Till The End Of Time [Inuyasha Fanfiction ]
Chapter 172

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Darkened.

Chilly.

Silent.

Sesshoumaru could see there was a dazzling light in front of him. However, he did not move the slightest bit from the darkness where he was. Looking back, he could see a darkness even darker than where he was.

Warm light and cold darkness. Where will he step? Sesshoumaru. For her like this, where else would she go if not the cold darkness?

Reversing his body, Sesshoumaru then began to step up. No matter how dark the darkness ahead was, no matter how quiet and cold the place was, he felt nothing. He was born in darkness, and therefore, he too would end up in darkness.

Light and darkness.

Perhaps for all living beings, light is definitely a pleasant place and darkness is a frightening place. But not for him. Sesshoumaru knew, the light was more frightening to him.

In his long life, he was born in darkness and died in darkness. During his life, he also lived in darkness. Only, during his life as well, he had once lived in the light. In the light, she felt warm, calm, peaceful and happy. But, all that was just a— a while.

Light in its existence. When he gets it then untenably disappears in his world, Sesshoumaru realizes—better he lives in the dark. Darkness will not hurt him, but not with light. The pain, suffering and despair felt as she got to know and lost the light— was unbearable.

The light in front of him might indeed be light, only, Sesshoumaru knew, that light was not his. For the light in his lost existence will no longer be found, no matter how he waits or searches. Like a soothing morning dew, he was present for a moment and then evaporated without a trace.

Light and darkness—Sesshoumaru knows where he's supposed to be. Where can he put out all the flavors. There will be no more warmth, tranquility, peace and happiness. But at the same time there will be no more pain, suffering and despair. Darkness the place where he'll be numb to all the feelings—that's what he wants.

Stepping and continuing to tread slowly towards the cold darkness not caring about the warm light behind, Sesshoumaru closed his golden eyes. Then, slowly, his sense of hearing caught the sound.

Stop over. Sesshoumaru opened his golden eyes. A look of surprise and disbelief filled his face. Turning her body, she then moved forward. He stepped fast—run. His sense of hearing was still hearing the sound, and from the light in front of him came the sound.

The light that was there was getting stronger and stronger, then, what Sesshoumaru saw when he managed to reach the light was a; a field of flowers. Beautiful blue sky, warm sunshine, spring fragrant smell in the air and a million colors of flowers as far as the eye can see. But, he didn't care about any of it, all he cared about was the sound flowing through the air—a song.

name no naka

mori no naka's

As if he had gone mad, Sesshoumaru continued to run as hard as he could towards the source of the sound. The voice he knew was no longer possible to hear, a voice that had vanished forever ten years ago. But how can he hear it again? Really this? or was it just her who had truly gone mad from yearning?

kaze no naka's

yume no naka's

The voice was getting clearer and clearer, Sesshoumaru continued to run until he finally stopped. In front of him now, the inuyoukai could see, a human woman sitting in the flower field stringing a flower crown.

Sesshoumaru-sama doko ni iru

Jakken - sama wo shita naete

Black hair as the sky without stars, skin as white as snow, nose pointed, lips and cheeks as red roses, big brown eyes clear and shining full of innocence—sang spring centurynya lost.

Watashi wa hitori de machimashou

Sesshoumaru - samomodori wo

Realizing Sesshoumaru's presence, the human woman then stopped singing. Placing the flower crown she strung down and raising her face to the immobile inuyoukai looking at her, she smiled—smiling as beautiful and warm as the spring that the inuyoukai loved.

Sesshoumaru did not know anything else, he moved back as fast as he could, hugging and kissing the tiny lips that smiled at him. It's okay if it's a dream, it's okay even if it's just his imagination, it's okay if he's crazy. He can feel this warmth of body again, can smell the fragrant spring that loved—can see again the woman he loved; his Rin.

Rin is surprised by Sesshoumaru's sudden embrace and kiss, but slowly, he closes his eyes and replies to the kiss. Looping both hands around the neck of the inuyoukai, he allowed himself to be in a tight embrace.

Sesshoumaru continued to kiss Rin, she spilled all her feelings. Fear, despair, suffering, emptiness, emptiness and also his longing, and Rin—dia accepted it. Without fear and also without hesitation, he accepted the reluctance of that inuyoukai feeling in his arms and kisses.

How many moments passed, Sesshoumaru did not know, slowly, he then released their linked lips. But, he did not let go of his embrace as if afraid that the woman in front of him would disappear. Then, what he saw then was a beautiful smile again.

Rin removed both of his arms which were on Sesshoumaru's neck. Lifting his right hand, he gently stroked the left cheek of the inuyoukai it gently. "Sesshoumaru-san..."

The voice he missed, the smile he loved, Sesshoumaru raised his left hand to hold Rin's hand on his cheek. Guiding the tiny hand to her lips, she closed her eyes and kissed him softly. "Rin..."

Rin's smile turned into a beautiful bell-like laughter that filled the air, and Sesshoumaru replied by opening his golden eyes and a smile on his face.

There was a lot Sesshoumaru wanted to say, there was a lot he wanted to ask, but, he did not do that. Staring and hugging Rin, for him now, this was all that mattered.

Rin's laughter then stopped, but the smile did not disappear from her face. Looking at the golden eyes that were staring at him, he knew what was in the inuyoukai's mind. Forever and never going to change, she can always read what's in her mind—because that's, "Shura."

Sesshoumaru was stunned to hear Rin's name.

"The most important thing for you right now is Shura, Sesshoumaru-sama."

Shuras.

The son of the west, their beloved son. Sesshoumaru looked at Rin, and instantly a feeling of shame and guilt filled him. Do you know how she raised their precious son? How did their son grow up without knowing his mother?

Rin laughed looking at Sesshoumaru's golden eyes. Lifting the left hand stroking the right cheek of the inuyoukai, he smiled again. "Rin understands, Sesshoumaru-sama. Thank you for trying to do what you think is best for our son."

Never hating, getting angry or blaming—the woman in front of him hasn't changed one bit. But, it only made the feeling of shame and guilt in Sesshoumaru's heart even greater. He had promised to take good care of Shura, but it seemed like he had; failed.

"Therefore, Sesshoumaru-sama," said Rin slowly, his big brown eyes looking gently at Sesshoumaru in front of him, while his left hand continued to stroke the cheek of the inuyoukai was affectionate. "You have to go back."

Sesshoumaru. Releasing his embrace, his two golden eyes looked at Rin fixedly. Going back? Back to a world without women in his arms again?

"Shura needs you..."

"It's not your time here yet, Sesshoumaru-sama..."

Rin's speech after speech sounded slow, and Sesshoumaru could only stare at her with mixed feelings. Can't they be together? like in the old laugh smile. Couldn't this woman's smile be what she sees every time she closes and opens her eyes in a day switch?—can't their little family come back together as they were?

Rin could see every emotion in those golden eyes, therefore, slowly, she then got up and gently kissed Sesshoumaru's eyes.

Meeting and farewell.

In a different space of time, being able to meet them now was a miracle. Being able to see and hug each other like this is a blessing, therefore don't be sad, don't let tears flow.

"Rin is fine, Sesshoumaru-sama," Rin said slowly as she kept her lips away from Sesshoumaru's eyes. With her trademark charming smile she stared gently at the inuyoukai, as well as the two hands that were cheeked. "Rin is not suffering anymore, Rin is not in pain anymore, Rin is not crying anymore. Because it's—it's okay."

In their togetherness, there is so much happiness that they do not know when their happiest times are?—but, in their togetherness, they know, when are the most painful times. Farewell?—not. The most painful thing in their togetherness was when Sesshoumaru saw Rin suffering, in pain and crying alone.

Sesshoumaru has everything but he can't stop Rin's suffering, pain and tears, and for Rin himself, he could do nothing and let Sesshoumaru crumble and suffer from day to day with him.

"The miracle is there, Sesshoumaru-sama," Rin said softly and laughed. "You know, right? Rin shouldn't be able to see you again like this. But, in the last second, at the expense of most of his strength, meido seki-sama guided the core of Rin's shattered soul to hither—Rin can't go anywhere anymore."

Sesshoumaru silently silently listened to Rin's words. Meido seki, he knew, for the stone, the woman in front of him was a figure he loved very much.

"But, Here, flowers bloom without ever withering and the sun never sets—Rin is safe here," Rin continued. Smiling softly for the umpteenth time, he overtime moved his right hand stroking Sesshoumaru's left cheek. "Therefore, Rin will wait for you here."

Sesshoumaru's eyes looked straight at Rin. Catching the two hands he had on his cheeks, he was silent.

"Rin will always wait for you here until your real time comes," laughing once again, Rin closed her eyes. "So when that time comes, you have to tell Rin about stories that Rin can't see and enjoy. About everything, about the western land, about the Mother, about Jaken-sama, about the inhabitants of the western land palace. About the Inuyasha-sama family and Miroku-sama as well, and most importantly," slowly, Rin's eyes reopened and shone beautifully indescribably."—about Shura..."

Shuras.

The most precious gem in the world, irreplaceable treasure in their existence— the son of the west, the son conceived and born for; love, love,

Closing his eyes, Sesshoumaru then nodded his head slowly. "Sesshoumaru understands."

Laughing again for the umpteenth time, Rin let go of her hands holding Sesshoumaru's cheeks. Full of joy and happiness, she hugged the inuyoukai. "Thank you, Sesshoumaru-sama!"

Sesshoumaru immediately raised his hand back the embrace tightly. Smelling the smell of the human woman was strong, she seemed to be trying to carve out the warmth she felt within herself.

Meeting and farewell.

They meet and part, meet again and will once again be troubled. However, Sesshoumaru swore to himself, this would be the last time. When they meet again when the time comes, they will never be apart again.

Releasing his embrace, Rin then looked back at Sesshoumaru. A smile as beautiful as spring filled his face. "Rin loves you, Sesshoumaru-sama. Always and forever..."

Sesshoumaru also let go of his embrace and looked at Rin. He did not return his confession, he simply continued to stare and carve a face that he knew he would not see again for a long time in his heart.

Love's.

Rin's love that never changes from beginning to end is the sincere love given to her. Therefore Sesshoumaru will protect her, a proof of Rin's real love and their living—son; Shura.

Standing up, Rin then slowly raised her right hand pointing forward. There was nothing in the direction he pointed, as far as the eye could see there was only a field of flowers of a million colors.

Slowly too, Sesshoumaru stood up. Staring for a moment Rin's face that still smiled, the inuyoukai smiled. "Wait for this Sesshoumaru.."

Rin laughed with her bell-like voice at Sesshoumaru's words, and without waiting for another answer, Sesshoumaru ran as fast as he could in the direction the human woman pointed.

A strong wind blew on Sesshoumaru's face and body, bringing the fragrant spring flower fields. The eternal blue sky above and also the pleasant warm sun, at the back, he could hear the soft singing voice of a strange song that a human woman had always sung to wait for him.

Name no naka

mori no naka's

Continuing to run, Sesshoumaru could see the field of flowers a million colors that were disappearing replaced by white color throughout the eye looked, but he could still hear the sound of singing in the air like accompanying him.

Kaze no naka

yume no naka's

Not stopping his footsteps in the slightest towards the front, without caring about his changing surroundings, Sesshoumaru saw a black speck in front.

Sesshoumaru-sama doko ni iru

Jakken - sama wo shita naete

As the black dot approached, Sesshoumaru could see, the black dot grew bigger and became a dense, endless darkness in the air like an unreal crack. However, he still did not stop, jumped up and threw himself inside, he could still hear the sound of singing that existed

Watashi wa hitori de machimashou

Sesshoumaru - samomodori wo

Sesshoumaru would not lose his way again, ten years passed, his time stopped now finally able to move back. Her lost world jewel has now been—aman. The beautiful face was no longer crying, she was not in pain and suffering anymore. In the field of flowers of a million colors in the eternal spring, she would always laugh and smile, and also, she would always sing to—waiting for her.

Darkness swallows Sesshoumaru. Inside the darkness as well, he felt something in his chest. There were hundreds of threads of tissue moving towards where his heart was moving. The connected tissue connects at incredible speeds, clumping and forming a new heart-beating organ—.

The darkness disappeared replaced by a light that once again engulfed him. The warmth felt, and Sesshoumaru accepted it all without hesitation. Closing her golden eyes slowly diapun—

Opening his eyes in the real world living in a neutral village.

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