I'm Not Daria
Routines

It had started to feel like a normal routine when Devan slid into my bed, drunk again.

Now there is no need to lock the door.

When I turned my body around to face her, she was already looking at me with tired and livid eyes. It must have been because of her drunken state, she felt sleepy but she still struggled to keep her eyes open

"I miss you" she whispered and my heart felt tight.

I turned to the original position so that my back was facing him. It was too painful to even look at him.

I kept staring at the digital clock on my nightstand, waiting for sleep to take over me. Five minutes passed and I still couldn't sleep.

I could feel Devan shifting from time to time, maybe trying to find a comfortable position to sleep in and maybe that distraction was what kept me awake

Five minutes turned into fifteen minutes and then into thirty minutes until I realized that an hour and a half had passed and I was still staring at the clock in the dark the entire time.

"Daria, are you asleep?" His little whisper in silence almost startled me thinking he was sleeping well

I didn't answer, I'm sure he'll fall asleep again.

I felt her shift again but this time I felt the space next to me descend and my blanket lift up slightly as she slid into it quietly. His arms wrapped around me, he pulled me back until my back was stuck in front of him until we looked like two stacked spoons. His nose touched the nape of my neck and I could feel him relaxing into me. I'm not pulling back

I don't know why, I fell asleep after that.

....

When my eyes opened due to the morning light that entered through the window the next day, my mind realized that Devan and I had changed positions in our sleep and were now practically hugging each other. my head was on her shoulders and my arms were wrapped around her waist and she was holding me.

I quietly moved from under her arms, into the bathroom to refresh myself and take a shower.

When I'm done and ready and walk out of my room. Devan was gone because as soon as I opened the bathroom door, I heard my bedroom door shut hard and footsteps in the hallway, most likely Devan returned to his room.

I went down to breakfast and said good morning to my parents as usual.

They must be aware of my moody mood because they asked me that and asked me if I was not feeling well? I answered I just couldn't sleep last night.

Anna did not show up for breakfast and when asked Amara, she told me that she wanted to have breakfast later after everyone had eaten, and that too in her room. I know he's avoiding me. He didn't want to talk to me and now he doesn't even want to see my face.

The thing I did not deserve the most was to know the reason, but he refused to give me any explanation. I don't want to lose my friend and I won't get it back, at least as long as I'm here.

After breakfast, I just watched TV aimlessly when I heard a car stop in the driveway. After a few seconds, Luna entered through the door.

I was surprised to see him because I just saw him last night. He walked straight towards me. I wonder if he has nothing better to do than come here and tell me how inappropriate Devan is.

"We need to talk. Now either. Let's go to your room."

His tone and words scared me and I started thinking about all the things that could have gone wrong.

When he closed my bedroom door and locked it from the inside, I knew it was something serious

"What's wrong?"

He looks very angry. "Have you slept with Devan?"

"Anna saw him coming out of your room, bare-chested, with shoes and shirts in hand and with messy hair. She looks like she just woke up and when she peeked into your room, your bed looked like two people were sleeping and you just got out of the bathroom." He finished and glared at me "Have you slept with him all this time and lied about how you forgot about him?"

"No! It's not what it looks like"

"Explain."

I rubbed my temple because I knew I had to tell her about how Devan had been in my bed for these few days. He won't be very happy about it but I have to tell him even though he knows he will get dizzy after that.

"OK, first tell me why did Anna report something about me to you? He had no reason to come to my room or even wander around this part of the mansion because he seemed to be eager to avoid me for reasons I didn't know."

"Why? Is there something you're hiding?" He asked in a cynical tone.

"No, I don't have any. But just tell me. Did you get Anna to spy on me?"

"Of course not. He doesn't even know that Devan and I are dating. She thought we were dating for real, so she told me what she saw."

"Why did he do that? Doesn't that mean you'll be mad at me and probably reveal my true identity to everyone?"

He shrugged his shoulders.

"Wow, what a great friend." I muttered.

"Are you trying to change the topic?" He asked impatiently. "I'm not interested in anything that happens to your friendship. Just explain why Devan looked like he slept with you this morning"

I sneered at him when he wasn't looking.

"alright. We never had that forbidden relationship. She just came to my room at night, drunk and I had no choice but to let her sleep in my bed."

He raised an eyebrow hearing my brief explanation, clearly in disbelief. "Why didn't you help her into her room? Or to one of the guest rooms? If it's too much for you, you can ask the maid to take her to her room. In addition, locking your bedroom door at night may help.

"I feel responsible because he drinks so much. It was like he was drinking because I wanted to take care of him." I asked.

He rolled his eyeballs. "Not everything is about you. He might just feel like drinking a glass or two because of the pressure of work or something."

I fell silent because I knew it wasn't because of that, but I didn't want to waste my time explaining it to Luna who wouldn't understand.

"He told me that he didn't want to do it again, that fake date" she said after some time.

"He wanted me to tell the media that we've broken up." He spoke and I was a little surprised.

"Why would he suddenly ask me that when you wouldn't even be with him?" I didn't answer until he continued. "She thought you two were together behind my back so she didn't want to do it anymore."

"I told you it wasn't that." I repeated tiredly

"Yes. But do not do anything that will not be approved"

"I'll try it." I answered flatly, suppressing the uncertainty in my voice and she caught it because she looked at me with narrowed eyes.

"I'm leaving." He picked up his bag and started walking towards the door. "And lock the door at night" he said, slamming it shut.

I think I should talk to Anna again.