's address to her. I just found out it was that woman who had healed her wound, Seth's inner self.

"I think your love story will be a unique story" Seth commented.

"Why is that?" joel asked, frowning.

"Well, you meet in a situation that is, very, very, unpleasant, and look at it now" Seth teased.

Joel just shook his head at the joke of his friend, but did not deny what Seth said. His encounter with Ariel which he never expected started from his carelessness on the beach at that time, continued badly when he hit him and treated him to a cure.

He never thought he would love her so much. Joel stepped out followed Seth beside him. Start their routine work.

Meanwhile, at the same time but in a different place, Ariel's apartment doorbell rang when she had just finished tidying the table where she and Joel had breakfast this morning. Joel was just a few minutes away from work.

Ariel forced her foot to open the door to see who was coming in the morning.

"Ken,," Ariel sighed in surprise.

Ariel widened her eyes to see Ken standing at the door of her apartment, smiling lethargicly, and bowing his head.

"Come in," Ariel bargained.

Ken only complied, even when Ariel asked him to sit down, Ken immediately did so without any resistance.

"It's the first time you've come so early, is everything okay, Ken?" ariel asked behind the counter table while making coffee.

"I,,, just, wanted to see my brother, yesterday coach Gerry said, Ariel's sister is sick" Ken said.

Ariel turned to look at Ken, but Ken directly lowered his head, avoiding looking at him again.

'He's still acting strangely, did I really make a mistake?' inner Ariel.

Ariel approached Ken with coffee in his hand and a snack Joel made this morning, then placed it in front of Ken.

"Thank you" said Ken.

Ariel just smiled, then sat opposite Ken.

"I want to apologize to you, Ken," Ariel said, quickly managing Ken's face.

"Sorry?" repeat Ken frowned.

"But, brother did nothing wrong" Ken replied

"I'm not sure about that, because I don't remember anything about what happened that night" Ariel said.

"A few times I've wanted to tell you this, but you keep avoiding me. So, even though it's too late now I feel like I owe you an apology" he continued.

"But, really, you didn't make a mistake" Ken argued.

"It is precisely I who has made a mistake, and is too afraid to admit it, but I also do not want to continue feeling guilty, I want to apologize properly. Because after all I've done something wrong to my brother" said Ken.

"Sister got into trouble because of me, if I hadn't asked my sister for help to get there, you wouldn't have gotten in trouble" he said.

"I can't even do anything when someone's trying to hurt my sister,"

Ken let out the uneasiness he craved, but chose not to mention the medicine.

"What do you mean you say that?" ariel asked, frowning.

"Sister fainted after drinking the drink that was served there, and when I drove brother home, brother Joel came," replied Ken.

"If I don't ask you to come, it won't happen,"

Ken went back to bowing his head deeper. Feel sorry for everything that happened.

"Ken,," call Ariel.

Slowly Ken lifted his face, trying not to look down again even though it was difficult, before long, Ariel smiled.

"You know? I was so relieved to hear that I didn't mess up the show" Ariel said. "I thought I was doing something out of control and messing up your family's show" he added.

'Sister Joel was right, brother Ariel actually thought that brother Ariel was the one who made a mistake, ' Ken's inner self.

"That's impossible" Ken argued.

"That's why I wanted to apologize, I also apologized because I kept quiet and didn't say it" he added.

Ken forced a smile on his lips, covering up the real facts on the grounds of not wanting Ariel to hate him.

"Sister is the best" said Ken.

Covering up the awkwardness of his heart, Ken sipped coffee in front of him, and tried the snack Ariel served him.

"Did you make this yourself?" ask Ken.

"Joel made it this morning" replied Ariel.

"So, Joel's brother is staying here?" ken asked widening his eyes.

"Yes, rather take care of me," Ariel replied as she rubbed the back of her ear with her finger.

"Hooo, so, so, how close is Ariel to her now?" ken continued to force a smile on his lips.

"Just eat your food, Ken," Elak Ariel.

Ariel's reply brought Ken's light laughter. Although there is pain sneaking in his heart, but at the same time he also feels happy to see the person he likes smiling.

"Can I ask you something?" ken asked after his laughter had died down.

"Sure, what is it?" hail Ariel.

"If you love someone but the person you love loves loves someone else, how will you react?" ask Ken.

Ariel paused for a moment to examine the question Ken asked her.

"Love is not something that can be forced, Ken, it always comes by itself, even without us preventing it,"

"What if someone has done everything possible so that he can also be loved by his loved ones? Change himself for example," interrupted Ken.

The interruption of Ken surprised Ariel a little, where he felt emotions in his voice. It makes Ariel think that Ken is telling her about himself, but embarrassed to admit it.

Exhaling a deep breath, Ariel smiled before returning to speak.

"Just because she doesn't love you doesn't mean you're not good for her, or you're not worthy of her,"

"However, you have no will to determine whether or not he loves you, not even himself the will to determine whose heart he will fall in love with,"

"It may sound cruel, but we ourselves cannot force the heart to love the person we are pointing to, nor can we force the heart of another to love us,"

"If you change yourself for the sake of others, it can't be justified completely, but it doesn't mean it's wrong. It's just, you should be able to sort out between excuses or obsessions,"

"It would be better if you changed yourself for yourself, not for others. If it's for someone else's sake, make it your motivation, not your goal,"

Silent,,,,

Ken was stunned, everything Ariel told him made him silent a thousand languages, could no longer refute all his words.

"I may not be your biological brother, but you're like a sister to me, if you feel claustrophobic about something, you can tell me that" Ariel said sincerely.

'How could I tell it if it was about my own brother, ' wailed Ken inwardly.

'In the end, I only remained in the position of a sister, if I could say that I rejected it,'

"How do I get rid of this taste? This pain?" ken lirih.

"Ken,,,? What did you say?" ariel asked, frowning, feeling that Ken was mumbling something but not really hearing it.

"It's nothing" said Ken.

"Ah, sorry sis, I think I should go home" said Ken riled.

Ken got up from his seat, but his steps stopped when he reached the door because Ariel first blocked his wrist.

"Shortly, Ken!"

Ken tried to hide his face, not wanting Ariel to see his face which of course expressed all his feelings.

Ken knows for sure how Ariel can read someone's heart just by looking at him, and he doesn't want Ariel to know that he loves her.

"What's the matter exactly? If you have a problem, you can tell me" Ariel said.

Taking a deep breath, Ken turned around with a big smile on his face.

"I forgot, I came out because my brother asked me to buy something, but I remember my brother, so I came here first" Ken smiled sillyly as he scratched the back of his neck.

"My relationship with my brother is not as good as with Ariel's sister, I'm also too lazy to talk to her a lot" he continued.

"You sure you're telling the truth?" press Ariel staring fixedly at Ken's eyes.

"Sister, come on, come on, he's not even as good as big brother, next time I'll take Ariel to my house, but I don't expect big brother to meet her" Ken answered.

"At my house now there's also a cello, you don't mind if for example I ask you to come home for practice?" say Ken again.

Ariel smiled as she shook her head. His hand released Ken before returning to speak.

"Well, I can come" said Ariel giving up.

"Promise?" please Ken opened his eyes.

"Okay, I promise, are you happy?" welcome Ariel to laugh.

Ken took a quick glance at Ariel's hand in the bandage, then smiled once more before opening the door and leaving Ariel's apartment.

"I know he's lying, but I also realize he has his privacy. It would be best if I didn't go too deep about her privacy even though I wanted to" Ariel told herself.

When Ariel was about to move away from the door, the doorbell rang again, making her turn back to think Ken was back.

"Did you forget something, Ken_,,,, uh, Bram,,?"

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