I'm Not Daria
Abortions

As I opened the papers that looked like some kind of receipt, the door opened and Anna entered while holding her stomach. He could barely hold himself.

"Anna! Are you all right?" I asked as I rushed up to him and picked him up.

He tried to grab the papers in my hand, but I kept them away from him. He twitched, regardless of my grasp and fell to the ground in a curled up position

"My God, Annaaaa!!! What's going on?"

Suddenly I sensed Bella's presence beside me and turned to her for help, but she had already stuck a cell phone in her ear, I heard her calling the doctor immediately while helping Anna into her bed.

He looked much better after the doctor came and examined him.

I showed him the pills that had been found. Luna came after Bella called her and initially told us to leave but it didn't.

"What have you done to him?" I almost snapped at him, unable to resist the bitterness of my voice.

"I didn't do anything." He answered with a sniff.

No matter how hard he tried, he gave nothing away.

Then the doctor came and gave something to Anna and she immediately felt better after that

I've seen his receipts and diary before. I didn't know that he had experienced so many things without having a premonition about it.

"Are you not taking those pills?" The doctor asked Anna.

He's nodding.

"Have you missed your meal?"

He shook his head. "I don't eat much. No appetite."

"That's not good. You must not starve yourself and must take the prescribed pills every day. It's not healthy for you to keep doing this.

"I just. I feel unworthy to be healthy after what I've been through."

"I understand you may be depressed after having an abortion, but moral support is very important. Don't you guys take care of his mental health?" The doctor turned his questioning gaze to us and gritted his teeth

The three of us were silent.

"We didn't know she had an abortion. He kept it a secret from us." I said

"I know. I helped him as much as I could." Luna said

"I warn you about the risks associated with surgical abortion. You make things worse by not taking care of yourself" says Dr. Sofie, looking at Anna. "What side effects are you still experiencing?"

"Kram, heavy bleeding and fever."

"That's normal, in some cases the side effects last up to three weeks. Please take care of yourself and take the pills I gave you before and the ones I give you now at the appointed time."

Anna did not answer, so she turned to us. "Please make sure he does what I tell him to do."

"Yes, doctor. Thank you." I replied

After he left. I turned to the girls and asked if I could talk to Anna alone.

Luna did not want to but she then complied and left with Bella. Now Anna and I are.

I paced uncomfortably in front of him, unsure of how to start.

"When did this happen?"

"What's? My pregnancy or abortion?" He asked with an empty face.

"You remember the reception party after Andrew and Silla's wedding a few months ago? Gio and I were drunk and you told us to go home. We were both drunk and it happened".

I remember the party and telling them to go home "Why didn't you tell me that you two slept together?"

"I'm afraid I'll mess it up for you. I know you'll be disappointed in me, especially after you told me that Gio and I weren't meant to be together. So I'm afraid of how you react" he looked down at her hand.

"Anna! we are friends. Of course I will support you in whatever decision you make. All you have to do is tell me that you are really hurt! Why Anna???! Why are you doing this to me"

"Don't say that. Your words only make me hate myself more and more. Maybe if you knew you'd support me and my son would be safe." He looked at his flat stomach, stroking it with his fingertips.

"Did Gio know?" ask me again,

He sighed. "No."

"He deserves to-"

"I know." He said quickly. "But it won't. It was no longer there so did not know why to tell him. It would just stress him out and he wouldn't want to hook up with me, it's all done. I'm going back to my old life in peace."

"Anna, even though the baby is gone, she still deserves to know." I try to be as gentle as possible. "And it's better you tell him than he knows it in a painful way."

"Why should he know? If we all shut up, he won't"

"I already know, right?

Anna was speechless, trying to imagine an answer, "You searched the room without my permission. He wouldn't do that."

"I really want to know what's wrong with you. Maybe someday Gio will be just as desperate.Reasonably, really hoping he can see that it's important for him to know this".

He didn't answer

"Why did you abort the baby?"

"I don't want to make trouble for you, I-a-I don't know if Gio wants this baby. I can't do it alone, I'm not ready to have a baby. I am not responsible and will not be a good mother. I wasn't even mentally prepared for it so couldn't give birth to it and hand it over for adoption I was selfish and this angel didn't deserve it "Her eyes wet and he licked his lips

"You've been through a lot." I sat down next to him and pulled him into a hug. "You're gonna be fine. All this time you've been through this alone, but now you know, I'm with you. You can talk to me whenever you want".

He didn't return my embrace. Instead, I felt she was pulling away from me a little.

"Are you okay?" my many.

"I don't know, I don't feel anything"

I don't know what to say to her

"Are you hungry? Doctor says you haven't eaten well Do you want me to bring you something?"

He shook his head. "I don't want to eat anything".

"I won't let you fall into depression. I'll be around you often from now on, so you better get used to it. I'll get you something."

I got up to leave but he held my hand. "I said I didn't want anything." He spoke with a sharp tone.

His cold attitude made me stop. "Okay, but please eat something later at dinner"

I sit back.

"You remember that date we were planning a while ago? That day you and Luna disappeared somewhere. Is it a day

"I'm abortion? Yep. It was the hardest decision of my life."