Till The End Of Time [Inuyasha Fanfiction ]
Chapter 45's

Sesshoumaru continued reading the scrolls on his desk. His ears captured clearly the sound of laughter as well as the party musical instruments held in the garden of the East Pavilion of the palace of the Western Land, but most importantly, although in the variety of sounds he can still hear clearly the sound of laughter bells that he likes; Rin.

The request from all the residents of the West Land Palace for him to hold Rin's birthday party is actually surprising and not for Sesshoumaru. He did not expect them all by themselves willing to kneel and beg for the celebration of the birthday party of the human girl. However, judging by how much they all adore and love Rin, what they do is actually not something unreasonable.

His familiar aura and smell suddenly moved quickly closer to his study, however, Sesshoumaru still did not budge in the least. She could only think, much less what Inukimi wanted, the inuyoukai that gave birth to her now.

"Shoumaru!" inukimi shouted loudly while opening the shoji door of Sesshoumaru's workspace.

"What more do you want now, Mother?" despite asking, Sesshoumaru did not turn his face to Inukimi. She could clearly feel something was bothering her and upsetting her Mother, yet, she ignored it.

Walking closer to Sesshoumaru, both of his palms immediately hit his son's desk until it broke in two. The scrolls fell on the floor, except for the scrolls still in Sesshoumaru's hands. "What did you give as a gift to little Rin?!"

Sesshoumaru raised his face looking at Inukimi whose two golden eyes had now turned blood red, a sign he was restraining emotions. And although, Sesshoumaru's face looked calm as if he didn't care, he was also holding back emotions. Had Inukimi not been the woman who gave birth to her, she would have killed her. She never runs out of thought, how could a woman whose emotions are always explosive and likes at will be her biological mother.

"What did you give my daughter as a birthday present, Sesshoumaru!?" ask Inukimi again.

"Why do you care, Mother?" sesshoumaru replied with a question that stunned Inukimi.

The anger soon disappeared from Inukimi's face, as did her blood-red eyes that returned to gold. Putting her face up she closed her eyes and took a breath. "Taisho and Miko's sons strangely present Rin-small fan Izayoi. The monkey fucker gave him an illusionary Shamisen. Bawdy monk and Taijiya stupid homemade tasbih. Left and Kira; short swords of their fangs, then, servants and warriors; feast. Rin-small seems to like her very much, she even shed tears of happiness, because of that..."

Sesshoumaru remained silent saying nothing. However it seemed, he had already begun to guess what Inukimi meant by now. Centuries into the son of Inukimi, at least has made him guess a little of his mother's mind.

Opening his eyes again, Inukimi's golden eyes turned blood red again. "How dare they! Not their gift! But it is my gift that will be the best, most beautiful and unforgettable gift by Rin-little! Not anyone's gift! A gift from me as his mother!"

Sesshoumaru lowered his gaze from Inukimi back on the scroll in hand. He would not serve her now, for it was a waste of time forever.

Upset by Sesshoumaru's attitude, Inukimi forcibly snatched the scroll Sesshoumaru read and threw it against the wall. "Don't ignore me, you brat!"

Inukimi's treatment makes Sesshoumaru's patience almost disappear. His golden eyes turned blood red returning Inukimi's similarly colored gaze. "Don't think because Mother is the woman who gave birth to this Sesshoumaru, Mother can behave as she pleases!"

Inukimi was not afraid in the slightest of Sesshoumaru's anger even though she knew that her son was serious. Today's meeting, it might just end in a fierce fight between the two of them. Sesshoumaru would definitely not hesitate in the least to pull out his sword which was located on his back table; bakusaiga and also Tessaiga.

Tessaiga.

Look at the sword. The expression of anger on Inukimi's face immediately disappeared. His blood-red eyes immediately turned again into gold. Staring at the sword, his head kept thinking about something, and instantly a big smile flashed across his face.

The expression and also the eyes of Sesshoumaru returned to their original appearance when they saw the change in attitude and facial expression inukimi. Not caring for Sesshoumaru in the slightest, Inukimi suddenly pitched her head upwards and burst into laughter. "I know! My prize! I know what gift I should give my daughter!"

Sesshoumaru remained silent unconcerned, until Inukimi looked back at his face with a smug smile full of victory. "It is my gift that will be Rin-small's most precious and outstanding gift, Sesshoumaru."

Although curious, Sesshoumaru was aware, his mother was a person who had strange and inconsistent thoughts, so, she was not willing to guess what might be going through her mind.

Not caring for Sesshoumaru in the slightest, Inukimi turned her back and walked out leaving her son's study room full of satisfaction while laughing out loud. "Unforgettable gifts! The gift he would definitely love was more than anyone's gift! The most luxurious gift in the world to my little princess!"

After Inukimi's death, Sesshoumaru could only return his gaze to the broken table, the scrolls scattered to the end on the scroll he had read. Closing his eyes, he then got up from the chair towards the scroll. Bending his body, he lifted the scroll.

What did you give as a gift to little Rin?!

The question Inukimi asked flashed through Sesshoumaru's head and stunned him for a moment. Gifts—gifts for Rin.

Staring back for a moment at the scroll in his hand - the scroll about medicine that had the possibility of being an elixir of immortality, Sesshoumaru then got up and walked back to his desk. His golden eyes stared at the scrolls scattered on the floor - all the scrolls regarding eternal life he had collected over the years.

Um, Rin thinks Sesshoumaru-sama. If Rin dies someday, will you always remember Rin?

Rin's question as a child was answered with an answer; 'Don't ask anything meaningless.' It's just that, in fact, the answer slid out because he didn't have an answer. He did not want to think about the answer, because there was a strange feeling that he did not like felt if he did. And also, how naive he was back then, seeing Rin back then, he thought, Rin was a child, they still have a very long time in their existence; they would still be together as the human girl had always said.

Forever together.

Yep. He was naive at the time. Sesshoumaru acknowledged it now. Humans and Youkai. With Rin, he had never felt the slightest bit of reality. Looking at Rin, he is not seeing a human being, but Rin. Likewise for Rin, the brown eye who saw him always saw him as Sesshoumaru was not a youkai the ruler of the Western Land. To him, Rin is Rin and to Rin Sesshoumaru is Sesshoumaru, not youkai and human. Therefore, he forgets the reality between those who will never change; Rin who will age, get sick and then die. Forever being with them is impossible.

Can he take it? Closing his eyes, Sesshoumaru thought for the first time, and he again felt that unpleasant feeling, a feeling he had to admit; fear. What would his world be like without Rin? Without a gentle smile, without the sound of laughter, without warmth, without the girl who claims to always love her.

Higher than the sky, deeper than the sea, greater than the world, more than Rin himself lived. More than anything, that is how much Rin loves Sesshoumaru-sama.

Rin's little confession of love once crossed Sesshoumaru's mind, making his whole heart feel very warm. Love's. Loving her. For her who was a youkai who had always been feared, Sesshoumaru never understood. Why is Rin willing to love him? And most importantly, that love is something that doesn't matter, why doesn't she mind being loved? Kenpa she always had the desire for the girl to always be by her side, laughing and smiling for her; just loving herself alone.

Immersed in his mind, Sesshoumaru's nose caught the smell of spring approaching his study. The sound of slow footsteps rang out, and without being told anything, he knew who it was.

"Sesshoumaru-sama, may Rin enter." A soft sound like the clanking of bells sounded.

"Hn"

Opening the door, Rin walked into Sesshoumaru's workroom, a big smile filling his face. "Sesshouma—" Rin's call immediately came to a halt, shocked as she looked at the workbench as well as the scattered scrolls.

Realizing what surprised Rin, Sesshoumaru turned his face to look at Rin. "Mother."

Rin's startled feeling instantly disappeared and replaced the smile again. It is no longer strange, if Inukimi destroys something for no apparent reason if entering the Sesshoumaru room, in fact, there is another budget in the accounting of Rin's western land palace, namely; cost of damage beloved mother.

"Sesshoumaru-sama," stepping closer to Sesshoumaru, Rin immediately bowed her body. "Thank you, thank you for allowing Rin's birthday party to take place." Lifting up the body looking at the inuyoukai face in front of him, a wide smile that was extremely charming filled his face. "Rin was so happy, so happy, so happy!"

Smile it again. Sesshoumaru could only be stunned. A smile she always loved and remembered. Was the girl in front of him never conscious? That smile always made her feel something she had never felt before.

Lifting his hands abruptly, Rin leapt tightly to embrace and soaked his face on Sesshoumaru's chest. Tears flowed down his face, soaking the kimono inuyoukai. "R-rin happy.. B-happy, happy..."

Laughing one day, but crying the next. Happy, crying, smiling. Like a child, Sesshoumaru knew, Rin never changed, and he did not want the girl to change.

Raising his face looked at Sesshoumaru again who was staring at him, unbeknownst to him from where, for the first time, Rin gained a strong courage and encouragement. Moving his hand to pull Sesshoumaru's body down, Rin stepped on his foot. Closing his eyes, he landed his low lip softly on the cheeks of the inuyoukai of the Western Land Ruler.

Soft touch of lips. Making Sesshoumaru stunned. His heart was beating so fast that it felt tight. What is this feeling? He doesn't know, but he knows, he doesn't hate it.

Turning his lips away from Sesshoumaru's cheeks, Rin's face turned a tremendous red, however, the wide smile on his face only continued to widen and widen. A feeling of shame and groggyness emanated on his face, but matchless happiness was also painted. "For ever and never will change, higher than the sky, deeper than the sea, greater than the world, more than Rin himself lived. More than anything, that is how big Rin's love is for Sesshoumaru-sama."

Not waiting for a reply or seeing Sesshoumaru's reaction again, Rin immediately turned around and ran out. The girl knew, what she was doing now might be wrong as well as disrespectful, but, she had done so and was irrevocable. This unstoppable joy and joy reminds him of the happiness between Inuyasaha and Kagome, their love he saw first. Yep! The love! Rin knew, this was his love for the inuyoukai of the Western Land Ruler.

Sesshoumaru did not move in the slightest, the warmth of the tiny lips that slowly dipped his cheeks was still felt. He lost his word and could think of nothing. Come to think of how many times the girl had lost her focus since they met.

Forever and never to change, higher than the sky, deeper than the sea, greater than the world, more than Rin himself lived. More than anything, that is how much Rin loves Sesshoumaru-sama

Rin's words just crossed Sesshoumaru's mind. The girl loved him, more than anything, heard both times those words, how much she had to admit it, how fast her heart was beating again, how warm, true, happy and happy she was.

Rin can see how happy Inuyasha-sama and Kagome-sama are because of love. Love can make someone weak and perish, but not knowing why, Rin also feels love can make someone happy.

Sesshoumaru's eyes widened. She desperately rejected what she was thinking now. Her feelings for Rin, their happiness together, the warmth of their togetherness, the fear of losing her, the desire for the girl to always be by her side, laughing and smiling for her; just loving her alone. His feelings for Rin, the meaning of the existence of the human girl in his life so far is; love?

Nah! Love is a useless feeling, he cannot possibly love. Especially to love a human being. He remembered his father, he remembered how his father fell from the top and died for loving a man. Therefore, he will not make that mistake, he will not love, he will not possibly love Rin.

Rin is the only one who loves Sesshoumaru-sama.

Rin who never asked and expected anything from Sesshoumaru unless he could be beside her. Rin who always thinks of Sesshoumaru and ignores himself. That bandit? Can she let him go forever they'll always be like this? Let that girl be the one who loves?

Sesshoumaru.

the face of little Rin smiling at him was reflected.

Sesshoumaru.

Little Rin who grew up running small hugged him when he came home from his trip.

Sesshoumaru.

Rin was now the one smiling for him.

The face that was always smiling and looking at him, all twisted back in the head. From their meeting to the present. She always saw, looked after and raised him, the little girl who has now become the most beautiful girl. Seshoumaru knew, he had already lost. For the first time in his long life, he had actually lost by a landslide. He can lie to anyone now, including Rin. But forever, he could not lie to himself. He had become like his Father, into something he did not accept and wanted, something he feared, he had fallen in love with a human being; loving a human being.

Rin; she has loved him.

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