I'm Not Daria
A fight with Anna

We watched a few movies after that and invited him to lunch and he agreed. We spent the afternoon in my bed just talking about our lives and making some jokes until we ran out of topics to talk about, and he decided to go home.

So I didn't get much out of Bella because she didn't know anything about what happened with Anna and Luna. I don't want to talk to Luna about this or about anything. So I have to face Anna again. I was getting tired of the secrecy between these two girls and I was determined to find out what was really going on.

So as soon as I found out that it was safe to approach Anna at night, a little before dinner time, I took the opportunity when no one around was bothering us and asked her.

I knocked on the door. It seemed like he had made a permanent place in the guest room because it was rare that I saw him outside other than when we all gathered to eat.

"Come in" Her voice was barely audible to me and I wouldn't have heard if Aki hadn't noticed her reaction

I opened the door and gently closed it behind me. He leaned over in front of the laptop, typing quickly on it.

"What are you doing?" I sit in front of him on the bed.

He looked up and his face bowed and it seemed like he wanted me out. I didn't understand the problem, but decided to stay calm and slowly figure out what my purpose was here.

"Just finish the programming task."

I'm nodding. "How's college?"

"Good," he said, still not looking at me.

"When is your university exam?

"In a few weeks."

I nodded again. "Raka's party was a lot of fun, right? Everything is mysterious and interesting with the theme of the mask"

"Yes." Yeah."

I exhaled noisily, annoyed by his vague and short answer

"Are you not feeling well?

"I'm doing fine. Why do you think I'm not well? I'm healthy and have no problems". Again he answered without looking at his laptop.

"Oh, it's just that you don't look well. That night, at the party. You look very ill. I overheard your conversation with Gio"

He doesn't look angry at me, but he looks annoyed by it. "Then, you must have also heard it was just a menstrual pain. You know how bad it was in the first two days. So why do you fuss about it? I told you it's nothing, I'm fine, so forget it."

"Then, I should also tell you that I heard you asking Luna. Should I tell you what it's like to be betrayed when the first person you think of in such a situation is Luna, even though I've been your best friend for longer?"

"Are you seriously here to whine about it just because you're a little jealous?"

"I'm not jealous.I just feel that you and Luna are hiding something big and serious from me and I need to know.I deserve to know what happened."

"How many times are we going to talk about this? I told you there's nothing you need to know, so leave me alone." She's upset

I'm not even surprised anymore.

"Is there anything about Gio?" ask me calmly.

"What's? No."

"Then why did you avoid it as if something was going on between you two."

"I know I said it once but this time it feels different. Is there something going on between the two of you?"

"No! We only kissed once and from then on everything became awkward between us. From then on I've always avoided her as you've told me."

I scoffed at his words. "I didn't tell you. I'm just telling you that it's best if you do it."

"So that's what I did and still do. What else do you want from me? If you haven't noticed, there's still a lot I have to do and I'd really appreciate it if you leave!."

"Why is it that every time I try to talk to you, it always ends in a fight? Can't we have a normal conversation where we don't mock each other or yell at or keep secrets and don't trust each other?" my snapping.

Anna groaned and moved her head from one side to the other as if my words were making her hurt in the neck.

"Please go."

Knowing that talking to him further would be futile, I immediately stood up and without a word began to walk towards the door.

"You can't hide it forever, Anna. Someday it will be discovered." And with that I closed the door hard.

I was so worried about him. She was obviously having a problem but she wouldn't tell me. Not knowing when or how we got to this point in our friendship. Before it all started, we were basically a family, we were always together in any situation and fought together.

When I closed the door, I saw Luna approaching me, most likely she was about to meet Anna.

I would pretend not to see him, but he showed his whereabouts by speaking. "What are you doing there?" She looked curious but I could see that she was worried and alert while asking that question.

"I don't think I should tell you. Anna will tell you everything because you two are best friends"

"I don't know what you're talking about. We're not good friends."

I scoffed. "I was worried that I would look like a double-eyed girl if all I wanted was to like Devan back, but I didn't expect you to steal something that was really mine. Anna is the only one I have outside of this world and you've taken it from me. What else do you want from me?"

"Are you drunk? Are you not sane? Do you know what you're talking about?" He raised an eyebrow

I didn't answer him and I shook my head at him and walked towards my room

"It seems you're a little weak now. I'm not sure how long you can hold back from Devan, but work hard. If not, well, let's just say I've done everything I can to prevent a disaster. I know I'm putting a lot of pressure on you right now, but baby, you two aren't cut out for each other, just as it's not suitable for me to be here among the so-called families who don't deserve it." He called behind me

I don't even know what that last sentence means. All I can think of is that you two are no match for each other.

Devan and I are no match for each other.

I started to hate Luna for what she did to me. Did he even help me again? Why is he so hard on me?

Why does the world use such materialistic, insignificant and small items as a measure of one's worth to love others? What power does that person have to set such a foolish mind?

One time I was under the blanket a little earlier than usual after dinner, just wishing Devan was near me. Wishing he would come lying on the side, for my bed to smell the familiar scent and give me the happiness it gets every time it comes up and crawls into my bed.

Perhaps it is, perhaps, true in a world where wealth and background are not important.

A world too beautiful to be true.

The world of my dreams