I'm Not Daria
Let me not get involved

I smiled at Devan who was right next to me. I reached out and pulled a few hairs from his face and let my fingers trace his face. I traced the lines of her cheeks, her pointed nose and her lips that I always wanted to kiss, then I approached and pressed my lips against hers for a moment.

I kept an eye on him as he slept soundly and peacefully. The bedsheet was caught between us, her bare chest half-embedded and half-hidden behind it.

I reached out my hand towards her face again and placed my palm on her cheek.

"I'm sorry for hurting you. But I don't seem to have a choice." I whispered to him". I knew he wouldn't hear me

"Will you forgive me?" I stroked her cheeks, feeling the punctures on my palms where her beard rubbed against my skin. "I wish we were normal people and I could meet you in a different situation when things weren't too difficult, I wanted to like you freely,"

I closed my eyes feeling the sleep controlling me but forced my eyes to open because not every day could see Devan bare-chested in bed with me. I want to keep this picture in my memory and want to remember the scent of bed sheets in the morning when we shared a bed together last night and want to remember what it was like to touch and smell them, even though it wasn't a big kiss.

...

When I managed to open my eyes, I saw him staring straight at me. My hand was still on her cheek with a soft caress and I moved to pull my hand back quickly, but she more quickly grabbed my hand and pulled me closer.

"What did you say?"

I sat down, pulled my hand back

"It's late at night. You need to get up and go back to your room,"

He also stood up, "You said you liked me, right?"

"What's that empty? Come out and don't knock on my door again when you're drunk."

"Where are my clothes?"

"There." I said while pointing to the nightstand. "You said you were kind of hot so you took it off and threw it away."

"Oh, sorry. I don't remember anything." He's holding his head.

"Drink medicine."

He's nodding. "I'm sorry for bothering you like this again."

In my heart I told him I didn't mind at all and he could come whenever he wanted, but of course I didn't say.

It was the day after the party. Precisely last night Devan knocked on my door again and he was still drunk like last time. But this time I didn't look for the key or take it to the guest room, I immediately took it to my bed and put it in it. And then occupy the other end of the bed and spend some of my time staring at it, even though it sounds creepy, I can't see it as much as I want and this is a way to look at it as happily as possible without having to hurt it.

She left soon after and I was left alone in my room. What convinced me that this wasn't a dream was a bed sheet that still smelled of her.

I'll pay a little more attention to what's going on between Luna and Anna. They've been acting strange for a long time. I should know, I can't directly approach them about it. Then the only possibility to get information is from Bella.

....

I had invited him to watch a movie with me, but in reality I just wanted to discuss the topic that had been gnawing at me.

"Hey," she hugged me as soon as she arrived. "Are you okay? Where's Devan taking you to the party?"

"There's nothing. She's hurt as usual and I have to act like a bitch."

"Ah, what a pity. I'm sorry you two have to experience this, even though you like each other. I hope everything will be fine and you two can move on or get back together. Whatever it is is okay."

"thank you. Let's go to my room and watch a movie"

"So how's Daria doing? Is he coming back?" I asked casually, a little curious about how the real princess lived her life and where she was.

"He's fine. She was happy there and she told us how much she had found her true self, she met someone there and she thought she loved him. We were not surprised because it didn't take long for the girl to fall in love. Daria falls in love easily".

I'm laughing a little. "He sounds happy, I'm happy. It makes it a little easier to stay here."

"I'm sorry that this is a little difficult for you right now"

I shrugged my shoulders indifferently.

"It's not your fault. And besides, I've gotten used to my difficult life, so it's actually not so bad even though I prefer the difficulties of the past rather than the present."

"You're very strong Darla. I could never imagine what it would be like to worry about financial matters and whether you could afford something or not. I respect you a lot because you're very strong in dealing with a problem that I don't have any experience in"

"Eh. thank you. But we all struggle with different struggles and think that we are all strong in different ways"

"Well, I'm glad I got to know you. Hey, I want you to know that even though it's all over, it doesn't matter if it ends in a bad way or in a good way, it's not, know that I'll still be your friend and you can call me whenever you want and if you need help, I'll always be there for you."

My heart swelled with happiness for the first time in a long time. "Thank you, Bella, I'm glad to know you too." And it's true. Bella is my favorite and I really think of her as a true friend,

He smiled at me sincerely and my heart warmed. I am not alone.at least I have one friend who can be relied upon and confided.

"So, do you know what happened between Anna and Luna? They seem to be a little closed lately".

Bella was looking through the movie and saw her finger pausing for a moment in one of the movies before she relaxed and continued the search." didn't know. I didn't realize they were being closed".

"Do you know why they're like this? Did Luna say anything to you?"

He shrugged his shoulders. "He didn't say anything. Hey, don't think too much. It might be nothing"

"I can trust you with anything, right?"

He turned to face me and nodded. "Of course"

"I think it's nothing. The two became closer to each other and it seemed like Anna trusted him more than I did. He avoided talking to me. I feel like she's sick. He looks so weak and tired all the time and doesn't know what to do because he always pushes me away" I said.

He walked up to me with a movie and put a soothing hand on my shoulder "He probably doesn't want to talk. I'm sure if it's a big deal, he'll tell you. Don't worry."

"But I've tried to talk to him a few times and every time he pushes me away. I feel like we're not even friends anymore. And I thought you might know something about it. Do you know what Luna and Anna did when they didn't come to gather with us that day? I think Anna's starting to look sick after that day."

"Okay, I'll be honest with you. Luna told me to keep you from getting involved in things and take your mind off that day.I don't know what she told me to do, I don't know what she told me to do, but he said it was important and he couldn't tell me about it because it wasn't his place to tell and I'm still confused about it to this day"

"He didn't give me any reason and I felt that it was something very important and I agreed to keep you busy and it worked, I didn't get to talk to him about it after that. It really crossed my mind." Bella Imbuh

"So something happened that day? Luna doesn't want me to know and it involves Anna"?

"Are you sure you're not hiding anything else from me?

"I swear that's all I know"

"Okay, thank you. So, what do you choose to watch?"