I'm Not Daria
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"Who?" Even Luna's attempts to pretend to be stupid were pitiful

"Are you done pretending you don't know anything when you know you've helped the girl?"

Luna sighed, annoyed. "No, no" He grumbled

"I just want to see it. Now where are you hiding it?"

"He's not here."

There was a pause and I imagined him raising an eyebrow. I was upset that I couldn't see her face. Of course, I've seen it in photos, but it doesn't depict it as a whole. So I have to imagine myself raising an eyebrow.

"He's running away?." Daria realized. He was pretty quick to catch something.

"He did, just now. Let's leave him alone. Now that you're here, blend in with your role. And how do you know I helped her?"

"When will you stop thinking? You don't have a brain? You sound stupid asking that question."

I wonder where Devan is. I already miss him.

"Where can I find him?"

Anna and I looked at each other in panic before concentrating on the conversation

"You won't find him. He's going home, so let him live in peace. All the time here is full of drama for him. Don't chase him."

"I'm not saying I'm going to ruin his life!"

Their conversation borders on fun banter and I start to feel silly with all my worries.

Just then there was the sound of a leg beating and there was the sound of panting

"Where's Darla?" Devan's voice, especially when he said my name made my heart beat. He got my letter faster than expected.

It means he misses me like I miss him and there hasn't even been an hour since he last met her.

Luna cursed in her heart

"Name Darla?" Daria asked in disbelief. "Surprisingly, I met a girl who looked a lot like me and her name was Darla. Our names are very similar, it looks like we-"

"He's gone." Luna interrupted, answering Devan

There was a rustling sound and vague footsteps

"I'll look for him." Devan stated.

Suddenly there was a loud thud. "You can't do something like that. The situation is currently in a mess and as usual must clean it up. Don't make more trouble for me". There was a warning in his words. Luna can be scary if she wants to.

"Tracking it won't be a problem for me. You can't control me. I have to talk to him. Now," he said stubbornly.

Luna must have realized that she was getting the short end of the stick because we heard her exhale in frustration.

"Devan, listen. I didn't tell you not to see him again. I'm just saying that you just found out something big. You must be surprised. I mean, you're in love with that girl and she turns out to be someone you don't even know. You two need time to get away from each other and once things are calm here, I'll give you the address."

Daria laughs. "This idiot fell in love with her? And he thinks he's me?" He laughed again. "You think I'm gonna change to fall in love with you? Ah, that explains the kiss. I thought you had a screw loose in your brain because no one fixed it."

"Shut up." Devan said, his irritation and hatred for Daria was clearly visible from his tone. "And you're Luna, you don't know anything. Of course I wouldn't believe Daria would change for the better. So I told someone to investigate things after he was found because I was hesitant and knew about his secret from the start."

"What?" Anna and I were screaming at the same time. The driver looked at us with a strange look that we ignored.

"What's? How's it?" Luna voiced our thoughts

"I did a little background check on Anna and found out that she worked in a cafe with Darla, even I once drove her there just to make sure and her reaction confirmed everything for me".

He knows. He knew all this time and yet he never revealed it?. Of course there were times when I doubted, but I never thought that he really knew. Am I too busy and neglectful of his instructions?.

"So I don't need time to accept what I already know." He stated

"You still can't see him."

"What's? Why ?"

"really? Give it to me, I want to talk to him". Daria squealed and I knew that a fight was about to happen

"No, give it to me. She's my girlfriend, I need to talk to her." Devan must have joined in too. Before we could figure out exactly what was going on, Luna hung up.

I tried calling her back a few times but she didn't take the call or reject it straight away.

I breathe with sadness. We're approaching the store. Angel . We haven't talked to him in months. Being here brings back memories of when I came here to have breakfast with Devan.

As soon as we arrived, Ms. Angel's eyes widened beyond what was considered humane. He blinked his tired eyes a few times. We smiled at him from the street holding our bags.

He had the keys to our apartment and we took them from him. He has a lot of questions that we promised we would answer when we got back in the evening to work. He was really very kind and told us to take some time off but we didn't want to. Farel, our co-workers there were also surprised and happy to see us.

We hailed another taxi and the taxi drove Anna for the first time. It feels similar to the feeling we feel after returning from a fun, exciting and adventurous trip with friends and not knowing when we can experience it again.

My little apartment was dusty and looked like something out of a horror movie. There was a huge spider web in its corners and dust was coating it all. It takes a lot of time and energy to clean everything up. It was dark, cold and hard to imagine that this used to be a warm and pleasant home for me. However, now the only house that came to my mind was someone. Devan. She is a warm, kind and loving home.

I went straight to work, there was nothing to do as it was still adjusting to this change. I also want to keep my mind and hands busy so as not to think about anything else. For a moment I started to think if Devan would come to see me??.

....

A few hours later my apartment looked almost the same as before. It was late at night and I was a little late to come to the coffee shop. When I arrived, Anna was already there cleaning and waiting for the table. I was behind a desk and almost forgot what I used to do there.

Because it's a work day, so there's no rush. The shop was empty except for a few filled tables. But Mrs Angel was not interested in the store that day. He sat down with us and asked where we had been all this time. Anna had no choice but to tell a story, I just added information from me here and there, occasionally sighing while recalling those times.

Madam Angel must have known I was not speaking and could feel that she was going to ask me, but by shaking Anna's head, she undoes her intentions.in the end she would have told it because otherwise, Madam Angel has her own way of getting things from others.

In celebration of our return, the old woman made us two delicious cups of coffee and a familiar cup of heaven for us managed to excite me and make me more excited and happy all night long.

Now that I don't live in that house anymore, Anna and I have to go back to college. Imagining facing Pritta making my stomach hurt, remembering she planned to apologize to me after returning and I was really looking forward to it.

....

The next morning upon entering the campus, no one looked at me with a strange look. Apparently my absence for months did not affect anyone. I guess they weren't even aware of my presence from day one.

Surprisingly, it didn't take long for Pritta to see me and she ran straight towards me which scared me a little.

He was panting from the nun. "You're back."

"Yes,"

"Where are you going? I think something bad happened to you "

"Why does that worry you?" I wasn't much fun for him and he wasn't fun for me either, so I thought it would be better if it continued like that. "If you forget, we don't know each other well enough to worry about such a thing."

"I need to talk to you." He took my hand and led me to a quiet corner under a tree. He stopped and turned to face me. "I'm sorry."

I raised an eyebrow for him to explain further, even though I knew very well what this was about.

"I'm sorry for whatever happened to you. Sorry to demean you, your family, your part-time job. I'm sorry for all the wrongs I've done to you. I'm sorry for the slaps and insults you've faced".

I know he's sincere.

"Why are you suddenly apologizing?"

"Listen, I had a childhood friend and she ran away two years ago, she looks a lot like you, she said, so I suspected you were him and just went undercover so I tried to do all sorts of things to piss you off. This friend of mine is grumpy and if you really are him, I think I can make you admit it. If he were to escape, he would not be anywhere near those who knew him. But now he's back and now I'm sure that you two are different people. That's why I wanted to apologize".

I struggled to keep her face straight because she didn't know that they were both me and the situation seemed funny to me, "Alright, an apology is welcome,." I said nonchalantly and felt the need to add, "i'm also sorry for slapping you, insulting you and your boyfriend"

He waved a sign of refusal. "It's okay, I do deserve it and don't apologize about Rian, that guy is too spoiled. We broke. We weren't really dating in the first place." He shrugged his shoulders.

I nodded and was about to leave when I remembered something. "Eh Pritta, there's one more thing that makes me regret about your beautiful purple dress" I said, really sad about it. "And you should stop talking about it while sleeping with Rian!" add me as a cover.

He looks confused. "What?"

And then I ran away from her before she found out what I meant.

"What?! You turned out?!" I heard him screaming behind me. "I thought my dress was torn because of a rat!!!! Damn DARLAAAA!"

"I said I'm sorry." I screamed from behind my shoulder to look back at his face flushed red from embarrassment talking while sleeping. I laughed while running to class