I'm Not Daria
First kiss

I staggered in shock, but she offset my steps and approached me while wrapping her arms around my waist to support my observant legs.

My back touched my bedroom door as she continued to kiss me excitedly. My mind is fucked.

I was so nervous about Mario quitting his job and then being quickly replaced with the thought of how much fun it would be to be this close to Devan.

Her soft and warm lips moved to my lips as if she was in a hurry. He was probably waiting for me to push him and wanted to make the most of this moment before it ended. He didn't even stop to breathe and I didn't even do anything. I was just pressed against the door with my hand raised to the side in shock and my eyes wide open.

My initial instinct was to push it and tell myself that it never happened until I believed it, but there are forces that do not allow it to happen. That power is so strong, though, I could do nothing for a long time except stand there like a statue as her lips moved swiftly all over my lips until no part of my lips was untouched by hers and he still didn't stop. My surprise faded after a few minutes and I gave up. My shoulders relax when I close my eyes

Just this once. I let myself enjoy a moment I will never get back. It was much more than a kiss, I realized after I closed my eyes and felt the weight of her feelings in it. It was our communication about how strong we felt for each other. What was said before was a lie, Aki did not hate him. I really like it.

All the neglect that I had made of my feelings towards her only made that feeling even greater and gained so much strength that it would have brought me down if it wasn't for Devan holding me.

Our feelings were so strong that it made me retreat to the door and take over the reins tonight. I didn't even fight back when that power flooded my mind.

I wrapped my arm around her neck with my hand in her hair, tugging at the end.

And I finally responded, reassuring her in a kiss that didn't hate her.

Deep down my heart always craved this kind of relationship with her. I even imagined what it would be like if we kissed. And now that it's happening, it's much better than I imagined.

I blocked all thoughts and worries and focused on her, the sensation she gave me, the tremors spread all over me as her hands ruffled my hair behind my head and then came down to wrap her hands around my waist and pull me closer until there was no room left.

When she realized that I wasn't going to push her away and actually kissed her back gently, her urgent kiss slowed down to a gentle and passionate kiss.

We are in perfect synchronization and speed. Our lips stuck together and our fingertips that walked on each other's bodies left a trail that could only be felt.

We kissed for a long time, but when we finally withdrew to breathe after what seemed like an eternity, I opened my eyes hesitantly and looked at Luna in front of me. She was crying. He looked heartbroken and angry. He screamed at me but I couldn't hear him.

I felt two hands caressing my face, I blinked and she disappeared. was staring at a pair of mesmerizing warm brown eyes looking at me with admiration and much more.

It was Devan in front of me with a big smile on his face and then he brought his face closer to mine and realized that he was going to kiss me again

No, I can't let this go a second time. Not after I saw Luna in my shadow.

Before our lips met for the second time, I put my hand on her chest and pushed her away.

He seemed shocked and hurt by my refusal.

"Daria, what's wrong?" He asked, cupping my face while looking me in the eye as if he could get the answer there. He'll probably get it if we keep staring at each other even longer.

I retreated quickly but there was no room left for me to move

"What?" He stepped forward and grabbed my hand, but I raised my hand to stop him.

"I'm tired, I have to sleep. And this will never happen"

I quickly opened the door of my room and quickly closed it in front of him.

I swept my hair in frustration, finally letting the dam inside me that was full of broken blankets and flooding me with self-loathing and regret. tonight I won't be able to sleep because my schedule is full of crying, cursing myself, yelling to the pillow over my stupidity.

I thought too much about my whereabouts, imagining dangerous scenarios where Luna found out what had just happened, situations where my secret would be exposed and Devan found out about it and then he didn't like me anymore, anna knew it and hated me forever and called me a hypocrite.

There was also a little part of me that was happy and repeated the kiss over and over again until it looked like a tomato with a flushed face.

As expected, I couldn't sleep last night and did everything I believed would happen.

Now I have a little headache that keeps me from sleeping

It was five o'clock in the morning, the air was a little cold. I was debating whether I should stay in bed or have a cup of coffee and see the sunrise that I had been doing for these few days.

I decided to choose the latter because coffee will help me deal with the headaches.I might meet Devan on the way.

So I quietly walked downstairs, silent like a mouse as I passed through the door. I didn't hear any movement from her room so she must have slept. which makes me angry because what he did a few hours ago doesn't make me sleep at all but he doesn't have that kind of problem.

After I made a cup of hot coffee for myself, I decided to make a Nutella sandwich as well just in case I felt hungry later.

The kitchen feels cold and lifeless without Mario and I've started to miss him. I will not forgive that man easily. He left me without a goodbye, making me regret the last time I saw him.

If I had known it was the last time, I would have held her even longer until her voice and smell entered my memory.

When I put a spoonful of Nutella in my mouth, I was lost in thought. I didn't pay much attention to the footsteps approaching me until I saw a body standing in front of me in my peripheral vision, so I was quite surprised to see Devan right in front of me on the other side of the kitchen.

I wasn't ready to face it. I didn't expect him to be here at the moment. He should have come in about half an hour later, which was the main reason why I had to get out of the room in order to avoid him at breakfast.

But now that he's here, I have to behave normally.I have to act as if last night's kiss didn't affect me, as if it didn't steal my deep sleep, it was as if it hadn't filled my mind for six hours in a row and as if it hadn't released my feelings for her like a broken dam and the water was flooding - uncontrollable, unpredictable, and dangerous

I clutched the tray that contained my sandwich bread and coffee. I refuse to acknowledge his presence. While bringing breakfast, I prepared to step out of the kitchen, but her soft voice stopped my steps.

"Walley"..

It wasn't even my name, but it made my heart flutter