
Escaping her six years ago was one thing, rejecting her proposal was another, hiding the fact that they had a child together was still acceptable, she said, but telling him that his father had died was so unbelievable that it hurt him so much.
“You said all that nonsense to our son?” miles protests. “I'm dead? You really want me dead?”
“Not as bad as it sounds. You need to listen to me first.” replied Kirana. Miles placed both of his hands on his waist while glaring at him.
“Oh. With pleasure. I want to listen to everything. I don't want you to leave out the slightest important fact.” challenge Miles. Kirana rolled her eyeballs.
“Go back to play with your friend, Will. I need to talk to Daddy.” Kirana patted her son's head softly. William rounded his eyes and turned towards his mother.
“I have a daddy?” tanyanya surprised. Kirana nodded her head.
“Iya. You have a daddy.” Kirana smiled. William turned his head and looked at Miles expectantly. He approached Miles and hugged him. “Praise God, He has sent you back so you can be with me.”
Miles rolled his eyes. He looked towards Kirana then towards the little boy. With hesitation, he touched the small body that was in his arms. He was so small that he was afraid he would injure his vulnerable body. His kid. William's hair and body gave off the scent of baby products. Sweet and soft. He inhaled it deeply. The smell of his heart. William loosened his arms and ran towards his friends. Miles' heart went empty again.
“Come, we sit at our place.” take Kirana. Miles nodded. He stands.
Without a second thought, he grabbed Kirana's hand and walked beside her. Kirana turned her head towards him then towards their interlocked hands. A smile appeared on his lips. They sat facing each other on a cloth. Miles sat across his legs and waited patiently.
“Sorry, I have to do it.” Kirana started with an apology. “I have to do it. It's easier to say his father died than to explain the truth. He won't understand every word I say.”
“OK. I can accept that reason.” Miles nodded. They had no agreement on the presence of the baby. At that time he believed that he would not be able to impregnate a woman. “So, when is the plan you will tell me?”
“Would never.” answer honestly.
“And can I know why?” ask Miles.
“Because I didn't expect we'd see each other again, Miles.” I'm Kirana. “I asked you to sleep together because you're a stranger. There will be no chance for the next meeting, no drama of unrequited love, and no commitment.”
“Only that?”
“And also because, because of me,” Kirana stammered.
“What is it, Kirana? Justsaytheword. I want to hear everything.” urged Miles. Kirana sighed softly and then nodded her head.
“My parents died six years ago. My brother lives abroad with his family. He has long since changed citizenship. Since marriage, he never came home. Except on the day of Papa and Mama's death.” Kirana started her story.
“To get married, I'm not sure I'm attractive enough to make men fall in love with me. Then I started thinking about having children. I'm not married, adopting a child is not an option. Until the idea finally came to my head. Sleeping with men in my fertile days.” Kirana swallowed her saliva heavily.
“I don't want to trap anyone into marrying me. No. gabe. My goal is very simple. I want to have my own son. It's okay if I can't get married.” He looked down unwilling to see Miles' eyes as he ended his story.
“I proposed to you before I met William. What's your reason for rejecting me? You never told me.” Miles crossed his arms in front of his chest.
“I'm afraid you'll take it from me.” Kirana clenched her hand that was on her lap.
“I propose to you, Kirana. William is a gift to me. I'm not gonna take it from your side. I want to marry you.” Miles said seriously. Kirana closed her lips. He knew he couldn't lie to the man. “Why did you reject my proposal?”
“When you told me about your wife who used you to get a child, I did the same to you. You are so angry with him that you lose your passion when you are with him. I'm afraid you'll be mad at me once you know the truth.” I'm Kirana. Miles' eyes softened.
“Do you know what makes you different from my late wife?” ask Miles. Kirana shook her head slowly. “He used me, Kirana. She scolded me when she wasn't pregnant and didn't want to try to see a doctor to find out where our problem was. You know why? Because he already knows. He's the barren one. I found the lab papers among his personal belongings. That's after I'm done with my therapy.” Kirana rounded her eyes, surprised.
“Why is he so scared, I don't understand.” Miles nodded slowly. “I always told him that if he was barren, we would adopt a child for us to raise together. I never threatened to leave him if he turned out to be the one in trouble. But still she's scared.”
“You? You gave me happiness. I'm confident back. I feel valuable. What I have not felt for a long time when having sex, I feel again when I am with you. You never showed any signs of trying to frame me or use me to have children. The one in my head at the time, I was barren. How many times have we had sex, I need not fear the consequences.”
“I know, I'm the one who did the wrong thing. And I did not cease to ask God for forgiveness for cheating on my wife's back, breaking my faithful promise to her. True our marriage is in trouble, but it cannot be used as a justification for my actions.” Miles rubbed his face with his hand and sighed.
“But God also brought us back together. I know I don't deserve you and William. If you give me one chance, I only ask for one chance, I promise I won't let you down.” Miles promised. Kirana looked at it as if she was telling a lie. That wasn't his fault. The night they enjoyed together was clear proof that he had the possibility of cheating.
Miles grabbed one of his hands. “Kirana, I promise I will be faithful to you. There is no one night experience with a woman other than you. In the past, in the present, or in the future. I will show you and our children that I will always love you.”
“Also he?” kirana asked while touching her stomach. Miles followed the woman's gaze. He looked towards Kirana and his stomach alternated. The woman smiled and nodded slowly. Miles opened his mouth.
“Ka, are you pregnant?” ask Miles not to believe it.
“Iya.” Kirana nodded. Miles was speechless. He opened his mouth but no words came out.
“Means my plan was successful.” Miles laughing. Kirana frowned.
“Your plan?”
“Iya. I forced you to come with me to the seminar and book the same room where we stayed was to get you pregnant. I plan to force you to marry me by making you pregnant.” Miles laughing. “That's why I wasn't angry the second I heard about your plan six years ago.”