I'm Not Daria
Guilt

The next morning, I woke up early and it was quite happy.

These past few days I have felt lazy and lethargic for doing nothing.

It was about 05:30 in the morning when my eyes opened and then couldn't sleep after. So I took a blanket out of bed and sat on the balcony to see the sunrise. The morning was a bit cold and I put the blanket around me, trying my best to ignore the cold ceramic floor of the balcony.

There were birds chirping in the trees strategically planted in rows on either side of the road leading to a heavy iron gate guarded by about two guards.

The fountain that was never too noticed it stood like a beautiful work of art. A mermaid statue carved on a rock with curly hair on its head. Her hair spewed water into the fountain and looked very beautiful. The small lights installed on the ground lit up brightly.

The sunrise is beautiful. It felt like the first time I saw the sun rise after all this time, and it was true. The luxurious lifestyle that has been forced makes me forget the example of life's pleasures such as watching the sunrise, staring at the stars in the clear night sky, the chirping of birds in the morning, and the, the excitement is simply by staring at the vortex of steam created from a hot cup of coffee as it dissipates into the air. I missed my life before this drama started. It's simple, as I want it.

Soon, the sun began to rise on the pink horizon. I was forced to vacate my comfortable seat on the balcony floor because the rising sun made it too warm for me to sit any longer.

After brushing my teeth, I went downstairs to enjoy a delicious breakfast of frittata. It was about eleven in the morning.

Samantha was enjoying an apple apricot smoothie and Liam was reading a business newspaper. I thought I saw Devan on the front page.

Frittata was amazing, which reminded me that I had to work with the chefs. I decided to do it from tomorrow, I ate my breakfast, enjoyed the great taste.

Anna hasn't joined me yet and Sam and Liam have breakfast. I haven't seen him since waking up and I hope he won't show me his face at all, at least for today but I know it's too much.

After finishing my breakfast, I went upstairs to the bathroom for a relaxing warm bath. I picked out the clothes for today, threw them on the bed to wear after the shower.

Sam and Liam are leaving today, but they have promised me that they will visit again soon with Samantha's husband and Liam's girlfriend.

I was happy when they both believed that I was the real Daria, when I wasn't. Of course, I feel sorry for all of them. I knew they would be more heartbroken to know the truth than how happy they were right now.There would be a day where they would know and I would not be able to forget that day.

Instead of love, I will see hatred in their beautiful eyes. They'll never trust anyone again. I'm pretty sure that it will have an impact on the trust they have in their own families.

My mind suddenly turned towards the negative side of all this, I did not want to think about it because it would make myself miserable. I can't tell them I can't force myself to do it. I am also not a coward who is afraid of their reaction, I am afraid to let go of this life and it makes me hold all the truth from them.

I know I'm selfish. I had to change my view of the whole situation. It's not too late to go back, but the problem is that I don't want to go back.it might even be too late to do that.

But I always kept my attitude. I'm selfish but I won't let myself be more than that. I don't intend to be a thief or a robber. I also don't want to be related to their wealth, it's not mine. I still know what's wrong and what's not and I won't let myself be more wrong than I've done.

I turned off the water, drained myself and walked out wearing clothes that had been laid out on the bed. Comb your hair and lock it.

I walked out of the room and down into the living room where I knew everyone would lie down.

Sam has ordered us all to leave all work to this day and spend time with each other like a family. Yes, a situation where a family chatting during holidays.

Fortunately, Devan was not there because he did not want to interrupt his time with us and he also had a lot of work. That was the lie he gave us all secretly. I know he just avoided me. What happened yesterday was so embarrassing even for me and the awkward atmosphere between us was too heavy to handle. I guess Devan was thinking the same as me and he happily stayed away.

I wonder if this will end the joke war between us because it will be one good thing that will come out of this. While scratching the part of my body that was itching from being scratched on clothes, I opened the room door and walked out.