I'm Not Daria
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I flicked my lips, trying to concentrate. "I mean they must be hiding something from everyone Did Luna ever say anything about Anna to you?"

"No. But why didn't he tell you? You two are much closer than he is to me."

"I don't know,"

We were silent despite our thoughts being equally muddled thinking about what might happen to Arianna or what I used to call Anna,

"Did you ever think, the possibility that they met each other?"

"really? I don't think Anna likes women, she's always dating men"

"He may be bisexual. Luna has also dated and slept with men all this time because she forced herself to like men because of her mother."

"That could be a possibility. Oh, my God, why didn't Anna tell me?"

"She must be worried about how you react if there are two friends dating each other?" He suggested.

"Why should I care? It's their heart, it's love. They don't have to worry about me. I'm gonna talk to Anna tonight. There's no reason to be cold to me!"

Everything makes sense now. They probably left us that day to spend time together.

"Do it. I hope you two can finish it. I can see, the rift between you two really makes you sad."

"Yes," I admit.

"I feel alone. You work, I have no one to talk to. Everyone is busy with their own lives, I feel insignificant.

"You don't feel alone. I'm sorry." He pulled my hair back and looked at her.

"It's not your fault. I was wrong, I pretended not to like you. I'm sorry."

He shook his head. "I'm pretty sure you have a good reason for that."

I grabbed his arm. "Indeed Devan, I'm sorry. You probably won't believe me, but I have a reason to do that".

"Are you going to tell me what it is?"

"I can't. Not now, I'll tell you soon." I clasped his hand tightly, my face serious. "Remember that my feelings are sincere. Whatever happens in the future, I want you to know that I like you. Like you so much. My feelings are real. They're sincere and wish I did well to show you through these dates"

"Daria, is everything okay?" He looked at me, agitated. "Why are you saying things like this?"

"Everything is fine, but don't know if it will be like that in the future. You might hate me someday. You'll be mad at me. You'll question the time we spent together, but I want you to remember today and what you're saying right now, when that time comes."

"You're scaring me."

"I'm sorry." I hugged her. "I like you a lot."

He sighed. "I'll trust you and let you take your time to tell me what this is all about"

I nodded to his shoulder.

The car stopped in front of us as we moved away. We put in our little backpack and will be home soon and back to the real world.

....

"Are you and Luna dating?" The question came out of my mouth. This is not the way I plan to approach this matter.

"What?"

"Anna, are you dating Luna?"

"Why do you think that?" He looks really confused.

"Why not? You two look so close to each other. You two are hiding something from me, aren't you?"

"We're not hiding anything and no, I'm not dating Luna. I like men. I'm normal!"

"But how do you explain? what are you two doing in secret?"

"I don't have to explain anything."

"Look, I'm not here to fight, if you two like each other, then be together! If you're worried about how I'm going to react, then you don't have to worry anymore. I'm not going to forbid you to date him"

"Oh, you can allow it but can't allow Gio and I to date?" He curled his eyebrows

"That was. Now different. Do you like Gio?"

"Yes! Darla, are you stupid? Of course I like it. Luna knew that. Bella knows. They told me it was very clear. Are you blind? "

I did not expect such a confession from him.

"Then what's the problem? You want to date her? Date her!"

He scoffed. "Are you serious? You told me to stay away from him. That if you date her, it could jeopardize your secret. I avoided it because of your rules."

"What's? I'm just saying that if you like it so much, you should fight for it. How could you give up?"

"Maybe it's because we think our bad friendship is more important than her."

"I'm sorry" couldn't look him in the eye.

"Fuck you."

"I know I made a mistake but you can still go back to her, right? He likes you too. She missed you."

Tears glittered in his eyes, ready to fall. "I can't go back now. I have made him suffer so much. I don't want to be so shameless and selfish as to think he'll take me back."

"But he will I know he will-"

He shook his head. "You know nothing. Darla's. Come out, I don't want to see your face anymore"

"You're being too hard, Ann. Don't you think you're overreacting to this?"

"As I said, you don't know anything, you don't know how deep my problems are, you're so self-obsessed, you don't even know what I've been through!!!"

"Then explain to me Anna! Because I can't find a valid reason for me to blame me like this"

"I don't want to talk to you. Please come out."

From the many fights we had before, I knew it was better to leave than to put too much pressure on him.

I think Anna and I can make peace. That we'll be friends again and forget all our fights.

But it's getting worse. He's not dating Luna. He likes Gio but there are bigger problems that he is not aware of.

It's no hope. Making him talk to me is always futile. Just futile. I won't get anything out of him no matter how hard I try. I wonder how long he'll keep going like this.

When I returned to my room, Devan was waiting outside his room. I told him I would talk to him and he said he would wait to see how it turned out.

"Hows it? Did you two make up?" He asked expectantly

I sighed and shook my head. "No. It's getting worse"

"Why? Are they not dating?"

"No, we were wrong. He likes Gio".

"really? Waw. Okay. So what's the problem? They like each other, shouldn't they be together?"

"should have. "I nodded. "I don't know what's holding Anna"

Realizing that I was not in a good mood to talk, she kissed my forehead which made the day a little better after what had just happened.

"I'm sure he'll be back. Don't worry."

I nodded despite not believing it.

"Now go and sleep. You're obviously very tired. Do your hands and feet still hurt?"

"No, I'm fine now. Thank you for your massage last night."

"Are you sure? I can massage you again now. You have to promise not to moan too hard. If your father hears you moan like that and sees me in your room, I could be the undead"

I laugh. "I don't think you're going to be dead meat. My dad likes you. He thinks we're a good fit and he says you're a good person.he doesn't mind if we start seeing each other"

"really? She said that?" His eyes sparkled with happiness.

"of course. And he's right. You're a very nice person and I wish I could be with you."

"I'll break it after the third date."

I'm pouting. "really. I forgot that the exam wasn't over."

"Are you tired of that?"

"No. It's just that this is a trial date. I want to go on a real date where we become a real couple."

"Then go on a last date so I can make a decision"

"It's tomorrow"

"What's? That fast?"

I'm nodding. "I found the perfect idea for a last date. I can't wait to ask you out."

I'm very happy. You better not let me down."

"I'll try it." I answered flatly.

We said good night to each other and went into each other's rooms.

Yes, tomorrow will be the third and final date that will decide our fate.I am sure that in the end we will be together.

I knew we were going to be together!